#chronic this

[leaveslikeglitter]

Anyone else mourn the time spent resting?

Like I need to clean, there's errands to run. Books I want to read. Lots of art and cooking I want to do.

But I just can't. I'm exhausted. I feel it seeping through me like warm sun.

[fallingleaveslikeglitter]

This whole ulcer thing is a little much.

Like I don't want to tell my friends or family how much it sucks. I feel like a burden. And I hate it. I hate this.

[leaveslikeglitter]

I am really really frustrated with my usable hours a day. Just enough to hold down a job. Mostly.

I want to clean and reorganize my house.... Have hobbies.

Relationships with friends.....

People think I'm crazy for bring tired after work, but those are all the hours I have. I was tired before work. After work? I have nothing left. 😅😭😭😭😭

[leaveslikeglitter]

They are not wrong. I hadn't thought about it tho. 🤔

[leaveslikeglitter]

I am so so annoyed at all the time I have to spend resting.

Aaaaaaarg.

Well anyway. Here is a whale shark I did. I need to practice water. It escapes me. But I still like it.

[leaveslikeglitter]

[leaveslikeglitter]

Googling a random, supposed unimportant thing that might possibly maybe be a teeny tiny new symptom or just anxiety, only to find out it's an actual big red flag symptom and now you have to make a dr apt again.