Thank you Our Life Beginnings and Always Tumblr Community for making me smile everyday and not making me feel alone 🩵
I’m fairly new to selfshipping/yumeshipping (even though I’ve been obsessed with Cove since the game’s release 😭), but it was always something I’d be embarrassed to talk about or even think…
But since I’ve been seeing so many fanarts of him, I’ve come to realize that maybe it isn’t so wrong to feel so strongly about a character. Cove genuinely helped me feel better about myself and boost my confidence during the times that I needed the most. This might be oversharing but right before I had discovered the game, I was going through a hard time processing and grieving the passing of my father, who was very dear to me. It was during the pandemic too, so I had no physical support of any of my friends, I’d be failing my online classes and I had nothing to look forward to in my life. Thankfully I’ve never had any serious mental health issues, and still thought life was worth living for, but still, it was a very hard time for me.
Up to that point I’ve never actually dated anyone either, I guess I could say I didn’t think of myself as someone who would deserve that. When I first started playing Our Life, it was under the pretense of being “ironic” and at first I couldn’t really get comfortable with the self insert aspect. It was still weird for me to put myself in a fictional context, and it required tons of imagination haha.
But as I got further and further into the story, I’d start getting flustered or agitated, but couldn’t find the strength in me to admit such ridiculous fact haha.. It became a guilty pleasure, and no one could know. What if they find out I actually want to be loved? For some reason that was a very impossible thing for me to admit. I like Cove because I was able to get to know him for long enough for me to start being comfortable with the idea of loving him. Because I got to see his fases and different sides. Because I had the liberty of deciding whether I was comfortable doing this or that, without it having to be forceful or inevitable in the story (common dating sim ick that I get ). (+ I’m demi)
After so many years of playing this game I truly feel like I grew up with him. Started playing close to step 2 age, now I between step 3 and 4 haha! I truly appreciate those years we’ve spent together even though they were scripted. And I can’t wait to spend even more time with him through the power of imagination and my drawings!! I’ll try my best to capture his ethereal beauty !!!
I’ve mentioned it briefly on this blog before, but I have an MC (who is basically me) but I get so embarrassed drawing yumeship art that I never gather the courage to post it !!! 😭 but if anyone’s interested I might give it a go.. also I’m sorry if I don’t interact with other Cove yumeship posts, I consider myself a non sharing yumeshipper, I get real sad… but that doesn’t mean I hate them!! It just means I’ll scroll and go through my day, hope you understand…
Anyway!!! Sorry for the random giant text, I just felt like this was a safe place for me to open up about my interests and hopefully someone might relate! Or smth
If you read it till here thank you very much!! 💕
And look forward to my next posts!