can i say something????? just some food for thought
imo, i know we joke around and phonetically say "toxic" about couples like inspekchin. like in an unserious way. sometimes.
i really don't like that term as i think it's overused and just....a little inaccurate? like yes it GOT bad but that doesn't mean it can't improve. its like catradora to me. relationships can turn VERY messy when you're separated by hands-on work. by emotions.
FASCIST trauma?...not even that sometimes. it doesn't justify the bad(or plain TERRIBLE things) that happen in the relationship but---
it's not anyone's full fault when two people end up like that, especially if for awhile, they WERE doing good. obviously its their mess. uh. trying to find the right words for this.
some people like...are physically unable to do better at that moment. autistic people, mentally ill people, it all can very. it could look like nothing on the outside but be very concerning on the inside.
and they say SO MUCH shit they don't truly mean out loud. it WAS getting unhealthy. though its like...it's not all lost. its like. just a HUGE mess. a snowball of problems.
and i know people don't mean it like they're trying to other them like. idk.
but its like. at their core, they are the most serious part of the game.
mentally ill people have a tendency to cling to one another. soooo um. just be careful, be sensitive! as hector and capochin both have obsessive tendencies and that's why it got like that. like i said previously, the two of them may have npd or bpd. not to mention inspekta's cluster c tendencies, how he barely goes outside anymore and capochin appoints himself as the sentry(and...gets jealous to the point where he's inspekta's only visitor.)
and they felt that they HAD to cling to each other because they went into this "nothing even matters any more we'll MAKE them listen to us" spiral....
i think that's why they just....stick around each other. scared, helpless, looking for answers. directionless. at a stalemate....
THIS WAS, IN A SURREAL WAY, THEIR MID LIFE CRISIS WASN'T IT? FFS
thinking that CAPITALISM was the answer -_-
but knowing it wasn't the truth, deep down. two social outcasts, suddenly convinced that people's lives were a game. capochin emotionally reclusive, inspekta physically reclusive but still so lonely.
knowing they can be better than this but being SELFISH....
most incompetent coup attempt i've seen /hj
the way capochin mirrors him....like, willingly. how he truly wants to be let in but he keeps being afraid to tell the truth, how he truly pines for hector but it's so confusing. how he can be kind when he really puts his mind to it, but he ONLY wants to appease hector because it's his ONE connection that he hasn't messed up or something?? pushing away his friends solely to idolize hector?
notice how they both only have good things to say about each other?? they're both a little too gentle on each other because they don't want to push the other away, but hector played into his fear anyway because he'd REALLY lost himself this time?
YEESH ;_; is it like, with that whole world domination plan....did they convince themselves that they were the only one they had left? the only genuine connection left? deep inside, knowing that they would never be forgiven or seen as kind again if they pulled this off??
and hector, at least being somewhat aware of capochin's intensity, his seriousness, how he always looks stressed out but having no idea how to confront him on this himself.....and maybe how he wonders if capochin's "devotion" is fake because right then and there it was all work? I JUST. OUGHHHHHH. their insecurities, their messiness. they lost sight of everything thinking this was the only thing they needed.
"i'll rule the humans, while you rule the skies..." MY GOD. OUGH. AUUUGH. world-dooming situationship. a person from the server i'm in made the best observation ever: "if they lose each other the world might fucking explode in a nuclear blast" and they were right. my lord.
capochin's reaction to inspekta's proposal joke lives in my goddamn mind rent free. theyre so pathetic. they need to be exterminated
THEY WERE HAVING "MARRIAGE" ISSUES AND MADE IT THE GROVE AND THE WORLD'S PROBLEM..... HHHHHH
they just seemed SO SO SO SO scared to push the other away. to the point that they'd barely argue and wouldn't be true to themselves.
is work the problem? has it been separating us the whole time???? who even am i anymore without my role? who am if i'm not following you? who am i without my followers, without my most loyal friend/lover that i'm scared to open up to? that i seem to be driving away anyhow?
UUUUUUUU
really its just. pining for so long that they thought they needed world domination and not couples therapy.....BUT BEING TOO SCARED OF EMOTIONS TO EVEN SAY SHIT. "I WANT MORE THAN THIS, I WANT TO BE USEFUL TO YOU" but in A GAY WAY i just i just i
they make me sick. just let them hug for a bit it won't fix the holes in their heart but it would help a little.
they need to TALK SO BAD. mediated. pretty sure the gods & godpoke can help with that one.
make sure they don't make the world fucking explode again. its like. its their mess. they gotta clean it up....
basically. i just. its SO MUCH more than just "doomed" or "toxic", it's....realistic....sad. sometimes, shit happens and we gotta fix our mistakes. and sometimes you can repair it. :((((
hector truly is affectionate, chaotic and neurotic as he is and capochin wants to be loved so, so bad.
i just ;_; ouuguh i'm so emo about them. let those sad old pathetic lesbians TALK for gods sake.......
that girlrotting girlfailure and his grouchy butchwife wifeguy thing
AUGHHGHFH
sorry. yeah. anyway. relationships can be.....very complex. and i think about what capochin said with a goofy, tired little smile.
"Hector and I.....Let's just say we got a lot of work to do. GEEZ. Better take it one day at a time, eh? My head feels like it's gonna explode."
also look at these fucking pictures on inspekta's desk at the beginning of the game. the second picture. could mean nothing. this is nothing. 😏
;_;
god theyre so old. /lhj