#combination type adhd

[hyperactivecanadian]

Late at night I long for mental silence.

I just want quiet in my head to fall asleep, not the millions of life regrets and memories that flood my mind.

[hyperactivecanadian]

Having adhd makes relationships 10 times more difficult. When it first starts it’s like a hyperfixation, everything is at 100% and you are obsessed with it. But soon you become bored and start acting distant, your feelings haven’t really changed it’s just not new anymore so your attention has shifted. But since we go at full tilt in the beginning, once that fades it’s hard to keep up those expectations. Soon one party (usually the non adhd person) starts to feel unwanted and unloved, which leads to an inevitable break up. And then you get the RSD and everything fucking sucks.

Now I’m not blaming it all on adhd I’m just pointing out where it plays into the relationship failing. It’s not impossible but it’s fucking harder than normal.

[hyperactivecanadian]

Adhd is buying a video game with an extensive,well thought out, well exicuted story, and playing half of it and never finishing it.

[hyperactivecanadian]

What type of ADHD do you have?

Hello community. I'm just curious to know how many of you know what type of ADHD you have. I know it's weird I'm just curious to know if there is a more common type or not. For those who don't know there are three types of ADHD, Inattentive, Hyperactive- Impulsive, and Combination. Myself, i have Combination Type and absolutely hate it.

[hyperactivecanadian]

How I found out I have ADHD

So growing up I used to hate school. the assignments were boring and never held my attention. I was always the slowest one and that meant I was the last to play. I remember being in the first grade and we had a work booklet that needed to get done. I was still on the first page, I was taking my time colouring in a rooster giving it a rainbow tail, but next thing I knew other kids had finished and were already playing. It distracted me and I couldn't focus on anything other than wanting to play. So I lied to the teacher and said I had finished and she let me play. Sadly, the only reason I remember this so vividly is because a week later the teacher asked for all the booklets, I never handed mine in so she raided my desk and found the whole school years worth of assignments in my desk. I was sent home that day with all the work and had a night to get it done. My mom sat at the supper table with me all evening stressed out and yelling at me because I couldn't focus and get anything done.

After that school was roughly the same every year. I had a hard time focusing in classes, everything was a distraction. In the third grade, My teacher had this idea to send me into the hall to do my work one day because I was disrupting class. To her surprise I ended up finishing my assignment faster than the rest of the class which led me to act like a clown in the window that viewed into the hall from the class. Again I only remember this because, my teacher then put a permanent desk in the hall for the rest of the year and I did every assignment in the hall. I was made fun of and the older kids made fun of me and called me names as they walked by me sitting in the hall. However that was the first year I got good grades. Unfortunately teachers are unable to tell parents that they think their child has something wrong with them so my third grade teacher never told my parents directly to get me tested. She tried to drop hints but my parents didn't pick up on them so well so I spent the next few years just struggling in school.

Fast forward a few more years until I was in either seventh or either grade. I had the same teacher for both so I don't really remember when these events took place. But I know I was struggling in school yet again. My teacher however was real awesome, he would put extra time into helping me understand stuff, and he would make sure I wasn't getting distracted, when I was he would come over and ask if I was stuck on a problem or if I needed to be moved. At the time I didn't know why but I figured he was just being helpful. I found out later that he suspected I had ADHD. During one of the parent teacher interviews/meetings. He asked me to sit in the hall so he could talk with my parents. I was sure he was going to tell them about something stupid thing I did to disrupt the class but It turned out he took a risk and pretty much told my parents to get me assessed for ADHD. And that's exactly what my parents did, and that year I was diagnosed with ADHD and immediately put on Ritalin. I have to say my grades improved after I was diagnosed and school became fun. I learned I excelled at math and English but struggled with other subjects.

[hyperactivecanadian]

I have a new hyper fixation

So I have recently, yesterday, become hyper fixated on bonsaï trees and wanting to grow one. I mean out of all my hyper fixations this is by far the least costly, but fuck it’s all I can think about. Also my career plays a role in the oil industry so I feel if I’m playing a role in destroying the environment the least I could do is take care of a miniature tree or two. But maybe that’s just me. Idk. I just know I’m hyper fixated on this hobby.