#cinensis

[ffsillkms]

🌸 Magic tea 🌸

[real-life-sucks-ass]

Cosplay of Saturn from @cinensis‘ Zenith

[realcinensis-blog]

Cinensis speaking.

I created this account that will be deleted in a moment once things has calmed down just to offer an explanation and also as the last defense of my person considering my deletion was taken for me having something to be ashamed of or feeling guilty after recent pitchforkings.

I sure am not.

I wasn't even gonna offer replies to @guardiandae tirade but after they just kept on and on and on. I'll allow an explanation that isn't 75% assumptions.

So here is a list:

- If you honestly believe anything she is saying, I won't stop you. Feel free to have whatever opinion you want about me but allow me to say anyone who knows me even just a tiny bit knows what kind of person I am.

- I have never yelled enough time already that I was never against NSFW artists. I have NSFW artist friends, me being Ace change nothing about that and guardiandae and I even made post in the pasts talking about that very thing. ( but of course she ain't saying that lol.) I explained myself like 3467532 times already. Not liking that content DOESN'T equal disliking the people making it.

- ( that one made me laugh because the accusation was so ridiculous.) The eclipse AU was turned into Zenith because I was looking to made an original story since a WHILE for portfolio purpose and my own friends came to me telling me potential ideas, which then developped the story in a completely different direction. ( Zenith and the eclipse au are nothing alike aside for Sola's design. That's it. ) it has ZERO to do with Doon's and Myself's parting.( but yeah let's use that to further your shitty agenda.)

- I don't take out my wrongs in situations and Doon and I parted ways because I was not in a right place emotionally because of hormonal therapy, which left me extremely distressed and unstable BECAUUUUSE of therapy ( ya know totally reconstructing your hormonal system is bound to have side effects.( one I was being followed for by my endocrinologist.) Some people dealt perfectly with it and understood while others didn't. So I knew when to leave them the fuck alone because I was being a royal pain the ass, but I can safely say now it's all over with and I am doing juuuuuuuust fine.) However my hormonal therapy side effect ain't a damn excuse and I know I hurt some people ( unintentionally.) but USING THAT BY SAYING I PURPOSELY GO AROUND EATING PUPPIES FOR BREAKFAST and that I am a manipulative bastard/someone who use people is just...so incredibly wrong and shitty I have no words. Taking the 3-4 people I had arguments with out of the 14 000 is laughable...( and arguments do happens. No one is perfect.)

- There is only shitty people that use all past arguments between people WHO HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH US to use for your arguments.

- Your own friends wouldn't come to me saying you are taking this way too seriously and way too far if you were in the right, dae.

- You totally assumed I purged you off my blog when I explained I purged my blog of anything not having to do with art or general gifsets and pictures because I had Hiveworks guidelines to follow and since the Tumblr is linked to it: I deleted most of my blog's content that was just replies to people or even my own posts lol. Like I said: you totally made this about you and turned this into some kind of insult against you when it had nothing to do with you. NOTHING.

- if anyone was ever hurt by anything I said or did: they are welcomed to come talk to me on instagram if they wish so. I'll promptly apologize and explain whatever needs explaining. I assure it's never my goal to hurt anyone.

- random anons are NEVER a valid source of anything Dae. You should know better.

- THIS WHOLE ARGUMENT HAS NO PLACE IN PUBLIC. THIS ISN'T HIGH SCHOOL. Gosh...

- it's been an entire year since we last talked. Find yourself a hobby, go out , breath some fresh air.

- When you responded with all the hatred and rage in the world to me at me , I was right smack in the middle of my little sister's birthday party. It sure was merry afterward lemme tell you...which is why I just deleted everything. I had no more patience left.

- If peopke ask why " all artists are leaving Tumblr" this is why. This senseless pitchforking for personal shits or arguments.

- like I said previously : believe whatever you want to believe. You can't be liked by everyone...but at least I'll give a chance to clean my slate . I don't even want people to side with me here. I just want this to be over.

- I won't be back on Tumblr , ever. Do a party Dae for all I care while I'll celebrate with my own peoples who genuinely care and never backstabbed anyone because they had nothing better to do.

- do yourself a favor and go to your friends, talk about cows, fangirl about stuffs, enjoy life, if I am suuuuuch a bad person, the best thing you can do for yourself is to enjoy your own life.

Sincerely

The last post written by cinensis on here.

[paperficwriter]

Do you know what happened to cinensis? I am freaking out and worried about him. I have no idea who else to ask.

Here are the only two things I’ve got: he deleted his Tumblr/Twitter and I am not in contact with him. So. Sorry, but I’m not in any better position than you are. 

Please don’t send me asks about this. 

[sakurasab]

Anon hate

God .....anon have cross the line .....i’m so angry at the moment ..... My brother Joshua #cinensis keeps getting anon hate and receive so much shit on is tumblr... BUT FOR NO FUCKING REASON !!!!!! he is the sweetest child on this earth ... he is always worried if he is good enough for is followers....he always wanna please them and try is best everyFUCKINGday to draw and be better...he gets sick and sleep like 4 hours a day ....because he want to improve and be better.... you anon don’t see that shit because you don’t care ! ....i’m with him everyday .... i see him struggle with is health....is mental health ... with money .. with friends... because he spend all of his energy on you guys ..... AND THAT’S WHAT HE GET ?!!!!!??? There is so much beautiful people here that help him so much in the past and even now ... to get through hard stuff.... and there is those garbage that have nothing else to do of their day beside shitting on the head of my brother.... i’m so freaking mad ..... where is the love and compassion in this world ??? i see so much hate ... so much jealousy .... i’m tired seeing my brother give so much energy and get this kind of crap right after.... If you have one glimpse of compassion and kindness... please leave him alone he have enough on his back at the moment ... he doesn’t need more ! 

[breezy-cheezy]

SS LOZ GUARDIANS STILL GIVES ME NIGHTMARES. ( and the freaking music playing then omg...)

GOOD GRAVY YEAH SAME THOSE WERE AWFUL DDDX I haaaate how you’re unarmed and powerless against them too like?? All you can do is run for your life and hope for the best?? Sacred Realms were awful and full of anxiety, the music, the intense colors when you messed up??? Bad bad bad I did not appreciate any of it;;;;; 

The music for BOTW guardians is significantly less terrifying, but urgent enough to let you know you’re under attack lol, and I appreciate the quiet piano solo start so it’s less of a jump scare! I can’t do jump scares (i.e. why I hate the re-deads and their paralyzing screams with every fiber of my being and just hand the controller to my brother when they show up...so glad they’re not in BOTW) plus it’s kind of catchy! 

[henkin-honk]

It started out as 1 bee I swear.

And then I remembered how much I loved to draw bees so this happened.

Thanks to everyone in the livestream that gave me ideas to draw also I’m going to tag @cinensis because it’s (was?) your birthday recently and I remember that I drew you a Castiel thing a looooong time ago and that you like bees so! Happy bee-lated Birthday!

[mp100translations]

Artista: cinensis

Tumblr:

http://cinensis.tumblr.com/

Traducción: MP100Traslations

Cleaner: Rukia Fujoshi

Traducción inglés-español: Sunaru y Suruhi

Typeset: Rukia Fujoshi

Muchas gracias a las artistas que colaboraron en este proyecto!!!