man sometimes i wish there was a discord server for all fictionkin. i'm lonely as shit but talking in small groups stresses me out, especially if i don't know anyone there.
i love this blog but it's not the same as talking to other people in a group chat. i have severe anxiety about interacting 1 on 1, so i almost never interact with other fictionkin unless we were already friends before. i just wish there was somewhere we could drop random memories and worth through things together and stuff. i don't even want canonmates, i just want other fictionkin in general who might understand.
i would start it myself, but i don't have the energy to run something like that on my own. and the drama would just be really fucking triggering. i dont want to be in charge of that. kin folks can be incredibly nasty if they decide they don't like you. i have more than enough trauma to work through without having every word i say being picked apart for even the tiniest thing that could be misconstrued or taken out of context just so some bully can get off on causing drama and smearing other people online til they get excommunicated by everyone.
it's happened enough times to me already. i'd much rather be miserable alone than put up with cyberstalking and harassment from Certain People in the kinmunity
that being said, i wouldn't be totally opposed to joining something that already exists. i can't help it. my werewolf brain craves having a pack so much that the other people involved don't even have to be kin at all
it just hurts to run alone. i don't know how much longer i can stand it
