#consulentelunare

[roleplayerxshoutouts]

“ lunarxatonement. consulente-lunare. tsukinootoko. nobilityandsacrifice. princesse-lunaire. All run by the same incredible young woman. I have had the absolute privilege and happiness to get to know the girl behind these blogs (she has more, but I can't even remember them-- I don't know how she keep track of them all), and I will never regret my decision to talk with her all those years ago. Thank you for everything, Amanda. We love you.”

[lordofdarknessyami-blog]

Michizane gently tugs on Yami's sleeve, lost in his thoughts. He and Yami have been close since the beginning it seems, back when they were both troubled, troublesome youths on the moon. They started simply as friends and it developed into what it is now. "Kei..." he tries to gain his attention, he has something on his mind...a question for him.

Even in the comfort of his own home, Kei was still at work. He’d been improving these designs for hours, hours of days of weeks; he had even taken them home with him to look over, obsessing over them. Work seemed to be all he could do these days… and it killed him inside. He was ignoring the most important person in his life, and that was so wrong, so inherently wrong. But it was all he could do, so much was expected of him…

He was more than thankful when he felt Michizane’s little tug on his sleeve. He looked up and offered the other a genuine, if tired, smile.

“Hey, Michi. Everything okay?”

[lordofdarknessyami-blog]

Learn From Your Mistakes (feat. consulente-lunare)

MichiKei AU drabble taking place in the mid-fourteenth century, in which Michizane has no choice but to assist Kei in an amputation caused by his own wild and uncontrolled experimentation.

Word Count: 2087 Triggers: Medical Gore; Blood; Amputation Ships: Michizane/Young Yami

Michi was worried.... he'd been seeing less and less of Kei lately, given that the other was almost always in his lab. But today.... he had a bad feeling...some unsettling, nagging worry. Something wasn't right.

The phone rang, almost intent on startling Michi from his reverie. On the other line, Kei bit his lip near to bleeding, trying to hold back the screams. He couldn't do this alone, he saw that now, and the sludge his blood had turned to in his hand was starting to now creep up his elbow. At this rate his whole arm would have to be removed... was this it? This very moment would be his death?

Damn it, Michizane... please... please pick up the phone...! 

Michi heard his phone ring and quickly picked it up, his hands shaking slightly "Kei! Kei is everything alright, what's going on?" He was worried, very worried, and the shaky breathing he was hearing wasn't helping matters.

What's going on? Is he hurt?

"Oh thank god," Kei breathed, barely able to keep the little whimpers out of his voice. "Michi, I need you... c-come alone to the lab, entrance past th-the false wall in the s-southwest corner... don't tell anyone else-- oh god, there's so much b-b-blood..!" The sob he'd been holding back finally escapes, as do the tears which had welled up behind his lids. "Michizane, p-please... I'm scared..."

He listened, trying to force himself to remain calm, to not show how afraid he was. And he was terrified....  "I'm on my way...." his voice sounded much, much braver than he felt. What had happened to his friend? What would he find there? How... how could he help? So many questions ran through his mind, questions for which he had no answers... It didn't matter, however. Whatever happened, he would do anything for Kei... and so he quickly grabbed his emergency medical bag and his coat, rushing out the door in such a panic that he forgot to lock it, and made his way to the lab.

His breath came in shuddering gasps, the pain becoming worse. The way the foul sludge pulsed through his veins, it felt as if some large animal were putting all its weight on his limb; he couldn't lift it anymore, and the blood was expanding in his arm, making it balloon and feel as if it may burst. The pain was nigh unbearable, and he waited until he heard Michi calling for him in the next room before opening his mouth to call back.

But what escaped his mouth wasn't words as he had planned, but a blood-curdling scream the likes of which had never escaped his throat. With this one swift action he found his throat red and raw, coughing and gagging through the pain.

Whatever semblance of normalcy, whatever semblance of calm that Michizane had been trying to put up, it all shattered the moment he heard that blood curdling scream, that sound pierced through his bones and into his heart like nothing ever had before, and tears welled up in his eyes as he rushed through the door. What he saw hurt his heart as nothing else could.... Kei was clearly in so much pain...and worse... the arm was swollen beyond any medical means of saving it. Dammit all... he swallowed the lump in his throat and ran to Kei's side "I'm here, Kei....it'll...it'll be okay...." he was trying to reassure them both...

Oh god... please... please let him be okay....

He screamed again, softer only because his throat couldn't take another screech as before, as he tried to turn to face his friend, failing and falling back onto his back. "M-Michizane..." His voice was hoarse now from the screams, tears falling unhindered down the sides of his face. He couldn't bear to speak the words which needed to come out, and yet if he did not, his fate was sealed. At least if they tried now, before the tainted blood reached his shoulder, he may still have a chance of survival.

"Michi... it needs to come off... my arm..."

Michizane knew the truth that the other spoke... but that did nothing to silence his grief. Or his fears... he knew that if he didn't act fast, he'd lose him... and that thought was far more terrifying than any other. 

His eyes shut tight as he heard the words spoken aloud... it made them more real somehow... but he nodded, his free hand running through Kei's hair in an effort to soothe him. "I know...." he whispered, his eyes opening slowly as he realized he'd have to do it. 

"I...I'm sorry, Kei...." he whispered, taking out some supplies.

