#chaostheoried

[fearedloving]

             IT’S STARTING TO GET  COLD OUT -- well, for a california fall, and all clays got on is a hoodie -- unzipped. his forearms are pressed against his thighs as he leans forward, gaze pointed at the football field in front of him, peppered with the schools’ pick of the litter. only the finest athletes for liberty high. his emotional state has plateaued at about a morrissey level pissy. why the fuck did jeff have to die? the next question that followed was why did i have to be the one to find him? if anything he’s frustrated -- jeff couldn’t have been drunk, could he? he said he was sober. so much had happened with hannah at that party -- clay felt guilty thinking that their fight ( or whatever you wanted to call it ) was the worst thing that was going to happen to someone that night. sensing movement in front of him, clay spots a wondering alex while he rubs an eye with the back of his hand, ❝ uh, hey --- alex, ❞ he’s nervous to see what he’ll say -- if anything. clay wouldn’t blame him if he wasn’t in the mood to talk, he hadn’t been for a while, either. after reaching to get the blonds attention, it was like his brain stopped working, he didn’t know what to say next. the two weren’t really even close, he’d only seen alex around the crestmont occasionally, but not too often lately. he was hoping that didn’t deter him from wanting to talk. because if clay was being honest, he really just needed some company. 

@chaostheoried surprise

[agonygiven-a]

let’s start by giving my shitty graphic a round of applause. don’t worry. . . i’ll wait.

holy fucking shit, what the hell happened ??? i created this blog FOUR DAYS AGO so why are there so many of you ?? i am super grateful for every single one of you and the 13rw rp community has been so open and accepting its kind of amazing and hard to wrap my head around. this is going to be a super small list to just give recognition to some of the people who have been especially amazing since my arrival.

@cassettetaped // @helmctboy // @rippedfromglory // @errat // @chaostheoried // @adorcble​ // @sometimesbatman // @friendlost // @girlshamed // @cansprainpeople // @sheriis // @guiltshot // @girlfailed // @sheconfessed

[andbeyondsa-blog]

          she isn’t DUMB  .  if anything  ,  she’s smart  .  skye miller prides herself on her intelligence  .  it’s part of her her currency in this life  ,  one of the few winning cards in the hand she was dealt  .  as god knows no one would ever call her pretty  ,  and they sure as hell wouldn’t call her nice  .  but smart  ?  that had always been well within her reach  -----  until she blew it  ,  that is.  she was smart  ,  until she started cutting class to loiter around the shop class  .  she was smart  ,  until she started pursuing her more eclectic interests ,  and stopped trying to be someone she wasn’t  .  when she stopped pretending  ,  and stopped worrying about what everyone had to say  ,  that was when she was branded as REMEDIAL.

               as if the first day of school wasn’t terrifying already  (  because  ,  yes  ,  even a girl with a face made of  metal  and  ink-swollen skin could be afraid sometimes ,  )   she was having to rush into it as something she’d never expected to be  :  in the same courses as the kind of delinquents everyone in this town wanted her to be  .  her only option now was to smoke them all out  ,  to prove that she was better than this ,  because she knew she was  .  that’s why she takes a seat at the front of the class  ,  near the new kid   (  not just because it was the only seat left open  )  .  it’s why her lip CURLS when she looks over the rest of the room  ,  and why she scoffs -- to no one in particular: 

            ‘   i didn’t  THINK  i needed remedial math  ,  but i can  feel  my                     iq getting lower the longer i’m cooped up with  this bunch  .  ’

@chaostheoried liked for skye  (  accepting  )

[nearbelfast]

do u ever just cry bc cj is out here with three beautiful blogs that are all super active and all have beautiful writing getting posted all day every day and meanwhile i’m over here avoiding my multi entirely and trying to restrain myself from letting this blog descend into a real housewives fan blog l i k e 

[sasssmart]

         ❝       look,      i’m not one to judge but       .   .   .         well,        actually i am        ?        but that’s besides the point       !        anyway       ------        you look like shit,        COMPLETE SHIT.         wanna like grab a hot chocolate,        you could sure use one        &         this is my only offer so please,       take it.          ❞          /       @chaostheoried.

[bottlebroken]

   “ dude,   number one rule if you like a girl is definitely NOT putting her on a list of best and worst  – especially if you put her under WORST. ”  

@chaostheoried

[coldgirled-a]

@chaostheoried.

“   -----   while   it   was   entertaining   to   watch   your   ass   getting   kicked,   it   was   rather   stupid   to   fight   a   jock,   wasn’t   it?   “

[errat]

STANDALL.

@chaostheoried

      STATUESQUE  FORM  lounges  upon  singular  provided  chair   ;   chocolate  optics  flitting  from  male  to  the  numerous  nurses  passing  through  the  ward   ––   impatiently  awaiting  the  blonde’s  awakening,  teen  had  arrived  accompanied  by  balloons  galore   (   never  said  he  wasn’t  a  TOTAL  cliché   )   .  though ,  he  was  unsure  if  get  well  soon  balloons  were  fitting  for  someone  who  willingly  sank a  bullet  into  his skull   ––    it  was  the  THOUGHT  that  counts  though ,  right   ?   obscene  cerulean  letters  a  stark  contrast  to  sombre  backdrop    ––    colors  distract  him  from  the  way  his  ribs  are  threatening  to  splinter  his  lungs   ;   the  sight  of  face  SO  familiar,  in  such  a  state  has  male  aghast .  tragedy  after  TRAGEDY   !