I got this idea while writing my previous headcanon fic that I will make another part to but had to get this out…I love making characters human and flawed and ugh
Includes: All hashira
Giyuu Tomioka
Giyuu would be very insecure within a relationship
He needs constant reassurance, to the point where it can become kind of exhausting
He’ll become very distant and cold quite randomly, and he won’t communicate why, he simply expects you to know and proceed to reassure him
But he’ll always be doubtful, and he’ll never feel like he’s enough
Which, in turn, makes it seem like you’ll never be enough
I also feel like he would be extremely overprotective—in a way that’s sometimes suffocating
Again, it comes from an insecurity, and the fear that he’ll lose another person he loves
Sometimes it comes across that he’s doubtful you could protect yourself on your own
Shinobu Kocho
Everything and anything will annoy or anger her
She’s incredibly passive aggressive, so much so that it becomes very hard to know if she’s being genuine or not
She’s bad at communication, and does not share what she’s feeling openly
Sometimes it feels like you can do nothing right, for she won’t tell you if something hurts her feelings or rubs her the wrong way
She simply leaves the situation and lets it marinate in your mind
Vulnerability with someone is just so strange to her, it’s a concept that’s not even in her mind
So it takes her a long time to ever open up to you
And she doesn’t like feeling weak or unsure of what’s going on in any given situation
Kyojuro Rengoku
Similar to Giyuu, there’s an insecurity that bubbles in his chest
But it’s not that he feels like he’s not worth you, it’s just that he strives to be perfect in every way
He’s an overachiever in every sense of the word, and he pushes himself to his absolute limit to be the absolute best for you
In a way, it becomes incredibly overwhelming
Not only that, but it makes you feel like you aren’t going above and beyond like he always is
He holds himself to the highest possible expectations, which is simply the way he was raised
To live up to his mother’s wishes, by being the eldest son, to not disappoint his father
It all comes into account with him
Gyomei Himejima
Gyomei is extremely driven and pushes towards his goals in a way that may be destructive to himself or you
Not that he’s not cautious—but if there is a mission in sight he will stop at nothing to achieve it
He’s also extremely overprotective
Not only is he over protective, but he places your needs and wants before his own
That on paper seems like a good thing, but it comes back to hurt him in the end
He will place you on a sort of pedestal
He’s very caring and takes your feelings into a count, but he won’t believe his feelings are of any importance
If something is upsetting him, if something harms his pride, he will not come to you and communicate it
He doesn’t want you to ever feel guilt or like you’ve done something wrong
He believes that is the only way to keep the peace between the two of you.
Uzui Tengen
Uzui does not like vulnerability or being open with you
Perhaps it’s the way he was raised as a shinobi, but I also think it’s because of his pride and flamboyance
Becoming a weaker version of himself would injure the pride he has for himself
His flashiness becomes more and more of a performance than it is just expressive
When it comes to anytime he’s in a bad mood, there is absolutely nothing you can do about it
He will not become vulnerable in any way, especially not to you, who is someone he holds to a high status
Mitsuri Kanroji
Mitsuri has been practically rejected by everyone who had mattered, so there’s a deep fear that you will be the same
She’s terribly afraid that she’s too much for you
So she’ll water down reactions, the way she acts, how openly loving she is towards you
There’s forever a fear that you’ll up and leave her
So she’s incredibly insecure
Which, isn’t a bad thing, it’s alright to be insecure
But it gets to the point where it rises doubt in your relationship
Does she have no trust in you?
She’ll reassure you that it’s not the case, but sometimes that’s really how it feels
Iguro Obanai
Because of Iguro’s past, he is absolutely uncomfortable with affection
Not just physical, but vocal too
Physical is way worse, though. Anything more than hand holding is a lot for him
And he becomes very abrasive if you cross that line
I just don’t think he’s ever learned how to handle it, or how to accept that it isn’t vile
His past is always present in his mind, and his fight or flight activates any time it occurs
He either lashes out because of it or completely shuts down, both interactions differing depending on how intimate the action is
Again, it doesn’t inherently mean sexual intimacy, though that too is very off limits
Tokito Muichiro
Muichiro is very young, and not only that, but he doesn’t know how to handle a relationship
He is very detached as a person, but also emotionally detached
He will not treat you differently than anyone else, or at least, that’s how it feels sometimes
It will more than likely make you feel like he either doesn’t care for you, or he doesn’t see you as a significant other
That couldn’t be further from the truth in his mind—but that is how it comes across
I do think, unlike some of the others, there are genuine moments of vulnerability with him
But they are still very very rare
Sanemi Shinuzugawa
Sanemi has sort of made you his outlet
He takes out his frustrations and anger onto you and expects you to take it
Although you know he doesn’t really mean most of the things he says
It’s really hard not to take it personally
I don’t believe it comes from a place of hatred or dislike, no, quite the opposite
I believe it comes from a place of deeply rooted fear
He cares about you too much to lose you, if he keeps his distance, perhaps the ache would be softer if such a terrible thing were to ever happen
However, when you do in fact begin to distance yourself because of how abrasive he is
He regrets every moment
But he would never ever admit that to you or himself
i loved ur writing about how the hashiras deal with not being able to protect you in the infinity castle!! what about a sequel where you finally reunite with them and it’s like very fluffy (or not 🥲 cough cough) i think it would be cute! no pressure tho, love ur work!! <3
˖˚˳⌖ Infinity˖˚˳⌖
The first parts to this one are here and here!!
