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[errantesadas]

[ 🫀 ]ㅤ.ㅤwho taught them what love is ? did it hurt ?

Eloy taught Metzli what love is. Or what love is for then specifically. It's a lie. A comforting one. Monsters don't get to be truly loved. Are they capable of it? Absolutely. But the last time Metzli had a heart and loved something, it was taken away. Their love is a cruel curse.

[petaledarmour]

[ 🩸 ]ㅤ.ㅤis there something or someone that, if lost, would break them ?

Some would say that's already happened. How much more could she break? I'd argue that glass can still be crushed into dust. And in this case, with how close she's gotten to Allie, if she ever lost her, it's over for everyone, including herself. This can definitely expand if she grows closer to more people, but at the moment, most are at arm's length by design.

[thistle-and-kane]

🎱, 🔥(Personal/Deep/Trauma-Adjacent), 🎉

🎱 What do they need to feel wanted? 

 Hell if she knows. She is far more familiar with feeling needed over wanted. Usually in the sense of what she can do for other people. Wanted is uncharted territory.

🔥What moment do they replay when they are ashamed?

Juniper's shame is mostly tied to her own perception of how useful she is to those around her; or how well she thinks she is at suppressing her issues. One thing that sticks with her in those moments is something her mother said. “Give me my daughter back. My daughter is a happy person.” Said in a moment of grief stricken rage after months of Juniper refusing to leave her new bedroom. It’s something that replays in her head like an earworm whenever she starts getting bad again. She also knows there is something to unpack there, but if it works it works, right? 

🎉Do they enjoy social events, or endure them? 

Social events are complicated, draining. But she does enjoy them when they go right. Juniper is very in tune with her surroundings, and an adolescence spent managing the emotions of the adults in her life has left her more perceptive of others feelings over her own. If a social event is going well and everyone is having a good time- she will feed off that energy and ride the high so to speak. If a social event is going poorly and people are in sour moods she will gradually feel more and more claustrophobic.

[thistle-and-kane]

🎧

🎧What kind of music gets them through the worst days?

The very worst days Juniper can’t even speak, falling back into a pattern of mutism that sprung up after her attack. Early on she found that making her own music provided an outlet when she couldn’t vocalize. She plays the guitar, started young, learning from her grandfather before she even knew what a bad day was. She doesn’t really stick to a single genre, but she finds particular comfort in the fingerpicking style her grandfather used. Often even listening to his old records to try and learn what he didn't have the time to teach her now that she has access to them again.        

[thistle-and-kane]

☕️ 🧠 🔥

☕What’s their morning ritual, and what happens when it’s disrupted?

Breakfast is the most important meal of the day and Juniper does not operate well on an empty stomach. Even if it is just a quick something out the door, it staves off the hanger.  

🧠What do they assume people think about them?

Oh that is something she would rather not think about at all. She usually assumes people look down on her, she is used to people looking at her like a charity case, underestimating and treating her as fragile. Part of the hope in moving back to Eden Ros is a fresh start, somewhere away from the negativity of everyone knowing something is wrong with you. 

🔥Do they crave intensity or stability?

Is it selfish to say both?   

[vixeycameron]

🎉🕳️🪤

🎉 : do they enjoy social events, or endure them?

Vixey lives and breathes for social events. As she's gotten older she's realized she doesn't need to be the center of attention to fully enjoy the event but it definitely doesn't hurt. Unless of course the reason for the attention is negative in any way - then she wants nothing to do with it.

🕳️ : what do they spiral about at night?

Currently about the fact that she's 46 and living at home with no job, no friends, and no prospects. Which is just her being dramatic because she does have a job that her parents secured for her at Ol' Pav, and she does have friends. She also frequently wonders if she made the right decision by coming home instead of trying to recover on the open seas. And if that decision will keep her from performing ever again. And after all of that spiraling she takes herself out for a little swim.

🪤 : what pattern do they keep falling back into?

Vixey loves patterns and making not so great life choices for herself. A big one has to do with relationships or rather avoiding relationships. She loves a date and a night together but don't call it a date because dates are serious, and serious is scary. Avoidance is her favorite pattern.

[vixeycameron]

🪦🖊️

🪦 : what hill would they die on?

Everyone would feel better if they just spent a little more time by or in the ocean.

🖊️ : do they write things down or let thoughts rot in their head?

answered here!

[vixeycameron]

✅🧱🖊️

✅ : what do they pretend to have together that they don't?

Plans she has for the future. If anyone asks she'll talk about how she can't wait to leave home to get back to her cruising but the truth is she's enjoyed being home the last two years recovering with her family. And that scares her because she's always been one for an adventure away from home. Staying feels like settling and Vixey hates to settle.

🧱 : what walls are they aware of building? which ones are they not aware of?

Vixey knows that she runs from trouble, sometimes in a dramatic fashion. She somewhat abruptly left a contract for a role on one ship for another. As far as everyone knew it was because she was offered a better role in a show she was more interested in and that part isn't a lie! She just auditioned for that contract because she was starting to catch some feelings for someone on the other ship and knew they felt the same and she didn't want to deal with all of that. She doesn't know that her fear of commitment and security is holding her back. Vixey will make every excuse under the sun for why she makes the choices that she does.

🖊️ : do they write things down or let thoughts rot in their head?

In Vixey's mind writing thoughts down will make them real. She makes simple notes like grocery or task lists, but she won't dare journal or keep any sort of personal diary. Those thoughts will come back to haunt her and she's not about that life.