#closetednonbinary

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Blog 3

I'm losing my fucking mind. I'm going crazy not being able to talk to anyone about gender stuff. My mum mentioned me wearing a skirt on the phone and I basically had a panic attack.

I can't fucking handle this. I feel so fucking trapped.

I don't know what the fuck to do. I feel like I can't breathe.

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Blog number 2

So I was talking to my mum about different gender identities to see if she even knows about them. She does know that there's identities in between the binary male and female so I think she would be ok with me. She asked what I am and I just said 'i don't know'.

It's too late to have the whole conversation about my identity now and I go back to uni tomorrow until the end of july. I don't wanna have that conversation over the phone so it'll have to wait till then, but I feel kind of ok with coming out to her at some point. But again, like with my friends, it's just too scary. I don't think I'm ready to have the conversation about name change, pronouns and top surgery and possibly starting T. I don't think she's ready for that either.

My dad on the other hand I have no idea what he would feel like. He most likely doesnt know about identities in between male and female. When I came out as bi he said it was a phase so I don't like talking to him about that kind of thing.

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My first blog- about me

I'm too scared to come out to anyone. My housemates I know will be fine but it's scary. I have no idea how my parents would take it.

The only person I came out to was my ex boyfriend and he was great about it but he's not in my life really anymore. He was quite horrible to me and lied about loving me for 3 months of our relationship and 2 months after it.

I had a dream last night that I got top surgery before I was out to anyone and because I got it I had to tell everyone. The dream didn't continue long enough for me to know how people reacted.

I just wanna be able to tell people. I have a binder but I only wear it every now and again because I work long shifts and people would notice if I suddenly had no breasts.