#churchnorth

[leonardalphachurch]

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[leonardepsilonchurch]

Day 6 - Chastity

this is my modern au churchnorth ive vaguely spoken about before on main. we're starting a little in media res here, i'll write the start of their relationship eventually but its not needed for here. uh the context you do need here is: north is cis; church is transmasc, and also fucking tex wash caboose and tucker bc this is literally the most self indulgent au possible. theyre both toxic individuals who engage in unhealthy behaviors 🙏💖. this isnt a fic as much as it is an infodump about the au but it IS horny

at this point in the timeline of the au north and church have been fucking for a while as a "just casual" thing. not even really "friends with benefits" bc they're not really friends outside of it. north would like this to change, bc he is very fond of church and every time theyre together he just grows fonder, but church is anathema to the idea of relationships even if he secretly feels the same way.

and this is how church is really with all of his partners. very clearly he has a significant emotional connection with each of them but that isnt talked about. no relationship stuff is ever really talked about, including sex. he is sooo used to partners who just kind of like. he needles them enough and they snap and rough him up and there isn’t really “communication” or “safe words” as much as “if you push church too far he’ll dissociate and go limp and silent and that’s the sign to stop.” church would rather you beat the shit out of him than make him talk about his feelings okay he can’t ADMIT that he WANTS things. you just need to be like tex and be able to read him better than he can read himself. it’s really not too much to ask that his partner knows exactly what he wants without him having to communicate it is it?

the thing is that the "needle until they snap" thing doesnt work with north bc 1) north would not snap in this way and 2) he rather likes things like “communication” and “safe words” and yes even “talking about your feelings.” so even though both church and north very badly want to do weird shit, north won’t just do it without communicating before hand and church won’t just say what he wants. so north has to be like. well until you can properly communicate no more sex. which on its own wouldn’t really bother church. he is a horndog here but he has other outlets for this. church is not exclusive with north nor would he ever want to be and he still maintains to himself that their relationship is purely sexual. so if north doesnt want to have sex anymore then oh well. hes not broken up about it (he is)

so north realizes that the only way to get church to admit he wants to do weird shit is to do other weird shit that denies him of the weird shit. because, sure, he'd like to just have an open and honest conversation but lets be so real for a second. north is just as insane as everyone else in this equation. ethical manipulative girlfriend core.

and. well. chastity belt.

"no more sex until you learn how to say with your words that you want me to tie you up and rail you. if you want me to take it off all you have to do is talk to me and tell me to take it off ”

but of course church is completely convinced he could outstubborn north. and maybe he could in most situations but “having full control over someone” is literally north’s dream scenario, so this is nowhere near as torturous to north as it is church. sure, he's not having sex either but and it is torturous to church. his t-dick is just rubbing against the restraints everyday, driving him up the wall. and hes rubbing himself trying to get relief and just making it worse. just constantly at the edge and never able to get enough friction to get over it. or, well.

a thing about church is like. he's a bitch and he whines and he's combative and prone to hating authority but give him directive? He won't actually break it. like if north told him not to i don't think he would. he could easily get himself off when north isn’t around. its not actually that hard to get chastity belts off without the key. nor would it really be that to but. he’s not. he won’t. don’t mention it don’t question him

he likes to push right up against breaking the rules but just flat out breaking them isn’t any fun. which means that he’ll literally edge himself constantly like he’s doing it to himself. my guy.

"north said i’m not allowed to get off but he didn’t say i couldn’t make myself deliriously horny"

[kapachiramasama]

RvB Secret Santa 2024 fic for @leonardalphachurch ! The request was for churchnorth toxic postivity, parenting for theta, or chucker, so I decided to mix and match with churchnorth kinda parenting tucker. I hope you enjoy, happy holidays!!!

[leonardalphachurch]

the other day i thought of churchnorth fantasy au with damsel-in-distress!church and prince-charming!north and as i was looking for poses for reference, (source for both @adorkastock) well.

what north thinks is going to happen when he goes to save the handsome princess trapped in the tower vs

the cruel and crushing reality of that princess being church

[leonardalphachurch]

none of you will know what i’m talking about but. my favorite thing when writing churchnorth is making north the world first ethical manipulative girlfriend core. like he’s horrible but church is even more toxic so actually he’s good here

[leonardalphachurch]

the reason churchnorth is driving me so insane i think is because. like. north really has very big “i can fix him” energy but the truth is as the late epsilontucker once said he doesn’t want someone who can actually be fixed he wants a perpetually broken baby bird. and so you’d THINK that church would be catnip to north since he’s all yknow. refuses to get better. but the thing is that like he IS catnip but in a really terrible way bc he also refuses any and all help. but he DOES love to be doted on. so church just dangles this idea of being one of north’s projects in front of him and north always feels like he’s SO close to getting through to church but it would never actually happen.

[leonardalphachurch]

north blows up at church and church kisses him and north pulls away to try to apologize and church is like SHUT UP. YOU’RE RUINING IT. DON’T KILL THE FUCKING MOOD