#cocoshady

[therealcocoshady]

Late night so no one’s gonna see this little confession right ? Right ? 👀

I recently started posting personal content on TikTok. One of my videos got 120k views and it’s freaking me tf out. That might not be a shitton of views to most people but to me it’s scary enough.

I hate the attention and I realize I’m far more comfortable with being anonymous. But even then… my content getting attention is freaking intimidating.

And this may or may not be the reason why I’m terrified to post Recovery Chapter 45 (which is almost done by the way). This series wasn’t supposed to be something huge but the fact that it got so much love and knowing that people actually look forward to reading my stuff is overwhelming. 😭

So much so that I even considered closing this blog at some point

[therealcocoshady]

So... I had an idea.

I get a ton of DMs and Asks asking me about my writing process, sometimes out of curiosity, sometimes because they're looking for advice.

To be fair, I'm not an expert when it comes to writing. I'm very much self-taught, and the fact that I chose to create content in English when it's not my native language really doesn't help either. 😅 Therefore, I don't think I should be seen as a legit authority figure in the matter. That being said, I've had this blog for the better part of a year, started dabbling in creative writing before that and my job does require tons of writing (in multiple languages). So there are a few things I can bring to the table when it comes to recommending resources you can use to improve your writing, tools and methods you might find helpful, some advice too... Some hot takes and opinions no one asked for, as well.

Also, there are tons of thoughts I'd like to share. About writing in general, about being a fanfiction writer, about real people fanfiction... I could probably talk anybody's ear off about that. Because I do love writing. I do spend a huge part of my time doing it. And even when I'm not writing, I spend a lot of time thinking about it. But I do realize that not everyone who follows me on here would be interested in that type of content. After all, I literally created this blog so that I can share Eminem fanfiction, as well as some of my thoughts as a fan. Let's be honest : sharing my thoughts about writing was never one of the purposes of this blog and doing that probably would not align with the main theme. And I don't want to flood y'all with that when you're just interested in reading fanfics.

Then, I realized I could create a secondary blog, on which I can create and reblog content that's more related to writing. Is that something some of you would be interested in ?

Should I create a writing blog ?

YES ! Do it ✍️

No need. You can share on here. 🤷

We're not interested ⛔️

No opinion, I just like polls and clicking buttons 🙊

Voting ended onNov 18, 2024

[therealcocoshady]

FELLOW ADHD AND NEURODIVERGENT TUMBLR USER?!?!

I’M NOT ALONE ANYMORE 🎉🎉🎉🎉

Abso-fucking-lutely 👀

Disclaimer-type thing : I am a queer ADHD girlie on the autism spectrum, who struggles with addiction & bipolar disorder. On this Tumblr, we care about mental health and we support each other ❤️. I'm also friendly, albeit socially anxious & awkward and if anyone feels like chatting, feel free to come & say hi via DM !

Also, it feels like I haven't properly introduced myself to my dearest gentle readers, so if you guys have questions to get to know me, I'll be happy to answer them 👀. Also, I'm bored and in need of distraction while I take a break from writing my PhD dissertation, so how about a lil Q&A ?

[therealcocoshady]

JAJAJJAJA NOT THE TWITTER

srsly rho ignore it who the hell cares this is for fun and theres been much worse added to the internet

plus at least that means your blog’s getting big because people r talking abt it 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

-😛😛😛

First of all, THANK YOU to everyone who was so sweet and supportive about my little meltdown/freakout about people talking about this blog on Twitter. 🥰 I received so much support via DMs, comments and Asks I am honestly at a loss for word 🥺

Honestly, it seems a little stupid and counter-intuitive but the fact that the blog is "getting big" is super intimidating. It really started as me trying to find an outlet to empty my brain 😅. The more I realize that there are actual people reading that stuff, the more nervous I get. Of course, I am highly flattered that people are enjoying the stuff I write, and taking time out of their busy lives to actually check out what I put out next, but there's another side to it, I guess 👀

To me, fanfiction has always been super personal. Even when I would just be reading and not writing. I would never talk to anyone about it because it's something I did for me and didn't really want to share. Not to mention that tons of people might find it cringey, especially when it comes to real people fanfiction. So, knowing that people are discussing (and kind of trashing) the blog feels weird and intimidating. Because my writing does not feel like that intimate safe place anymore. Up until I realized that people posted on Twitter about it, it was just me, my brain and like-minded people who were so sweet. And then, it opened my eyes to the possibility that not everyone's safe and open-minded when it comes to people sharing their thoughts online, and that it can lead to some harsh judgement. And then, it got kind of scary because I realized that the anonymity is a blessing here, but what would happen of someone could trace it back to the actual Coco ?

