#closetedtrans

[child-of-dandelions]

TW: Gender dysphoria!

Dysphoria ain't just being uncomfortable.

Dysphoria is starting to cry when you wear something that makes you look feminine. Dysphoria is shifting around because nothing sits right. Dysphoria is hiding in your room, so no one can perceive you as feminine.

Dysphoria is not liking your own voice. Dysphoria is wanting to cry about being dead named. Dysphoria is not raising your hand in class, so you don't get called up and have to hear your dead name or voice, and risking your grades.

Dysphoria is zoning out, feeling like you're watching your body from the outside. Dysphoria is crying about your body at night. Dysphoria is feeling like you're never going to pass.

Dysphoria is feeling watched at all times. Dysphoria is not being able to use the bathroom that aligns with your gender in public. Dysphoria is not liking to go out because you could be perceived as female.

Dysphoria ain't just being uncomfortable. It's being in pain on your own. It's suffering in silence.

[child-of-dandelions]

Can I call my birth name my dead name, even if I still use it?

So since I'm not out to most people I still use my birth name. But I stopped reacting to it most of the time (except with my family) and it makes me very uncomfortable to be called by it (even though most people still use it for me). Anyway my question is: If I still, for multiple reasons, use my birth name, can I still call it my dead name?

[bunkarppat]

SYLVEON IS THE ULTIMATE TRANS MASCOT

For my fellow closeted trans folk. Use Sylveon as an excuse if you want any pride objects. Sylveon is this eevelution. She is white, pink, blue. You can say you really like Sylveon and no one will question you. This is what I plan on doing. Hope I could help some poeple out. Stay safe. Chat with me pls I like talkign with people. 

[closetednonbinary-blog]

Blog 3

I'm losing my fucking mind. I'm going crazy not being able to talk to anyone about gender stuff. My mum mentioned me wearing a skirt on the phone and I basically had a panic attack.

I can't fucking handle this. I feel so fucking trapped.

I don't know what the fuck to do. I feel like I can't breathe.

[closetednonbinary-blog]

Blog number 2

So I was talking to my mum about different gender identities to see if she even knows about them. She does know that there's identities in between the binary male and female so I think she would be ok with me. She asked what I am and I just said 'i don't know'.

It's too late to have the whole conversation about my identity now and I go back to uni tomorrow until the end of july. I don't wanna have that conversation over the phone so it'll have to wait till then, but I feel kind of ok with coming out to her at some point. But again, like with my friends, it's just too scary. I don't think I'm ready to have the conversation about name change, pronouns and top surgery and possibly starting T. I don't think she's ready for that either.

My dad on the other hand I have no idea what he would feel like. He most likely doesnt know about identities in between male and female. When I came out as bi he said it was a phase so I don't like talking to him about that kind of thing.

[closetednonbinary-blog]

My first blog- about me

I'm too scared to come out to anyone. My housemates I know will be fine but it's scary. I have no idea how my parents would take it.

The only person I came out to was my ex boyfriend and he was great about it but he's not in my life really anymore. He was quite horrible to me and lied about loving me for 3 months of our relationship and 2 months after it.

I had a dream last night that I got top surgery before I was out to anyone and because I got it I had to tell everyone. The dream didn't continue long enough for me to know how people reacted.

I just wanna be able to tell people. I have a binder but I only wear it every now and again because I work long shifts and people would notice if I suddenly had no breasts.

[quinnwantsdeath-blog]

Update

Hey its Quinn... its been a while I've been stressed out and not in a great mind set, I'm still good old closeted boy Quinn, don't worry. QOTD whats your favorite flavor tea?