#cino vent

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I’m not important. I forgot haha. Sorry everyone, I figured it out again. I forgot I wasn’t important and thought I was actually someone higher then dirt. Whoops, haha!

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Let all my bitterness melt into candy..

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My love’s family attacked her cause they were being homophobic and..just...ugh I’m so worried right now, I really hope she’s safe. I..I...I’m so scared she doesn’t deserve this, I wish her family would die or be understanding and openminded I’m so scared..

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Yup, someone please keep needles away from me

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Sometimes I wish I wasn't like this.

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vent

I guess I’m just really worthless

I hate thinking these thoughts again it’s terrible, I’m terrible, I know it’s just irrational and dumb and stupid and I hate it I hate it I hate it but it comes back and stabs me in the chest and guts my intestines out as they push against my lungs waiting for it to pop like a balloon I hate it I hate it

I thought I was getting better

better then those overly jealous and reacting thoughts I want to just throw up all I ever really was was just a dirty liar, just throw me away already why won’t you treat me the way I really should be treated

thrown out thrown out throw me away please I don’t deserve anything anymore

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I don’t want to talk anymore

My words aren’t important anyways

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Ah that's right..I'm not needed anyways