Things have been crazy en la casa Poindexter lately. Got the MacBook Pro, the GoFundMe campaign is in a nice swing, and we are sorting/packing everything to prepare for the estate/yard sale this weekend, and to move back to Durham! I cannot even begin to describe the bundle of nerves I am. This is a huge decision for us, and now that family has started to step in to help out, I feel even more pressure to succeed. It’s one thing to have expectations for yourself, but when other people have put their money (or in the case of my $2500 MacBook Pro,) their credit on the line because they believe in you, it’s kind of a different ballgame. Not that failure was an option before, but it is very humbling to see how much other people believe in me. Sometimes it just hits me, “What the hell am I thinking?”. Moving clear across the country, selling everything we own and spending all of our money for me to do something that I have zero formal instruction in, and, in the grand scheme of things, very little personal instruction in.
Then, I remind myself how disappointed I will be if I don’t try. If I don’t rise to the occasion to meet this challenge face-to-face. Because, on the flip side of things, it’s one thing to tell yourself you can’t do something, but it’s another thing for somebody else to be able to say, “I told you so, you weren’t good enough to even try.” I believe that I can do anything, as long as I put forth my best effort. This is the reason that Coding House is the best fit for me. They take care of most of the things that could be a distraction in order for you to have the best learning environment possible; this will allow me to put forth my best effort and to succeed. I am so lucky to have family, friends, and most of all a loving husband that are so supportive of me and my dreams. All I can do is my best to make them proud!