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[thechezure]

The Consequences of Having a Sleepless Chaotic Mind...

As much good as a mind like mine can be, the creativity, the constant ability to come up with insane, chaotic, awesome ideas ( Long as I have energy and soda ) , the always ever helpful ability to understand what most children and people mean when they’re trying to explain things ( Although sometimes that ability fails too... ) ... 

But with all the good my mind has... Due to several things I have... OCD... Bipolar... Asperger’s... The list goes on... There’s a whole lot of consequences to these abilities... Constant depression, although the level of which is... Varying... Having to take prescribed medication in order to even SLEEP... Partial inability to mature properly dooming me to always be childish in one way or another... I mean... I have a very friendly and caring disposition, but... It’s so hard sometimes to keep smiling... Especially when you’ve been through the mental ( and mental facility ) and emotional ringer like I have... You feel so... Hopeless... Worthless sometimes even... You find things that you used to love spending mass amounts of time doing... Not as interesting to you... You leave it alone for awhile... Come back to it to find you’ve improved a lot so you love it again. But it quickly fades in interest once more, never being within that grip of an always interest...

Sometimes... Some nights... I wish I don’t wake up the next day... I want to cry, but I’m always too tired to even shed a tear... I don’t want to leave this world, and my friends within it, but at the same time I’ll feel like I’m no use to anyone. Or anything... I’ll try to talk it out with friends, but it only works so much to quell the problems within my mind...

But then there’s always time for me to remember... My friendships I’ve built and nurtured over the years, the friends that have truly stuck by my side, who understand me, and the shit I go through mentally, who pull me aside and help me chill out if I start to get heated up, and even have done things to help me out when I needed it most, even if they had to spend a bit of money to do so... I have to thank all of them... For without them, I wouldn’t be the fun, chaotic kitty I’d be today... For without them... I’d be dead probably...

I’ve been on... An emotional roller coaster as of late and... Hardly any of my friends are able to aid me because they have their own crap they have to deal with... Or they just don’t get the hints I’m trying to put out to let them know I need some company, some help... I know posting on the internet to complete strangers is kind of frowned upon by society, but... I need to vent, so I’m taking the chance for now... Because I’m sure others have felt like I have, and... They need these words as much as I do...

Remember your friends you have, hold them close, cherish them. Even if your hobbies take a hit because of your emotional state, don’t let it kill you inside. Your friends, if they’re truly yours... Will help you pick up the pieces and keep moving forward... I know I’ve a truly amazing group of friends I’ve been gifted and I don’t know what I’d do if I even lost ONE of them... I don’t even like to think about the possibility... So that’s why I say cherish each one you have, and just as you may need help sometimes, they might need help too. We, the mentally f***ed, have a responsibility. To care for our friends when they need us, just as they care so much for us when we need them... So keep on being you... I’ll keep being me... And let’s all be one absolutely amazing, dysfunctional, family...

[thechezure]

Chaos Writing Time [AKA Random Writing Time Segment That May or May Not Become an Actual Segment I Do]

  So for this ( pilot ) segment, I’m doing to write... Either a short story I make up on the spot... Or a description of something I make up off the top of my head... And then without editing ( except spelling and grammar because importance ), post it immediately to Tumblr... Enjoy...

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[Chaos Eridium Metal]

  Chaos Eridium is an odd type of metal. It appears to be black and purple in color with flakes of green and red mixed within. It’s also extremely volatile in it’s raw form, which requires a delicate and special treatment in order to refine it into usable ingots. Due to this the ingots are very pricey to purchase as they can be upwards of 100,000 dollars for just 5 ingots. They’re the most powerful used as armor as they have odd auto-mending properties, but this property also makes them reliable weapons and shields.

