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Can I be loved the way I need?

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I grew up believing in you. Did you ever hear me cry?

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I grew up believing in you. Did you ever hear me cry?

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I just want to be worth listening to.

I just want my words to not be interrupted.

I just want to be worth having a deep conversation with.

I just want to be worth it.

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We did a mind map of anxieties for the first time in a long time.

Brain dumps where it is scattered mess with us because we try to find connections and figure it out.

Mind maps help because we can start with basics “this person” “finance” “symptoms of xyz” and then build off of those as we go.

Genuinely might be a thing we start doing more now, it somewhat helped.

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I should be a mom.

And I am not.

My body was a tomb for my unborn daughter.

I miss you Charlotte. I would have done everything to protect you.

I should be a mom. And this day hurts.

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I was a child.

Grow up broken.

I’m fine though. I’m always fine.

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