At a con for the first time in a while and GOD this is the most disabled I've felt in a long time.
I fucking hate having to advocate for myself!! I need to pre seat for panels because standing in a line would mean I get to see 1 panel a day and then spend the rest of the day resting in my hotel room. I keep on going up to the person at the door, holding out my badge with the TINY gold accessibility sticker and being like, "Hey, can I preseat please?". Only for them to be like "No, wtf 🤨". At which point I have to be like "I have an accessibility badge, I thought that was something I could do?". And then their face drops, horrified and they're just like "😨 Oh my gosh I'm so sorry go right ahead!!". I fucking hate feeling like I'm asking too much when I go and ask for something I was told by the con I was allowed to do!
At one point I was in a crowded panel and got picked to go up for a game. It was hot and the panel runner wanted to run things early. I had my cane and was moving slowly as I always do. I didn't hear him but apparently he was like "Can we hurry it up please?!" as I was coming up. The moment he saw my cane his face dropped and he started apologizing saying he would never have said that if he had known. I hadn't even heard him, so I didn't think much of it at the time, but it really stuck with me going forward.
I had fun but I was also in a lot of pain for most of it! I had to rest so much more than everyone I went with. When I woke up day 2 the elevators in my hotel had "out of order" signs and I had to rethink my entire day because of the extra strain the stairs were going to cause.
Bleh.















