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[diniprathivi]

2019: When Things Got Clearer

I never did start a year much more excited than this 2019. My late 31st years old, I can say I am a bit too late. But late is better than never, right?

I still remember that time on early 2014 when I decided to take my master degree, I was questioning myself: what do I really want in life? How do I see myself in the next 5 years? 10 years? And that time I got no clue at all. There are some people around me that live their life in a better way than me (from my point of view). These people knows what they want, what to do, what to motivates them, that leads their life to be better planned and better organized. This way they can achieve things faster and higher than me.

I am coming from a decent family, financially okay. I have a good education; I can afford anything that I want to have since I was born. There is nothing in life that I need to be worried about. I was living my life just the way it is. I am going through a life with scattered plans, no goals, nothing to motivate me, because basically I already own everything that I need. You think this condition is great? No. It sucks. I keep on asking myself what can I do better than others, what could make me stands out, what things that makes me happy doing it, how can I move faster? Do you ever have this same thought? Go share with me.

Well, 2014 till late 2018 was such an ups and downs (going to share a bit about it later on my next posts) that brought me here. Many of my plans were cancelled, many conflicts and arguments with closest people, many travels and many encounters with any kind of place and people, many euphoria and damn too many rock bottom. 2018 was the first time I got my worst Insomnia, a whole month. 2018 was also the first time my heart beats too fast on some projects that I am still doing till now with those fantastic people. On January 3rd, 2019,  I opened my journal and for the first time I tried to write the things that I want to do this year and what kind of achievement that I want to get and found it so easy – nope, TOO EASY. Everything happened lately leads me this way, where I finally figure out who I am, what I want, how do I see myself in the future – vividly. Believe me, it feels damn amazing.

I can’t wait for the beginning of this journey, that I bravely started with writing this posts and re-activating my blog. Hope things here can inspire you guys. Cheers to gonna-be-awesome 2019!

[diniambarwati]

Beautiful moments in Prita's Engagement Party, last night. Thank you for your trust.. Congrats for you, and special thanks to @dioveniendrisa too... #moment #celotehdini #diniambarwati #ceritadini #jktevents #engagementring #eventplanner #kuliner #makan #catering #party #foodporn #foodlover #mukbang #divalargeproduction

[diniprathivi]

Depot Slamet: "meski sempet nunggu lama, kesal kami terbayar..."

Hari ini, Minggu.

Happened to be in Surabaya, iseng pingin cobain kuliner khasnya.

To be honest, I love Surabaya culinary. It surely has a lot of options and most of them comes up with reasonable price, and some are really delicious, well at least for me :p

When they asked me where to eat, I mentioned "RM. Bu Rudi" first. I always love to buy stuffs there. Their sambals are the best. And they also sell some more chosen Surabaya's knick knacks, only the best.

But this time, I really wanna try to eat in their restaurant. I google and found that "Special Nasi Udang" that made me droollllll....

But too sad when we got there, It was too crowded. Too many people there, and we don't get any parking slot left. It was so dissapointed.

I thought of going to stop trying to eat and go home when my brother suggested for us to go to "Depot Slamet" instead. Well, it is just some miles away on the same road.

I am not really into the idea of Chinese Food, but this time I said yes. And there we were.

Don't judge the book by its cover.

It is located in the corner of the street. At first it looks like a very small restaurant. I dont even see the tables and chairs. We enter that small place and keep on walking inside. Guess what? Inside there is a really big room with a lot of table and chair. We picked one table and sat there, all 4 of us.

It was full of other people. We ordered Nasi Goreng Hongkong, Cap Jay, and Koloke. We need to wait for so long till we get what we had ordered. It was for around 45 mins. When they came up with the food we got amazed. The portion was so big, even for the 4 of us. And it tastes delicious. One of the best Chinese Food that I have ever tried so far, tho well, Cap Jay is the most recommended above all.

So guys, when you come to Surabaya do remember to drop by this restaurant. There is nothing wrong with waiting a bit longer, because you will be satisfied with their great recipes and that super big portion of dishes.

*Price: each menu costs around 30.000 to 40.000 rupiahs

[diniambarwati]

He follow me on Twitter since 2014 until now.. #jamesvalentine #maroon5 #edisigeer #difollowartis #ceritadini bisa duet karya ga ya sama doi?? Who knows... (at Jakarta, Indonesia)

[diniprathivi]

// when shits getting real //

A little update on myself.

I am 30 now.

I am not jobless, I am just taking care of myself and my family more :p

It has been two years since the first time I started doing my thesis, you can say I got stuck. I do really need to graduate the soonest.

I am trying to write, again.

To be honest, I hate that 30 number. I hate being 30. I hate being old. The reason is because there are so many things that I haven't done in live, and it is like I probably has only 20 more years chances to fulfill them all.

Seeing any other people’s achievement on their 30 is such a pain in the as* too. So I started to question so many things,

“Why we don’t make something like that?”

“How could they had that kind of incredible idea?”

And then most important question, “THEN HOW ABOUT ME? WHAT WILL I DO NEXT?”

On my mid 30, I like to remember all of the things that has happened in past, all of those mistakes, happiness, good memories, friendship made, forgiveness given, and all others.

Good or bad, those experiences make us wiser. 

Being 30 is somehow scary, but it is also exciting. 

It is true that shits are getting real. More responsibilities, more problems awaits. It is not only about me anymore. It is about me, family, peers. It is not only about ourselves anymore. It is about our work, our community, it is about what will we give to others.

*PS: This morning, I suddenly feel the needs to re-read my some old tumblr blog posts. Tracing back, I found out that I did really write a lot few years ago, and it has been very long time I am not writing anymore. Not enough time? Not enough motivation? Or probably not enough inspiration.It is just life gets in the way, and I got too busy mending any other things but writing which actually is one of the thing that I can do best.

[diniprathivi]

// mid 30 //

bukan onggokan cucian kotor di kamar tidur, tapi aku

bukan kumpulan buku resep yang tersusun rapi di rak lemari itu, tapi aku

bukan popok bayi atau aroma susu, tapi aku

bukan pula gerombol tanaman hijau di pekarangan belakang dan gunting rumput bergerigi itu, tapi aku

nafasku masih panjang mengalun 

bersama kumpulan mimpi yang ingin segera kurenangi

langkahku masih tegap terayun

bersama cita dan segenap asa yang pijarnya bara

ada jendela terbuka dan langit luas di baliknya, biru

tak ingin aku kurung tubuh mungil ini di balik selimut sendu

tak ingin aku lumpuh

*Bintaro, dan kalutku

[diniambarwati]

Ketika kau tak dapat membuka pintu yang berada di belakangmu, maka pintu di depanmu akan terbuka agar kau dapat maju berjalan walau tak seindah mimpi namun akan memberimu kekuatan untuk melihat indahnya dunia dari sisi yang berbeda. #duniadini #ceritadini dan #celotehdini #nevergiveup #diniambarwati #quoteformyself (at The Plaza Semanggi)

[fikridiniikbar]

“Yang namanya kenangan itu tidak akan pernah bisa kita lupa, hanya saja kita tidak ingin mengingatnya”

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