So, yeah, I sort of freaked out 😅. But I was so touched by all the comments & messages I have received, all of you telling me that the blog has actually helped you in some capacity. It definitely made me feel like less of a circus freak who writes fanfiction about someone they'll never meet. ❤️

[therealcocoshady]

HOLD ON HOLD ON HOLD ON!!!! THATS WHY I PROCRASTINATE?!?? cause of like... the dopamine??! I DIDNT KNOW THIS‼️‼️ i thoughts i was just a lil silly yk, cause like... nobody wants to do skl work yk?

also ur smut is gen sum of the best ive ever read, i need to be ✨blessed✨ with more

also i am loving the new format, the tiny writing with the coloured speech... absolutely yummy xx

-🍄 (lil androgynous mushroom)

Well, I'm not a neuroscientist, so I wouldn't be able to explain it properly, but basically, hormonal imbalances have an impact when it comes to procrastination, whether it is a dopamine deficiency, elevated cortisol levels, serotonin imbalances, and so on. A quick use of chat GPT to sum it up would probably explain it better than me! But honestly, understanding the brain chemistry behind adhd and my executive dysfunction was incredible for me. It really made a difference when it comes to guilt !

Now you're making me write smut 🤭 ! I actually received a really nice request that would be absolutely perfect. About Marshall and Reader being caught doing the deed ! Also, speaking of smut... I have the outline for an absolutely FILTHY that would be smutty and angsty AF ! I'll probably get working on it once I'm done on Recovery and Love Game, though. Gotta learn to end tasks before I take on other ones...

[therealcocoshady]

i is getting like a half therpy (other reasons lawl) and half adhd diagnosis thingy, idk.

But honestly hyperfoucus has saved me so many times. Yesterday i wrote an 11 paragraph essay off the top of my head about Bones and All (silly canabalism movie (dont judge its a hyperfoucus i cant control 😭😭 its problomatic as hell but fuck it we ball yk) and i wrote it in like 30 mins 😭😭 When the hyperfoucus hits it hits hard

also i js wanted to also say... the smut... god lorrddd the smut on this blog ‼️‼️ absolutely yummalicious, beautiful writing and i need morreeeeeeeee. Cant consume enough ‼️

-🍄

Honestly, hyper focus is both a blessing and a curse. On the one hand it makes you so efficient and you can be so good at researching a topic and developing some sort of expertise on it super quickly. Same goes for assignments. Our brains thrive on last minute stuff, because of some sort of adrenaline/dopamine rush. So it gives us the ability of being super productive on a short time frame. And those happy hormone releases make it so addictive, too.

And sometimes, hyper focus is the worst liability, because you have obligations and commitments, but your brain just won't let go of whatever it is that you're focused on. And you don't even know if it'll last for hours, days, weeks, months or years. In the meantime, you're unable to do shit, because your brain space is taken.

Also, thank you for the smut compliment ! It means a lot to me because I feel so bad at writing it. I enjoy smutty content as much as the next sinful humain being, but I feel stupid writing it 95% of the time. 😅

[therealcocoshady]

Saw that you haven't updated the masterlist, but there are 35-44 as new chapter after the 34 on masterlist.. As I have not caught up since I though 34 was latest chapter, the chapters after that are little hard to find/read, as there are lot of spoilers on the way with the ask and you cannot open them to new window, so it gets really long.. Just wondering if you are thinking of updating the masterlist?

Hey there ⭐️ What can I say… I’m sorry 😭. I’m already terrible at posting regularly on that blog, but when it comes to updating the Masterlist ? I absolutely SUCK 😂.

That being said : I have FINALLY updated it ! 😁 So not only do you have the links to ALL the Recovery chapters, but also every single One Shot, HC… it’s all there ! 🥳

I will try and be better at updating it 😁 Thanks for reminding me !!!

[therealcocoshady]

His team is simply failing him. The Cole Bennet music video delay isn’t the first one. C‘mon dude do what you‘re paid for in time .. I would be pissed about it as a perfectionist. I hope it won’t mess with his album sales

Where are you in Switzerland and do you like it so far? 😊

I am this 🤏🏻 close to sending a resume and say « please add me to your team, y’all need new blood and obviously have no idea how to communicate, please hire me » 😂.

The whole « Cole Bennett is at fault because he is a perfectionist » excuse is bullshit in my opinion. Because if you are a perfectionist and working with one of the biggest artists of the century, you might want to make sure to put that high in your priority list and respect deadlines so as not to disappoint said artist and his fans. Just saying 😑.

I want this album to succeed, but if it doesn’t, the team will be to blame. Not the fans.

I am in a small village at the border, spending time with family who lives there. I go there quite often so I’m used to it & I love the scenery ❤️. The fresh air in the mountains is perfect for some rest & inspiration ! I am very close with my little cousin who is 10 and I am taking care of her hip-hop education 👀. She really likes Eminem too 🥰.