#capsaicin cotard

[honighase]

That anon's ask reminded me of the date Mephy and I had where I drew out a dream I'd had, but I never finished it. But Mephy's desire to hang out combined with that happy ask and helped me finish coloring! 🤩

I dreamt my family was at D****y W***d, and they'd bought the rights to Sanrio (I'd been watching a lot of Defunctland videos and was reminded that they now have the rights to the Muppets. I think some fanart I saw of Keroppi and Kermit caused my subconscious to conflate the two franchises).

There was a building the size of a small mall dedicated to Keroppi! There were rides and games and merch and photo booths. It was kind of like a carnival! 😁

I brought my Keroppi backpack and carried it around (it looks just like a big Keroppi plushie with straps and a zipper on the back).

And I got to see Mephistopheles! Like, actually SEE him! It was like the good ole' days when he would zip around and follow me in high school! ♥️

I remember trying a game where you had to pop balloons with a water gun, but you were only allowed to pop those of a specific color. I tried my damnedest, but I have super slow reaction times in dreams like this, so I was getting really frustrated.

(self-insert uses he/💀/nap, Mephistopheles uses demonic and clown-themed neopronouns)

[hasmephydoneanythingwrong]

..... 😳👉👈 when your crush turns Big...

[honighase]

meow meow meow meow meow meow meow

[hasmephydoneanythingwrong]

did anyone else see that wild concept art leak on twitter?! i guess this is supposed to be a craft essence?

Who is that person???

[honighase]

This was, like, within a month of them meeting, but I forgot to put Mephistopheles in his first Saint Graph 😭

Just pretend that they are, okay?

Edit: noooo, I mixed up Cotard and Capgras again. 😅 Fixed the text in the third panel.

[honighase]

[hasmephydoneanythingwrong]

[honighase]

I did a long study of the art styles in Fate Grand Order to try and redesign my self-insert.

I realized that giving him all these wild hair and eye colors made me view them as impossible goals to strive to, so I wanted to make 💀 look more like me so he feels more like me, too.

I still made his hair green, though, since my natural hair color’s already pretty close and I wanted him to be special. Ó-Ò👉🏻👈🏻

I didn’t give him a specific outfit because that’s probably just stress me out just as much as if I hadn’t made him look more like me at all.

I just have to remember that he also has a mark on the other side of his face. I didn’t think to add that until after I’d taken all three images, and I don’t want to get up from my chair right now to grab my sketchbook again.