#cautionramen

[cautionramen]

So like disclaimer that I've got npd right

I always visualize my ego as like this giant glass ball, its colorful and really pretty, I'm super proud of it right? But it's glass so it's super fragile and every time I have a low or a crash that glass ball shatters and I gotta rebuild it. Piecing it back together takes a lot of time and glue, time happens naturally but I'm limited in how much glue I've got. Supply is the glue. The more I'm given the easier and faster it is to rebuild.

Guess my point is if you've got narc friends and they're going through a crash, give them some extra love, save the criticisms and just be nice for a bit, they probably really need it

[i-m-snek]

Will any of the RA21 babies be holdbacks? I'm obsessed with RA2103 and I just gotta know what the plan is for them before I get my hopes up lol

None of this clutch will be holdbacks, so you're in luck! I just gotta get a couple meals in them and then they'll be posted on Morph Market and here as well :D

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Something that bothers me so much as a pwnpd is when like, you know the disorder is disordering and your thoughts have turned that unique kind of toxic and hateful, and you don't want to inflict that kind of hurt on your loved ones so you reign it in as best you can and even give a warning telling them not to poke you because you might not be able to control what comes out of your mouth. So they take that as an Invitation to poke you repeatedly and try to get you to tell them every toxic cruel thought you have about them, as if it will reveal the Real You and every kind or caring thing you've done before was just a front to hide the Truth from them, insisting they can handle it as if you won't take everything they're sensitive about, all the knowledge you've collected, and rip them to shreds. And if you do snap, if you don't just sit and bear it, you're the villain. There's no winning.

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Narcissist: (breathes once/exists generally/minding their own business)

Some of y'all: that's evil and abusive and you should hate yourself

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Isn't it fucked up that your entire personality can be labeled as a disorder? Like they can look at you and go "sorry, you failed at being a person."

They don't see a person, they see a collection of symptoms and traits they've deemed bad and wrong that culminate in a failed attempt at personhood.

Forced to be something we're not lest they call us evil, unstable, emotional. Are you even you without the disorder? Is the real you the symptoms or the attempt to hide them? Where does the illness end and the person begin?

Kinda fucked up ain't it

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Hmmm Izutsumi and Chilchuck bonding over having better senses than the others and getting overstimulated easily. They keep each other company in the de-stressing corner

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Imagine that one way or another Chilchuck actually does die and the party hires Meijack his daughter. Quiet and reserved as she is, when they encounter the succubus instead of seeing some lustful desire instead she sees her dad, smiling and saying he's missed her and opening his arms for a hug. The one thing she wants most is to have her dad back, and experience the affection he gave her when she was younger. Affection that she hadn't gotten from him in years. And never got again before he died.

Yeah...

Edit:

I wrote something for this

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[cautionramen]

Plotting out a chilaios demon!chilchuck au and its just. Smut? No. Graphic depictions of gore and cannibalism? Hell yeah