Reuniting with them after the infinity castle
Already behind on asks but if anyone knows me then you know that was bound to happen. Woops. ANYWAYS I’m gonna have to memorize what all happens during the finale cuz it’s been a bit…but oh well!! Thanks so much for the ask!!
Also some people will not be involved due to..the unfortunate truth that you would not be able to reunite with many of them
Warnings: SPOILERS for infinity castle and all that comes after it (so both manga AND anime spoilers)
Includes: Giyuu, Sanemi, Tengen
Giyuu Tomioka
Giyuu’s sword arm throbbed after he slumped against the rubble of what used to be a building
The kakushi were hauling Tanjiro off, the sun was blazing down whoever was still alive
He reached for his sword, but a splitting pain shocked his shoulder, he tried flexing his fingers but—
The pain in his right arm was so relevant and real that he clearly forgot it was ripped clean out of its socket
He sighed as his head slumped, his one good ear still muffling the sounds around him.
It wasn’t until he saw the flash of a certain haori that he suddenly felt rejuvenated
He was certain—no, he was devastatingly sure that you had left this world
That’s what his luck always gives him, he’s always failed to protect the ones he cares about
But there you were, with injuries of your own, but your eyes held life in them, your chest rose and fell with breath
He used whatever remaining strength he had to get to his weak legs
It took longer than he’d ever like to admit, but despite the situation his body and yours was in, he truly didn’t care
“Y/N—“ he rasped out as he slung his left arm around your neck, feeling the warmth of your body alongside the sun
This was it
This was the life Sabito and Urokodaki wanted for him
This was the life he couldn’t give to so many people
A life where there’s no fear, no fighting, and no monsters that thrive at night
He believed himself weak, and even if you were speaking to him, he couldn’t hear you with how badly his ears were ringing
But he knew he was sobbing into your shoulder, because finally, he was with you
And that’s all he wanted
Sanemi Shinazugawa
With the little strength Sanemi had left, he used it to grip the deep violet vest that belonged to Genya
He felt virtually nothing as the kakushi wrapped bandages around his abdomen
“Don’t..make it..so damn..tight..” he huffed towards them, but he could hardly hear himself over the constant ringing in his ears
There’s a part of him that hates just laying here, but that’s all his body is allowing him to do
And what’s worse than the vest he was gripping was the fact that he couldn’t remember if you were dead or not
Did a crow scream your name? He was so busy with Kokushibo and Muzan that he had blocked out all other things
He almost made himself sick thinking about it, but that was all that was running through his mind
In the time of your death, he wasn’t even paying attention to it
And then he begins to hallucinate, if things couldn’t get any worse
He sees your body being laid next to his, with injuries he hadn’t seen you have before
He stared at you through blurry eyes for a long while until he realized you weren’t in fact dead
And he couldn’t tell if his vision was blurry due to damage or due to the many tears that were sliding down his face but oh well
With the hand closest to you he reached out and gripped the nearest clothing on you he could find, trying to tug at it
Whatever came out of his mouth was incoherent
But all he could think about was how he’d much rather Genya be here instead of him, for Genya would weep and smile like an idiot because you were alive
Or perhaps, somewhere, his little brother is happiest knowing the two people he loves most are okay
Uzui Tengen
Uzui has been listening to the crows all night and all morning
It’s like he hasn’t breathed since he last said his farewells to you
And what he didn’t find flashy at all was how final those goodbyes sounded
And how unfair would it be for him to sit her idly while you might be out there bleeding out, or worse
When the spark of day finally rose and the crows were screeching that Muzan was dead, he practically sprinted to the scene
He saw familiar faces on stretchers, and he just prayed that the ones with their eyes closed were simply that way due to exhaustion
He wouldn’t know how to function if you were one of the ones with your eyes permanently closed
He thinks of how devastated Suma, Makio, and Hinatsuru would be
He thinks of them, because if he thinks about himself he’ll drive himself crazy—
He sees a flash of skin that he knows all too well
Before he knows it he’s by your side, checking the injuries and definitely getting in the kakushi’s way
But HE gets on THEM for being in HIS way
He keeps promising you things frantically
How he’s going to make sure you get the best meals, the flashiest clothes, he’ll help you bathe in the nicest hot spring he can find
Tengen isn’t a desperate person, he simply works towards what he wants
But never had he ever felt such relief
He’d rather relive the moments in which he was embarrassingly dying over and over again than ever wait in the unknown to know if you’re alright
How the hashira prepare for the infinity castle…and with the idea they may lose you or themselves
I remember when the kny manga came out weekly and a friend of mine from Japan would send me the volumes. I spent hours trying to translate it because I was so excited to find out what was happening. That’s the girl who was watching the Infinity Train movie last night, and she kinda awakened inside of me lmao
Includes: Giyuu, Shinobu, Tengen, Gyomei
Link to part two: here!!
