I started this blog for a number of reasons, albeit only a few of them are important, so let's just stick with the primary reasons I started this blog:
No one cares enough to ask about my day: Now when I say this, it makes everything about my life seem terrible, and it really sounds like a giant pity party. In part, that may be exactly what it is. I, however, don't have any one person who cares enough to ask me, "how was your day?" and listen about my day. Even if I don't have any followers who care to read everyday, it feels good to feel like I am reaching someone... even if I'm really not. You may wonder, why doesn't DM ask about her day? He works all day, from 9-6, then comes home with sore feet that he has been on all day and he just wants to relax. I understand there is no excuse as to why someone would be so selfish as to not ask about the person who takes care of them 24/7, whose job doesn't end when he comes home, but continues well into the night, until bed time, and begins again the very next morning as soon as it is time to wake up; but, he is who he is, and I love him, and regardless of how selfish he may be or how mean he can be sometimes, he still makes me feel safe, secure, and he makes me laugh. He puts a smile on my face and makes me feel like, even when there is a lot wrong, things aren't so bad and that I'm still lucky to have my family. He is also very transparent a person, easy to read and easy to trust, because he doesn't put forth the effort it would take to maintain a lie to someone. If he was unhappy, he would simply leave. I play no guessing games with him and I love that about my relationship with him.
I have no friends: I literally have none. I don't have a best friend, a good friend, or even just a friend who wants to hang out every now and then. I don't even have people who pretend to be my friends, or text me every now and then to say hi and let me know they were thinking of me. So as it is easy to imagine, I get lonely. I could very well go out and make some friends, however, I am content without them--more so than I would be if I let the wrong person be a close friend to me, and they betrayed my trust. I would rather have a simple, happy life with my DM and DD, with no drama or chaos that other human beings can cause, than have a life full of fake friends who couldn't care less with me. I'd rather be alone and content with it, than I would living in naivety and surrounded by snakes. It really is this simple for me. I have not had one lasting friendship; no matter how loyal and loving I stayed to my friends, I always got stabbed in the back, lied to, talked bad about, or had 'friends' who couldn't NOT blab all of my personal information to one person or the other. So, I choose a life without them.
I like the idea of having a record of every day: I like the idea of being able to go back and remember even the simplest events. Even if I think nothing important or fun happened that day, I like being able to go back and look, remind myself.
