#cithlux

[gaypastabake]

whatever. go my fatter Lux propaganda rays

[gaypastabake]

i'm so delighted to see someone else invested in lux and cithria's friendship! i'm not writing them as romantic, but cithria's voice lines to her in LoR gave me all these ideas and headcanons and inspired me to explore them in this fic i'm writing. i can't wait to write their next scene together, i'm so excited T_T

im so glad im not the only Cithria fan, for me she represents a fresh pair of eyes into Demacia's positives and negatives, great and small

got obsessed with how good of a character she would be to explore after Turmoil, she's one of the only non-mage demacian soldiers who actually stopped to think about how the laws of stone and the mageseekers affect others, and how wrong it was

i think both her and lux combined reflect the best in Demacia; not its banner, not its nobility, but the people who look out for eachother and protect those who are vulnerable, those who are valued based on their strength as a friend and not their strength with a sword

the romance thing however came to me in a delusion

[gaypastabake]

so everyone hear me the fuck out for just a second

they have not canonically met and yet have a hypothetical interaction in legends of runeterra where its like theyve known eachother for a LONG time, Riot when did they meet? what did she mean by this? why does she say that in such a sweet voice?

[gaypastabake]

comic is going to be one big excuse to draw lux as squishy as possible and you can tell which pannels were my favourite to draw (ones I can say fuck off to backgrounds)

almost there bear with me

[gaypastabake]

i showed my brother the draft script i wrote for comic i wanted to make and he immediately clocked that i was talking about myself and my own insecurities so now he is genuinely concerned for my wellbeing

im so fucking sorry that Demacian roomates yuri is how you found out about my crippling self doubt issues and generally feeling pitiful, i do plan on seeking a therapist i just need to contextualise it in the only way how and its characters i want to see locked into mouth to mouth combat

I am running unmedicated rn because im out of yummy fluoxetine and im shakey about everything that i got upset at toxic yuri of a character I like and project onto