Does your muse always rationalize errors? How does your muse accept disasters and failures? (Source: painted-bees) (Please tag @characterdevelopmentasks in your answer!)
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Jack does in fact rationalize errors, in a way this ask doesn’t quite address how he perceives failures in total. He doesn’t consider a failure to be an ending. If he’s not DEAD, it’s not OVER.
His bigger issue is a lack of clarity when it comes to his goals & options in general. Jack runs with whatever seems the most fun/advantageous at the time, and that’s not an easily quantifiable measure. Jack really lacks a lot of insight into why he does things or wants things, because it takes too much psychoanalysis that makes him uncomfortable and owning up to his main sources of defensiveness (fear of abandonment, fear of rejection, stifling loneliness, a superiority complex the size of the moon with a inferiority dark-side to match, being a neurotic control-freak) make him feel more ‘broken’.
So he’s really out here doing things without completely recognizing why he does it, so the failures don’t sting as hard as the need to well... Keep doing things to cope with the other things he doesn’t want to think about. Which is really unhealthy on one hand, but on the other, it’s not unfair to say he learns a lot from it. His love to create, his affection for machines, his thirst for skills, his need for a challenge. He’s learning about himself, even if he doesn’t want to think too hard about it, but he’s a strategist and life is his second favorite game. Not to say he’ll ever be good or healthy, he’ll always be chaotic, but he might be a little more content with himself over time, and a little less likely to drastically PWN people or be unnecessarily harsh cause of his own hangups.
BUUTUTT....
He can be rather messy when he loses. Depending. Usually he’ll always want a rematch, so it’s never really over as I said. But if he thinks it was unfair, he’ll complain as much. But eventually he transitions to adaption over wallowing. When he was younger, Wuya had to drag him out of wallowing in self-misery a lot more often. But he bounced back faster as time passed. Nowadays, he might not even accept a loss (a loss insinuates that there’s some kind of immovable barrier in his way! ha! laughable he says! laughable!!), and just disobey rules to take what he wants, or accept it graciously, if he had enough fun in the effort, and move onto the next impulsive goal of millions.
