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We are Mutants

I watch. A lot. I have this gift/burden to see your truth, your bottom line. I don’t know why because often I feel I’m out of my lane, unwelcome. Learning to stay in my lane has been very helpful yet I feel like I’m ignoring a part of me that is a gift. I’ve struggled with this all my life. As a 5 year old child, my mom would have me describe others to her friends. I was a parlor trick,…

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Ketamine Spray

The After Story

Let’s get one thing straight. What I’m about to share is my experience with ketamine spray not es-ketamine a derivative created by Johnson and Johnson labeled as Spravato. Nope. Not Spravato.

It’s been about 5 months since I finished my six IV ketamine treatments for anxiety. I would absolutely do it all over again. It rocked my world into a much more peaceful place.

It wasn’t a…

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Do You Like Yourself?

Do You Like Yourself?

I received a message this morning. Now, I’m crying. These messages have come steadily over the last 5 years. They always shock me when I read them. I don’t always share them. I’m sharing this one minus the personal message to me.

She wrote:

Hello Laura,

We have never met, but I want you to know your daughter taught me the “proper” way to eat chocolate. Hannah and I were not amazing close friends.…

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Ketamine Infusion Treatment Follow Up #7

Ketamine Infusion Treatment Follow Up #7

It’s Wednesday. My last treatment was Monday. I’m here to report.

This treatment was the least pleasurable. I opened my eyes several times. I fought off preceived evil at one point. I won the fight so everything is good.On a good note, I was less nauseated afterwards. Bonus. Even though the actual treatment was unusually uncomfortable, the results were wonderful, relieving, and wholly appreciated.

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Six Weeks Later...Ketamine Infusion Treatment #7

Six Weeks Later…Ketamine Infusion Treatment #7

I’m going in for a 7th treatment today. I fought this because I wanted to be in that high percentile of who those who only need 6 treatments. I’m not. I’ve gained an incredible amount of stability and peace from the first 6 treatments. I’ll do what it takes to hold on to it. Let’s be clear, I’m not starting at day one.

I’m fundamentally changed. I just need more help with the anxiety. After…

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My Ketamine Infusion Results #1

My Ketamine Infusion Results #1

My last treatment of 6 was the 19th of February. I highly suggest you read my blog posts that detail each treatment.

They say those around the patient often notice changes before the patient notices. I doubted that but after last night I don’t.

We were packing for a trip. It had been a very busy day. I didn’t get home until 10pm. Our plane departed at 7am the next morning.

I hadn’t packed a thing…

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My Ketamine Infusion Treatment #6

My Ketamine Infusion Treatment #6

My last treatment. I’m sad. I may be smiling but if you look closely, you can see the sadness.

Here I sit in my big comfy chair. If you’ve been follwing my blog, you’ll notice I replaced the word ‘my’ with the word ‘the’? That’s how I feel. It’s ‘my’ big comfy chair.

It’s a very vulnerable situation to be in this room, in this chair. Vulnerability is the path one needs to travel to love people.…

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