  Due to this, to own a set of weapons or armor would make someone highly respected. However, they still have defects and downfalls. To make swords using them, the edge has to be made of Adamantite in order to have a sharp edge, but the Chaos Eridium benefitualizes it’s healing property to the Adamantite making the edge always sharp. The best weaponry forms normally reside in blunt weapons, katanas, and greatswords as the material is light enough to be a katana, but too heavy when trying to make a longsword, but heavy enough to make a greatsword. This makes them very valuable to warriors and samurai that want extra strong weapons. The weapons created also accept runes MUCH better than some other materials, so can be enchanted and powered up much easier. Another use is that it can also be used in strongholds as, due to it’s mending properties, and benefitualizations there-of of the surroudning materials it’s connected to, it would make it a very hard and long task to break anything down to get inside. 

  However the volatility of the raw material also has uses when an expert crafts it. As small chunks of it ( or shards, as often are left after the refining process ) can be used to create powerful gun ammo and extremely explosive small cannonballs, as well as other explosive weapons. Few, legendary, smiths are known to have been able to meld the raw C. Eridium with refined C. Eridium to create absolutely devastating weapons.

  In short, it’s a very powerful material, in both defense and offense, if you have the cash, skill, and time. But should never be taken lightly as one wrong move could be disaster. The wonders and dangers of Chaos Eridium are far and many between. Do you have the guts to try to craft this glorious metal?

[thechezure]

Also According to an Email Tumblr Sent Me...

My blog turned 2 on the 25th... Huh...

[thechezure]

On The Topic Of... [Borderlands 2 GOTY] {PC} (Pt. 2)

So um... Whoops... I hadn’t updated this like I said I would... So uh... I murdered a hell load of people. XD

That’s about the gist of it. I’ve cleared the Pirate’s Booty DLC, except for the Raid Boss in it, cleared 4 of the 5 Headhunter DLCS, started on Assault on Dragon’s Keep DLC, am partway into Campaign of Carnage DLC, beaten the main story. I’m currently level 35 or 36 and am doing cleanup work in Normal Mode and am starting on True Vault Hunter Mode.

[thechezure]

On The Topic Of... [Borderlands 2]

SO HERE WE ARE AGAIN KITTENS, A NEW “ON THE TOPIC OF...” AND IT’S A SURPRISE CHANGE OF THOUGHT AS I’M NOT DOING “ALICE: MADNESS RETURNS”, BUT, INSTEAD, AM DOING “BORDERLANDS 2″!!!!

Now for the sake of saying it, I’m doing this run as the Mechromancer Class [AKA Gaige AKA the young teenage genius girl with a killer robot buddy], which is by far my favorite class in the game.

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For those who don’t know Borderlands 2 [which if you don’t, what rock have you lived under for this long? O.o] You play as, without DLCs, one of four classes, Axton the Commando, Maya the Siren, Salvador the Gunzerker, or Zer0 the Assassin. with DLC you get TWO more classes, Gaige the Mechromancer, and Krieg the Psycho. Each has their own play-styles, but mainly the same story run-through no matter what. The story takes place sometime after Borderlands 1 where the Vault on Pandora got opened by the four Vault Hunters in that game, Mordecai, Lilith, Brick, and Roland.

In this game, when you start, you wake up hurt and disoriented, but alive, in a tundra wasteland called Windshear Waste, the only survivor of a derailed... Train I believe? This is where the characters in the game come in, you’ll have picked your character and starting customizations before the game even starts [which can instantly be awesome if you have some of the DLCs and/or Shift Codes]... I have picked Mechromancer. Anyways, you wake up as claptrap, a little annoying robot, is... Looting dead corpses and talking out loud to himself... This is a constant thing and can be funny at times, by the way. Anywho, he notices you’re not dead and proclaims his metaphorical ship has arrived to bring him out of the treacherous wastes, and with this, and the handing to you of a looted echo device from a dead vault hunter buried in show [The train was apparently filled with vault hunters, and you drew the lucky straw and lived] your story begins...

