Depression has many faces. There are so many more than just these. I use to be scared to talk openly about my own mental illness because I was taught by society that you shouldn't speak of it. I felt ashamed, not normal. I'm not scared to speak about it anymore. I do battle depression & anxiety. I like to think I have a good handle on it most of the time. I've been in counseling, I've been on medication. I've worked extremely hard to get where I am today...but I'm struggling. I feel like I am treading water fighting desperately to stay up for air. Fighting to not sink back into that big dark hole of depression that I was in about a year ago. I do believe we are in control of our own happiness, however that doesn't mean living my day to day life isn't challenging when I'm constantly battling myself. I am happy. I'm the happiest I've been! But those moments of crying in the middle of the day, crying myself to sleep, waking up crying, breaking down randomly when I'm driving... being fine one moment and 2 seconds later I'm so deep in my head about whatever it is...they're becoming more frequent again. Then I battle myself to reach out to friends because I can't tell the difference anymore between venting about how I feel and complaining. So I usually say nothing and act like nothing ever happened. I know that's unhealthy and I am working on that. I'm not giving up, I will win this battle. I've been in that place before where I attempted to give up on life. I'm not there. Things are hard at times and this is just one of those hard times. However working out, taking care of my body with good food, working towards my goals and my loved ones are keeping me going. The necklace pictured says "my story isn't over yet" and I wear it with pride! I'm not giving up, and if you're someone out there battling mental illness, keep going. I promise it will get better! Keep fighting! Asking for help is NOTHING to be ashamed of either! You're a warrior💕 . . If I can ever suck it up and get a tattoo this is definitely one I plan to get lol. . . #mentalhealthmatters #mentalillness #conqueringdepression #lovethejourney #fitnessjourney #weightlossjourney #depressionhasmanyfaces (at Grand Rapids, Michigan) https://www.instagram.com/p/CABqq5_ARw0/?igshid=1rm9rnr969uwo