Giyuu Tomioka
There are many frantic thoughts running through Giyuu’s mind
Which is very unusual for him, for he knows a frantic mind makes frantic and uncontrolled movement
He was separated from you when the infinity castle’s wretched and always moving walls pulled the hashira inside
It was disorienting to navigate, but not impossible
He reunited with Tanjiro—and at the very least that brought him some comfort
But his eyes kept looking for you
A flash of your haori, the glint of your blade, anything
He never in a thousand years believed the end of demon kind would be so reachable
He could almost feel the wisps of liberation at his fingertips
But would it be liberation if you didn’t make it?
What would he do if that cawing crow screamed of your demise?
Would any of this be worth it?
He tries to focus on the task at hand: find Muzan. Protect Tanjiro. That’s what you would have reminded him to do.
So he grits his teeth and holds his composure tight
He knows of your strength and capability, so he’s very aware that you can hold your own
But if he loses you, if you die before the world finally knows nighttime without the constant threats of demons
He doesn’t know if he’ll be able to live in such a world
So he’ll fight until his body won’t allow him anymore
For the world that you deserve
Shinobu Kocho
The moment she was separated from you, a blaze of fury bubbled in her chest cavity
It almost made her sick, as if she could taste bile on her tongue
But she swallowed her anger, focused on one goal and one goal only
To kill the bastard demon that killed Kanae
But something was nagging her, there was something about your absence that made her incredibly on edge
If you perished, if you were devoured, if you somehow died in the hands of an upper moon…how would she know?
Would it be like Kanae, where she learns from the piercing cries of a kasugai crow when it’s much too late?
She approaches this ornate temple that’s surrounded by unrippling water and she can feel in her gut that an upper moon resides here
She thinks deeply about her own weakness, how she would be much better off supporting and fighting alongside you
If she’s being honest with herself, she doesn’t know if her poison will even be effective against an upper moon
And if that hypothesis of failure is true, what then?
Her promise to you to keep herself safe, to come out of this fight alive would be broken.
But at the same time, if she dies in pursuit of killing an upper moon, in pursuit of a safer world for you and her younger sisters to live in
A death so noble wouldn’t be frowned upon
She tells herself those words in your voice, just to convince herself they’re true
Tengen Uzui
As he sits and guards the Ubuyashiki manor, there are two voices clashing in his mind
One tells him this is an honor
As an honorable and strong Shinobi, he and Shinjuro Rengoku are the last defenses if things go terribly wrong and not according to plan
The other argues that this was the only position he was useful in, because he is useless otherwise
Both losing a limb and half of his sight, he would be hopeless helping the others destroy Muzan
Hopeless..helping you
There’s nothing he can do but sit and wait
Which, luckily, is an art that he would say he has mastered
But it was a new sensation entirely when his imagination bombarded his mind with thoughts of your demise
Especially because, if such a terrible thing were to happen, he would be powerless to do anything
He would simply have to sit and wait.
And what torture would that be?
His fingers twitch as his eye gazes down towards his blade
He should be taking action, going off to find you and fight by your side nobly
But no
What he’s forced to do is sit and wait.