So as to not spoil a whole lot and to not make this a book essay, Claptrap gets attacked, his eye stolen by a big four armed ape thing called a bullymong, but is huge boss so his boss name is Knuckledragger, you get your first gun, kill some Monglets and Brat Bullymongs on your way to kill Knuckledragger, kill Knuckledragger, get irritating bot’s eye back, head through a stuck ship after some AI lady unlocks it, get to a town, free it of bandits, meet Sir Hammerlock, get claptrap repaired, free the town of Bullymongs, do a few sidequests, get better guns, grab Claptrap and get going after Handsome Jack, the villain, places a 1 mil bounty on your head. Your destination? Sanctuary, the only, current, safe place from Jack. From here tons of crazy shit is happening, you witness a car chase, kill some bandits so you can help AI lady hack into a car materialization system is you can get a ride, kill some bullymongs, make it to sanctuary gate... Then find out there’s problems... The guy you saw being chased earlier has the power cell needed to keep up a defense grid and Roland charges you with finding his ass and the power cell over ECHO communication, You find him but... He dead... You go and kill the bandits that killed him, killing 20 of them for an optional mission requirement, and then run back to Sanctuary, get the defense grid up JUST in time to protect Sanctuary, then go into town to find out Roland’s gone missing, have to go to Scooter [The guy who owns the car materialization service] who tells you Plan B is to make the city FLY, which fails horribly, then tells you to go to Roland’s housing, find out Roland left you a message as Scooter suspected and you find a message about a “Firehawk”, who turns out to be Lilith, who then tells you who actually kidnapped Roland...

From here I’ve stopped playing main story for moment and am playing Captain’ Scarlett’s Pirate Booty or whatever the DLC expansion is called. I have used about 10 keys on the chest in sanctuary at level 17 to geta  pretty well off setup and have my total Badass Rank up to 1600-something, I think. Next time won’t be so much story shit, it’ll be more on the character and how I’m progressing.

SO WITH THAT KITTENS, I’VE BEEN CCUBED AND THIS HAS BEEN A TOPIC, A GAMING TOPIC!!! THANKS FOR READING!!! [Sorry for butchering the GameTheory ending ;^; ]

[thechezure]

Couple Recent Arts!

http://bit.ly/1EUbCZp  Retry of a pic I did when I first got my art tablet

http://bit.ly/1EUbBVn  Collaboration Picture with a friend of mine

http://bit.ly/1EUbFof  Picture that became my avatar on my art sites ( DevArt, Weasyl, FurAffinity, and here on Tumblr, as well as my Twitter avatar [Twiter is  [at]Strikerinx )

http://bit.ly/1EUbHwm  Saiyan Android picture I did for an old friend of mine

http://bit.ly/1EUbSYx Random as fuck drawing I loved doing. XP

[litadoolan]

Ernest - review

Thomas Dawkins sparkles as Jack, the hero in this Oscar Wilde adaptation, and he tops and tails the show doubling as a young writer in search of his sidekick. In both future and past scenarios he finds a muse in the steadfast gaze of Cassandra Foster who plays an assured Gwendolen. Pamela Schermann’s direction presents a polished jewel of a musical centering around a traditional story that brings fashionable Victorian Society to the Royal Mile. This uplifting show has had a great run in the C cubed Theatre at the top of Edinburgh’s Royal Mile and is a clever musical adaptation of a classic Wilde play by writer Phil Jacobs. During the action each character finds his or her own sidekick and it is intriguing to see how the person who plays the sidekick in each partnership changes during the play. Maybe it is the lure of the delicious muffins on stage where tea is perpetually served. Throughout the action the charismatic Simon Kingsley as Algernon flirts with a spritely Cecily, played by the talented Catherine Hayworth. The upwardly mobile lady portrays young ambition to give ballast to the union between Brian Eastty’s charming Dr Chasuble and Gillian Steventon’s quirky Miss Prism. Social interactions and cake blend together along with up-tempo songs, under Matt Abrams' Musical Direction, which include a delightful tribute to Algernon’s pal Bunbury and a jazzy number devoted to the potential of a handbag. Everyone has emerged from the enjoyable twisting plot to unite with their sweethearts except for the indestructible Lady Bracknell. Bracknell is played with force by Amanda Bailey whose character has an expertise in creating obstacles on the path of true love. As a result of her actions the power has shifted in the relationships that passed before her. The finale is filled with purpose and intent. The sidekick is now the person who has fallen the deepest in love and that is surely the importance of being Earnest.