#inattentiveness

[fuckyeahladynoir]

ADHD: play a video game Me: okay cool im down ADHD: and read some fanfiction Me: okay... we can do that after- ADHD: no. together.  Me: i won’t be able to focus on either of them ADHD: that’s fine  Me: but- ADHD: while you’re at it watch a youtube video 

[matildaisautisticandproud]

April 13th - 30 Days of Autism Acceptance

April 13: What kind of things do you have trouble with as an autistic person? Why do you think you have trouble with it? What helps?

I mainly struggle with stimuli, social communication, coping with change, understanding emotions and people, executive dysfunction, inattentiveness, and auditory processing.

Often times, especially so when noise is involved, I get overwhelmed and go into what’s known as sensory overload. If I do not want to burden the people around me, I just grin and bear it no matter how much I want to break down in tears and run out of the room. My anxiety trumps the urge. I know that a common characteristic of autism is sensory difficulties so, that’s probably why I experience this. So far, I’ve found stimming to be a good soother, but I haven’t really found any good ways to cope. Listening to music doesn’t help at all when it comes to auditory stimulus; if anything, it makes things worse because it’s added noise.

My previous post talked about my struggles with social communication.

When changes occur, I often times freak out, even if it’s my fault for the change (i.e. I choose to wake up a little later). Also, I don’t understand why things have to change, even if someone has explained it to me multiple times. I haven’t really found a good coping mechanism for this yet. I just have to cry the stress out, I guess?

Okay, this is a major issue that I have many examples of. One thing that happened recently was when I was out with my family and my aunt started crying. Let’s just say, I’m glad neither she nor her daughter were around to hear what I said. Since I couldn’t understand why she was bawling even after my father tried explaining it me, I got defensive. I internalize all my emotions until I just can’t so, I further don’t understand why people can’t just suck it up. I know that sounds terrible, but it’s just my thought process. When my mother found out that I had found it ridiculous that she was making such a scene, she flipped, but my father didn’t; he was actually sympathizing with me because I was what he called “just socially awkward”. Additionally, when friends cry I try my best to ignore it or pretend I didn’t notice. I don’t know how to deal with it so, I get really anxious, and since I am really sensitive to others’ emotions, I get overwhelmed. It’s bad, I know, but I do eventually decide to help the best I can. Which I’m certainly no good at consoling people.

Still on the same subject, I struggle to understand differences when it comes to people. I don’t know why people can’t do things my way. This is especially so when it comes to idiots like those who decide to refuse to abide by the social distancing guidelines. I just can’t fully grasp the fact that people are different. That’s sounds terrible, but I don’t act rude because of it.

Now, I have both ADHD-C and ASD Level 1 so, that’s probably why I struggle so much with not being able to manage my time and do things on my own. It’s physically painful to force myself to do things sometimes, even basic things like taking care of myself. Plus, since I am what’s known as time blind, I don’t get much done and often times am scrambling to finish class assignments and other stuff. I get a lot of things done last minute and am a major procrastinator. As of now, I have had to make myself a schedule to make sure I do all my coursework.

With ADHD-C, most struggle with paying attention. Now, I can force myself to pay attention sometimes, but lots of times I find myself getting distracted by literally everything. A quick search on how to spell a certain word could end up with me spending four hours scrolling through Pinterest. Also, a run to grab something from my room can turn into hours of me switching from task to task. I’ve even gotten distracted while I was just in the bathroom, and once spent a hour in there having my attention stolen by own thoughts and the things in the room. On the other hand, I can spend hours focusing on one thing and not get distracted what so ever. This is called hyperfocusing/hyperfixation. I don’t really have much of a method to combat this yet.

Along side ADHD-C and ASD, I have been diagnosed with what is known as (Central) Auditory Processing Disorder or (C)APD. The “C” is in parenthesis because I’ve seen it called CAPD and just APD. Basically, it means that I struggle to understand what people are saying when other noise is present. This is very evident when I listen to songs; half the time I don’t know what the singers are actually saying, even if the backing track is on the quieter side. It just sounds like gibberish. Another specific thing I struggle with is understanding what people are saying while chanting in movies and such. It just sounds like shouted garbled gibberish. I know that they’re speaking English, but my brain just can’t seem to pick out what exactly they’re saying. This difficulty not only pertains to medias; it’s also hard for me to understand people when they’re just speaking to me face-to-face. To cope with this, I heavily rely on closed captioning and asking people to repeat themselves. Sometimes I give up on asking people to repeat what they’ve said and just read their expression to figure out how I should respond.

Welp, I think I’ll end this here. Happy Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month! :)

[hyperactivecanadian]

What type of ADHD do you have?

Hello community. I'm just curious to know how many of you know what type of ADHD you have. I know it's weird I'm just curious to know if there is a more common type or not. For those who don't know there are three types of ADHD, Inattentive, Hyperactive- Impulsive, and Combination. Myself, i have Combination Type and absolutely hate it.

[euphxmia-pxtter-blog]

ADHD pride flag suggestion ^^^ yellow for hyper energy, bright green for creativity, grey for boredom, blue for RSD, red for sensory overload

[just-adhd-things-blog]

“Now where did I put my keys?”

[oediex]

I drink a lot of tea. Tea is good. It's warming, it's comforting, it's wholesome.

Two years ago, when I upped my tea game significantly, it bothered me how often I was boiling the kettle. I felt like I was not only wasting electricity but water too. So I asked my sisters to buy me a thermos flask.

It's white, it's elegant, it's pretty.

Too often like today, though, I find myself going for my first refill and finding I have left the top off. Luckily, most days this happens right after breakfast, so the water is still hot.

Kind of defeats the purpose a bit, though. Pay attention to what you're doing, Oedie.

[oediex]

I don't know where my head was at this afternoon.

I was leaving to get some groceries, and as I was putting my stuff away in my bike bags, I thought, "Wait, I was going to take my water with me."

So back upstairs to my flat I go, where for some reason I walk to the kitchen. "What am I doing here? This isn't where I store my water flask during the day."

I turn around and check in the right place, and my water flask isn't there.

"Where is it? I definitely put it there when I woke up this morning."

Only to realise I was actually carrying it in my hand, underneath my cardigan that was over it.

[katherine862]

Malice post #4

Caution is the soul's ability to perceive and predict hazards during its life.

When Malice drains a soul of its caution, the soul will then be inattentive and unaware of the dangers in its life. Instead of perceiving the dangers of its behaviors, an inattentive soul will instead blame everyone and everything around it for what happens. The soul will casually walk into many easily foreseeable issues, but never consider how its actions resulted in the hazard. The soul will then seek to blame everyone else for what happened, antagonizing those around them as being the supposed cause of all their sufferings.

In this environment of accusations, hostility, and distrust, Malice will easily flourish. Instead of taking actions to improve their lives, inattentive souls will lash out at those around them, cursing the world while they do nothing to protect themselves from it. Every inconvenience is a slight against them, and they will blame everyone but themselves for what happened.

When met with a major failure in life, do you see many people who will first ask what their own responsibility was before they blame others? How many people do you see out there who will instead look to scapegoat someone?

In politics, we see this all the time. Did your party lose the election? Well clearly it was not the party's fault, it was... transgender people acceptance? Maybe it was immigrants? Why look inward at your own actions when clearly it was someone else's fault right? It was those third party voters, or those people who sat out the election, it was everyone else's fault, but not my party's fault, right?

Malice will play both teams. It does not care who is on the "right side of history." All Malice wants, is to create a hostile environment for more Malice to be created. Whether the "heroes" or the "villains" create that environment, Malice still wins.