#candy mag

[samanthalightning]

I present you, the magazines that my 12 years old self could buy with so little money she had. This is so early 2010s and I miss it!!

Sorry for the crappy angle and lighting, I panicked.

Also my sister asked me who Sabrina Carpenter is and I feel so old 😭

[superrichlads]

macysfields: best work trip ever tbh #niallhoransg

[beautifulfaaces]

Darin Blaine Wilkens

Facts

October 2, 1997

American model

Model Book

Candy Mag

Appearance

black hair

short hair

hazel eyes

Roleplay

playable: teenager, young adult

[that-pretty-face]

Ylona Garcia & Andrea Brillantes

[that-pretty-face]

Andrea Brillantes and Ylona Garcia

[celineandreaux-blog]

So recently, I started working on an article that I submitted in Candy Magazine’s (a Philippine based magazine) website. I’m so stoked for you guys to finally read it! It’ll be up as soon as it gets approved :)

For the meantime, I’m posting the article here! minus all the fun stuff tho (photos and gifs) 

(Article based on my blog entry: Life attached to strings http://celineandreaux.tumblr.com/post/148048135088/life-attached-to-strings )

How to Overcome Feeling of Being Controlled

A few tips to overcome the feeling of being controlled.

I'm the most passive person I know. I like the idea of letting people decide for me, so much that I became obssessed with the idea of allowing people to settle things for me.  It may sound easy when written subjectively but it actually feels as though being attached onto strings, with someone controlling them so you could do things their way. That is how it feels like when you’re not capable enough to stand up for yourself, though described figuratively. You have a million thoughts swarming around your head but uttering them feels so scary, you ended up pursing your lips together.

Now let's not focus on all the negative side. There's always a way out of this. Here, I listed down a few tips that might actually help you, my lovely readers, who feel the same way as I do, to cope up with the feeling of being controlled.

You're being too passive. Dominant people often find their strength towards people who lack confidence on themselves. Those who rarely speak up, too afraid to open their mouths because they might utter something so completely wrong. Being passive gives those people with so much dominance in themselves the chance to control someone under their shoe. We don't want that happening now, do we? Then speak up! Learn to boost your self confidence, (not too high tho! We don't want to make an egocentric person out of ourselves now..) and most importantly, know that your opinion matters.

Learn to say "No!". Main reason why we become a nice target for puppeteers is because we can't even say No. It's never wrong to say no, not unless it's your mom trying to make you do your bed! On a more serious note tho, people who shows a strong sense of control over someone gets the feeling of dominance when they can feel like you are agreeing with almost everything he says. And that is when the puppet scene finally comes into the scene. Not being able to say no, means allowing other people to control your mind and so you begin to do things their way. We don't want that happening now, do we? Then teach yourself to disagree, sometimes.

I'm a child no more! Not that I'm suggesting you guys to engage into rebellion because that would be the last thing we want happening. That is a huge No! no! What I'm trying to say tho is, we're old enough to come up with our own decisions, though, we might wanna need some help from an elderly for a better planning. Reassert the fact that you are not a child, and that being individual and responsible for one's own decisions is what adulthood is all about. 

Be strong. If there's someone you need to help, then it's yourself. Help yourself stand up and brush yourself off the dust! The only way you can manage to do the things said above is if you are able to withstand their demanding selves. Their dominance and control could powerfully affect your mind, senses or emotions. A strong heart is deeply needed, though it might probably take a lot of time to accumulate that one. Let's speak about that on my next article ;) 

You are not going to be controlled, no more. The first step to acquire everything I've listed down for you is to believe and stand firm on the fact that you're no longer going to be controlled. Not that you don't want your parents going over you life, I don't mean it that way. In fact, if this post ever has to say something then it has to be allowing your parents or elderlies to help us build decsions in our life.  But we surely want to be out of those controlling puppeteers' strings, right? Hope the above tips are enough help!

[empyrealmuse]

I'm Sorry, I'm Still Afraid to Love You

Two days ago, I just realized that there's something special in you and there's something that makes my heart leap whenever I'm with you. I don't know but all I want is to see you and to talk to you. We've been classmates for almost four semesters now, but this semester is different. I'm glad that I got the chance to know you better and to get along with you. You're not that bad as what I have thought. Then, I found out that you're an outgoing person and that you don't really care about what happens next. You don't pressure yourself about life; you just enjoy it which is what I admired and liked about you most. To be honest, sometimes I got irritated by you because you can be too proud. But you're a very good friend. I have to admit that this is the first time I've ever had a guy friend. I have to admit that people were right when they said that having a guy friend is something indescribable and one of the best feelings in the world. Yes, to have a friend who is a boy is something indescribable. Do you know that feeling to always have someone beside you to protect you, to respect you, to scold you, to spoil you, and most of all to annoy you like your brother? But there is something deeper than that and that's the thing I can't explain. Whenever I think of what I am feeling for you, there's always a force that stops me. I don't know but I think it's a good thing, a caution for me because first, we're in the same group of friends and it's awkward if I confess my feelings for you. Second, I know that someone loves you and you love someone else too. Lastly, what about our friendship? What about our newly built friendship? I don't want to ruin it. When will I allow myself be happy? I am afraid to fall and to get hurt. What if I fall so hard and there's no one to catch me, not even you? So for now, I'll try to stop myself from falling, falling so hard.

[thyom-blog]

You thought love suffices your relationship yet a day after a perfect movie date, they'll leave you all of a sudden, without explanations, which, to put it simply, sucks. They'll just vanish into thin air, and you'll be left hanging. Next thing you know, your whole life is ruined.