#cdrsrogers

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i’m going to die and on my tombstone it’s going to say “killed by steve rogers/james barnes feels” THANKS CAITLYN

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BE POSITIVE ABOUT CAITLYN (whose rogers url I can't remember oops) OK THANK

send me a URL (anon or not) and I’ll write some positivity for themstatus: forever accepting tbhclairitygrace 

About cdrsrogers:

oh my god. where do i even start? first of all, i adore caitlyn as a human being. she’s brilliant, hysterical, and a really amazing friend. like i’m really, really, really glad she’s in my life; i love talking to her whether it’s about something serious or we’re derping around or just rolling around in feels. secondly, p much every character she writes is fucking golden. she has such an incredible ability to put depth and voice and complexity into every single one (and she has a million bc she’s also a crazy person i LOVE YOU AND YOUR TEN THOUSAND BLOGS CAITLYN). even the chars from fandoms i don’t know, i wanna write with them bc they are just all amazing. and her steve... dfhl;adfh;agh;aoh;a i need to find a way to translate keyboard smash into english bc that’s my actual emotion about her steve. there’s that complexity and depth i was talking about, and she puts so. much. thought. in to why he is the way he is, why he does what he does, why he feels certain things. it comes across in her writing--which is always fucking beautiful. there’s a rhythm and a flow to it, and it just sucks you in. she causes me so much pain with her stupid beautiful words and stupid beautiful steve and i just keep coming back for more bc it’s p much the air i breathe at this point. i literally can’t find the words to express how great i think she is with steve--i have to restrain myself (a little, lol) from being like CAITLYN LOVE ME because our threads not only make me ridic happy but really inspire me to write bucky in general and strive to meet her level of perfection. plus, i joke about this a lot, but it’s really because of the richness of her portrayal that i started shipping stucky.  I JUST REALLY LOVE CAITLYN A LOT AND I’M SUPER HAPPY WE’RE FRIENDS AND I THINK SHE’S A SERIOUSLY TALENTED PERSON AND I JUST WANT ALL THE THINGS WITH HER OKAY THE END

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Jess: my sexuality is when bucky catches the shield

Jess: with his Tried to Smokey Eye (tm)

Caitlyn: my sexuality is when cap just RUNS THROUGH DOORS AND WALLS LIKE NBD

Jess: FUCK THIS WALL

Jess: FUCK THIS WALL

Jess: FUCK THIS WALL *IN PARTICULAR*

Caitlyn: MOVE BITCH, GET OUT THE WAY

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Jess: mrrehlafh;dafha ;MURDER STRUT

Jess: -casually blows up shit in the middle of the street-

Jess: every time i watch this i'm like

Jess: bucky how were you a ghost

Jess: you're not even TRYING to be discreet

Jess: also every time sam jackson gets his welder thingie whatever i expect it to be a light saber

Caitlyn: LOL RIGHT???

Caitlyn: it's a pocket lightsaber

Jess: like every scene with WS in this movie is him blowing shit up in the middle of the day in the middle of traffic

Jess: THAT'S NOT STEALTH BUCKY

Jess: THIS WORD IT DOES NOT MEAN WHAT I THINK YOU THINK IT MEANS

Jess: well i guess except this one [where he shoots Fury]

Jess: this one he was stealthy

Jess: good job 1 out of 3432153

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☭ cdrsrogers continued from here

                  “I gave the rest of the team the day off to spend the fourth with their families.”

The team. Avengers. James grimaced and looked away. He was surely still an enemy to them; Steve might not fight him, but they would. And he would deserve it. 

Another word hung heavy on the air. Families. He stole a sideways glance at Steve and wordlessly hung his jacket and cap on the coatrack. He felt empty without them, as if they’d been some kind of shield, but it was the same instinct that made him remove them in the first place: an effort at companionship. At what had once been, for both of them. Because now, their families were gone. Even if James could remember, everyone he knew was surely dead. He had to believe he’d had a family once. He couldn’t have been born a weapon. 

It was strange that that isolation, that sense of not belonging, united them now. Almost as if they were two sides of the same coin. Steve became a hero. James... well. Every light had a shadow. 

“Cold,” he said softly. He didn’t actually know how he preferred it, but that seemed like a good response for a hot day. He shifted his weight, crossed his flesh arm across his body to grip the metal bicep. He kept thinking about the Avengers.

“I am... not here... fight,” he said after a moment. That same imploring look from before and his face was tight with the frustration of words he could not vocalize. “Different.” 

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☭ cdrsrogers ;;

“I told you, it wasn’t anything I couldn’t handle.” 

A lie, but it was the only thing he had left. The alternative was too--too everything. Too much, too terrifying, too awful. The hope that Steve would leave it alone was likely a pipe dream, but, well. Hope was all he had left, too.