"REMEDY" - This piece was the one piece from my solo exhibition that I decided to keep for myself. I love it a lot and it's a reflection of a lot of things about myself. There is another painting under this one that carry personal meaning, the painting before reflected a lot of my pain and anger I had about my past, I felt betrayed, violated, unseen, unheard and invisible. I created the painting below when I was emotionally unable to deal with the bulk of trauma I had experienced. It was very early on in my healing and I didn’t have the capacity or tools. The previous painting had a lot of agressiveness and I felt like this painting now is in many ways a Remedy and effort to figure out who I am now and shine some light on those dark parts of myself. I used to think I had to be dark, edgy, and agressive. I guess it was a way of protecting myself. This painting and this solo exhibition was a way I could reclaim my femininity. I think often especially those who grew up in abusive situations find themselves deleting their feminity, particularly because abusers discourage a lot of feminine behaviour, at least in my case. This painting is a form of forgiveness. Forgiving myself, with an over edited poem, lavender, chamomile, torn sketches, and acrylic paint, and accepting the mess, and the sides of myself in a form of beauty. What do you see in this painting? Would love to know your interpretation . . . . . . . . . . . . #yxelocal #yxeart #yxe #artheals #camomilledreaming #artoftheday #artstagrams #abstractart #mixedmediaart #arthealsthesoul #iamasurvivor #artformentalhealth #arttherapy #girlsmakingmagic #acrylicpourart #chamomileflowers #lavenderflowers #discarded_butnot_forgotten #poetryart #discardedpostitpoetry #messyart #paintingsofinstagram (at Saskatoon, Saskatchewan) https://www.instagram.com/p/CIMcw9LHjAC/?igshid=1u9qt41rfa4el
