#chelseamco

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me:*Cries because my life isn't an 80's movie*

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Do you ever just cringe at the thought of the person you were a few years ago...or?

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You know those days when you KNOW your day's gonna suck right from when you wake up.

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I would really fucking like it if you'd stop calling me a loser, stupid, bitch,etc.

I don't care if you're joking, I'm tired and annoyed of all this shit.

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I know this is a little late but...

I am so blessed and am thankful for what god has given me to have:To be able to walk,hear,see,touch. To have a mother that yells at me because it means she cares. For the education I am able to have, for the roof over my head, for the food on my plate each day that I am hungry. I'm grateful for the family I have. Sure sometimes they don't get me and are judgmental, but I would never want to be in a different family. They are caring and funny and just amazing. I am thankful for being alive, and not giving up when I could have a year ago. I am thankful for my brother's father getting out of jail. I'm blessed to have a few of these materialistic things I'm sure I don't even need. I'm thankful for my best friend, Idalia. I cannot imagine my life without her. I'm grateful to have found choir and theater ensemble. It made me actually take action into what I've always loved to do. Best decisions in my life probably. I honestly wouldn't be alive if I haven't joined both. Those are just a few things I'm grateful for. Thank you God.

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I just need to remember that people will be people, and that this won't matter in 5 years.

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Sometimes i feel so insecure and self-conscious that all I want to do is hide.

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Not everyone is gonna like you. You can try as hard as you want but in the end you can't change ANYONE'S opinion on how they view you, the only person you can change is yourself assuming it's for your own and not to impress other people. So what you should really focus on is to be yourself and become a better version of YOUR SELF. I more than anyone, know how hard it is to accept that but you can't live your life comparing yourself to others. It changes nothing, you will always be you whether you like it or not and your not going to magically wake up one morning looking and being an entirely different person. I might seem a bit hypocritical since often i may be really insecure, but this is the truth, and even I need to remember that.