“ if you can’t stay, let me come. ” even as he says it, he knows that it cannot be. though he has tried to turn away from their father’s legacy with every choice he makes, he cannot escape the choice that spelled odin’s ruin as a father and legacy as asgard’s king: thor cannot serve asgard and his brother. he cannot be a good king and a good man.
over these last few months, he has tried his best to give his brother his space ---- to refrain from the casual touches that are too easy for him to fall back into. he cannot find it in him to do so now. thor catches loki by the wrist, knowing that nothing he does will keep loki here, but knowing he will try nevertheless. it is in both of their natures, practically a law of the universe ; they move in different directions, and no matter how hard they try ( and they have tried ) neither can change course.
each day they wake, trying to make amends, to find common ground, to find a way back to the family they might have been, years and years ago. each day, it becomes more and more obvious that all they know how to do is reopen old wounds.
“ loki, ” he says, not bothering to hide the panicked edge to his voice. “ brother. i am sorry. there is a place for you here. with me. i cannot rule without you. ”
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