Jun 26, 2019
it’s like i get right back up to kiss the clouds and to dance in the sunlight, and wave hello to God and the angels and then i get beaten and dragged right back to the earth. it’s my anxiety, my depression, my self hate, the other girl she’s the one who comes out at night, she’s the one who comes out at 3AM telling me to suck the blood from her wrist, and to feel her pain and suffering— letting me know that my blood and hers taste the same, the same clotting color, the same smell—to know that i am her she is me, me, telling me, grounding me...keeping me in the same stuck hole..letting me know I will never be able to escape. grounding me so there will be no high horse. just the feeling of nothingness in the pit of my hearts core