He resides beside the father of the man he trusted most, waiting for the hellacious creator of all demons to come crawling out of his hole in the ground
Hopefully you are heroically behind him, your blade forcing him to the sun
That’s how he desires to see you next
But again, all he can do is sit and wait and pray to gods that never seem to listen
Gyomei Himejima
Gyomei’s spiked flail and axe rampage through demons endlessly
He’s aware that Muzan is trying to overwhelm them, to tire out their bodies to make them weaker when they finally find him
He uses his acute senses to navigate such a complex labyrinth that’s always changing
He is very driven, and his tears streak down his face as he rushes forward and onward
He tries not to let his mind wander, for he knows better than anyone that one slip could mean creating a sink hole in this plan
However, the sound of your voice keeps infiltrating his ears
He swore long ago to you that you and him would create a world where you could live freely and comfortably
He knows how capable you are of being on your own, but what if something catches you off guard?
What if the last thing he ever hears from you is the cawing of a forsaken crow screaming that you’re dead?
Perhaps he would find some comfort in it, praying that you went swiftly and without pain-
But he can’t think like that. Not now. Not ever.
Kibutsuji Muzan will die tonight, and every life that’s been taken by his claws will be avenged
It’s been a while! I hope you’re all doing great, and I’m sorry for once more going on a forever break lol. But of course, Baldurs Gate 3 brainrot is so real
Before reading: Fluff, headcanons, Astarion, Lae’Zel, Gale, Shadowheart x reader (separate), gn reader
Astarion:
“Oh? I see you still can’t say no to my endless charm..”
At the beginning of the relationship, touches and prodding aren’t uncommon
Anything that can bring your attention to him
It takes a while and a lot of convincing from you that his somewhat risqué touches was not all that pleased you
And eventually he can even process that you don’t just love him for his body
Although hard for him to realize, with your help he can
So after your relationship has really blossomed and grown, his touches become softer, calmer, more intimate
Nights by the crackling fire, you in his lap, his hand massaging your nape
His fingers are dangerously cold against your skin, but there’s a sense of comfort that comes with the chill
Although he will brush off your reassurance as pitiful and unneeded..
Please reassure him omg
For the longest time, he will surely believe you are like all his other conquests,
Seduced by him and his charms
But just small whispers of love into his ear, your comforting touch against his skin
That’s enough for him.
Gale:
“Come with me, we shall rest under the stars tonight.”
I am of the firm believer that Gale is horribly touch-starved, poor man
Taken advantage of by his own Goddess, thinking that that is the best he would ever be able to do
Then when you come along, it all changed
His thoughts about himself seem to change, his standards seem to change, his love seems to change
He cares so much about you, he cannot help but think he is not worthy
That a cursed, unfaithful man as himself could never even breathe the same air as you
But all of his doubts and worries seem to melt away when you two hold one another underneath the stars
Your fingers lovingly combing through his hair as he rambles on about something he is passionate about
Wether it be a book, his expertise in magic, or Tara (lmao)
Others would shove him off as a show-off, annoying, etc
But you are so willing to hear him go on and on, that he can’t help but love you
His index finger instinctively draws shapes into your back when you hold each other
When he’s cuddled up with you, his worries that today might be his last don’t even cross his mind
He’s more worried about you, how you feel, if you’re comfortable
He doesn’t care if tonight is the last night he shall ever see you
He’d rather die tomorrow than live for an eternity never knowing you
Lae’Zel:
“Chk..I do not take part in worthless acts of intimacy.”
Lae’Zel is not much of a ‘cuddles’ person
Like at all…
She’d rather feel the thrill of battle with you, bathing in the blood of your enemies
Her way of loving is slaughtering anyone who even just looks at you the wrong way
But, if you’re particularly lucky, or especially down
She can’t help but..pity you
In her mind, it’s such a disgusting feeling. This ‘love’ makes her weak, but she cannot run from it no matter how much she tries
The most touch you’ll get from her will only occur in private
A hand perched protectively on your hip or waist
Her head slumped on your shoulder when you’re on watch for the night
acts like this, although small
It means so,so much from her
And she’ll kill you if you go telling Shadowheart about how ‘sweet’ she was being last night
Shadowheart:
“My love…ugh. I’m still not used to calling someone that.”
Shadowheart is lost when it comes to you
Not only is she horribly confused that you of all people would love her
She’s confused as to how she’s supposed to love you
Her entire life, for what she can remember, she’s never been shown comfort or remorse
If she did something wrong, she was punished
She doesn’t remember a single moment in her life when she was loved the way you love her
And although grateful, she feels unworthy
Hugs are common with her, of course in private, but common nonetheless
When she hold you in her arms, the pads of her fingers massage your back lovingly, worried if she lets go, you’ll flee
Let! Her! Play! With! Your! Hair! 🙏🏻
And please play with hers omg
At night, she’ll let her hair down and allow your hands to explore her long, black (or white) locks
Your touch sends shivers down her spine, a feeling she’s not used to, but craves so much
She truly hopes that you’ll never leave her, for now that she has tasted your touch,
