So today was kinda a rollercoaster ride, went from feeling super happy to anxiety to happy and hyper, and now, normal.
Started off great since the class group became active again, well I say great not because I joined in to talk or whatever, but I guess that kinda triggered a couple friends to text. Got to talk to so many old close friends again, and it was so nice. Felt like I was transported back to my college days :’) Of course, lots of a couple moments were relived back in the chat, same with my friends.
Things then took a little turn for the worse, anxiety kicked in. Maybe it was seeing him talk in the group again. Not sure why I’m still getting so triggered because I really thought I had moved on. Ah well, but I’m being in denial, aren’t I? I’ll never truly move on.
Well, whatever, I pushed through it. I focused on other things, and that helped me push myself to go back to learning German, which I had been planning to do at the start of the month but didn’t get to since I was so busy with spring cleaning. Was pretty fun since I could still remember most of the meanings and pronunciations (really proud of me too). A great refresher, but hopefully I can start learning something new again tomorrow.
Also decided to get back into my job hunt, managed to shortlist a couple but haven’t got to send them out. Thinking about it, I do feel a little anxious about it, going back for interviews and stuff, but I’ve also been reminding myself of my other goals, so finding a job ASAP would be the best for me.
So things started to feel a bit better, and started feeling this tingling happiness again, and started talking a little more to my friends too. My good friend even suggested she wanted to plan a class reunion, which is something I’ve wanted forever but I don’t really show it I suppose (only my close friends know how much I truly miss everyone, probably), so god bless her. Just replied to the group and archived it just in case of another anxiety attack, so ehhhh.
ANYWHO, I’ve decided to just do my CNY insta post after the 15th day of CNY since there’s gonna be visiting on Sat and probably on the last day too. Kinda upset that the visiting has clashed with my plans to meet my uni friend (whom I hadn’t seen in AGES), but I guess we could meet the week later. Well, at least more red packets for me too, aye?
Well, so cheers to this crazy emotional (or not that emotional) day!