So I’ve been reading Come Morning Light and Jesus fucking CHRIST
I was documenting the experience in a group chat called “Alex Hammyham and The Gay Revolutioanrys” so this is my reaction to like everything.
I’m at like chapter thirteen maybe fourteen I’ve lost count but holy shit.
It is my firm belief Tanaka needs more appreciation I love him and my soul was positively crushed when he died. Noya’s reaction actually started making me ugly cry and I legit never cry when I read or watch things.
Also my feelings felt things when Yams met with a patient who was asking for his sister and we never saw Tanaka’s body but my heart was quickly crushed and then resuscitated because the spiky porcupine arrived.
Actually as soon as Iwaizumi appeared without Oikawa I felt this growing sense of ‘something is wrong’ because 1) IwaOi was in the tags and 2) I had just processed the fuck was going on with everyone else. I was like “Is he in such bad shape that Iwa is alone?” Because canonically Oikawa is Iwaizumi’s tether and vice versa if that makes any sense ??? Like, they’re always better together, they’re always grounded and better overall together. Anyway I kind of went on an IwaOi rant but I just felt very, very worried because what is going on with the Seijou beans? Are they gonna be okay? Where ARE both Seijou beans?
I see that I predicted right with my bad feeling. Like the second I found out Oikawa was shipped somewhere else I just kinda felt this creeping dread and sat on my couch for a few minutes like “No. no. No. This—no.” Like if no was a feeling that was a feeling.
After that it was a very big whirlwind of feelings. I cried during that cafe scene—actually most things Oikawa related in this fic make me cry.
It was either sadness or “fuck.” Fuck just became in emotion.
The sign language scene ALSO made me cry, that’s what the last message is about. These were thankfully, somewhat good tears I guess ???
I’m pretty burnt out and stopping before I read the last two chapters.