With the stroking of his hair, Kei's quiet screams settle into small shaking sobs, his friend's face blurry through the tears. He manages to give Michizane instructions though, his voice shaking with fear throughout. "Y-you'll need to strap me t-to the chair... or I'll struggle and m-make it more difficult for you... and I'll need a bucket, th-the pain will make me vomit. I've seen it all before..."

He gives him as many details as quickly as possible about how to remove it-- first cutting through the skin with the scalpel, all the way around; then a lancet with a longer blade to cut through the muscle and expose the bone; and then the bone saw (said with a terrified stutter) to get through the bone itself. And then, to get one of the false arms from the sterilized cabinet against the wall, and-- THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT-- place the wired end against the stub and DO NOT MOVE IT UNTIL THE LIGHTS BLINK GREEN ON THE PART WHICH CONNECTS TO THE SHOULDER. No matter how much he screams or begs.

He looks up at Michizane as the apologies fall from his lips, his own lips trembling. "It has to be done... you're saving my life..."

He listened, though each word made him want to cry... as it was his throat felt tight, unbearably tight. He had only one question... he understood all the implications, understood that this needed to be done... but... 

"Is...is there anything...anything at all...that can be done to make it hurt you less? I..." he felt his chest constrict at the idea of hurting him, but he would set that aside...for Kei... 

He waited on baited breath, getting the necessary items as the other spoke.

"There's no time," he shook his head. "Anesthesia isn't an option, you need to cut now or I'll lose m-more than my arm, Michizane..." He whimpered again, shutting his eyes tight. "You can't stop when I scream, I need you to be strong for both of us right now... don't stop no matter what I say or threaten." With his free hand, he starts to do up the straps of the table against himself, and changes the settings of the chair to put him into a somewhat-sitting position. Still at a good angle for Michi to make the cuts, but not at such an angle where he will aspirate if (when) he vomits.

He nodded and grit his teeth, getting everything ready and forcing himself not to shake, afraid to speak lest the words come out in garbled sobs. A nod was the most affirmation that Kei would receive at the moment... 

He made sure all the supplies were on hand and took a deep breath 

Kei's eyes shut and he felt the first hot pain of the scalpel sinking into his skin. Michizane was quick in his work, his hands only hardly shaking as he makes one long swift cut just before Kei's shoulder, all the way around. The brunette hissed quietly at the pain, the feeling of his own blood dripping onto the floor. It didn't matter, as long as none of the sludge made it into his main veins. He could bleed as much as he needed to.... that false arm in the cabinet would fix everything else once it was on.

Next came the lancet, and Michi's hands shook a little harder as he lifted this one from the table. He took a couple shuddering breaths to calm himself before cutting through muscle to reveal the bone. Kei made a few little whimpers and groans, his tears coming faster, but did not yet scream. He tried to stay as quiet as possible, not wanting to frighten his friend. The worst was yet to come, after all. The bone saw would perhaps be the easiest, if not the most lengthy part. Bone had no nerves, and just took time to get through. There was no blood pumping into the arm now, so he would be safe if it weren't for all the good blood which was now leaking out of him.

Finally the bone saw made it all the way through, and Michi caught Kei's now deadened, bloated arm with a start. His face went white, holding such a weighty limb in his hands, as if the reality of what he'd done had just hit him. Kei spoke to him gently, bringing him back to reality, worried his friend might faint, but Michi shook himself and nodded, knowing there was only one more step before his friend would be saved. He put the limb down on the table beside him and ran to the cabinet in which all the electric limbs were, pulling down a full arm from its confines and bringing it over to Kei, who already looked pale a little himself.

"Don't stop. No matter what. Don't let go."

"I know."

"I'll scream."

"I know."

"I'll tell you I hate you."

". . . I know."

"I don't hate you."

"I know that too."

And then the wires were set into Kei's still-bleeding stub, and the screams began.

It went on for about ten minutes. Kei screamed until his voice went hoarse, cursing the Gods and himself and anyone he could think of, exhausting his extensive vocabulary of expletives and even creating a few new ones while he was at it. He cried and screamed and sobbed and there was a little vomiting involved as well (lucky to have had the bucket in his lap).

The wires seemed to come to life when they contacted Kei's blood, wriggling their way into his ragged skin and connecting with something within him. The metal itself expanded to match the muscle mass he would have had before the experiment went wrong, and a layer of ballistic gel which matched his skintone bubbled to the surface and coated the metal evenly. It expanded up over his shoulder and sunk little teeth into the skin, sealing itself permanently to his joints.

And then, after those agonizing minutes that felt like days, it was done. Kei was lightheaded and his vocal chords were abused beyond immediate repair, his eyes red and puffy from the tears. There was blood and vomit speckled over his clothing (to be honest, he was lucky he hadn't pissed or shit himself in the process as well). But it was done. He was safe, if a little worse for wear.

He looked up at Michizane, mouthing 'thank you' again and again, with something else mixed in occasionally as well. He wasn't sure if it was the pain or the lightheadedness that was making him so deluded that he should say it, but he said it anyways and meant it: 'I love you. Thank you. I love you, I love you.'

Michi's heart pounded in his chest, and his skin was covered in a cold sheen of sweat... he felt dizzy...lightheaded. And not just from the borderline shock that was settling over him. It was also the words... the words that the other mouthed quietly to him... there were words of thanks, but something else also... love. 

He hardly believed it at first... after all, it could just be pain induced... however... he remembered that pain often brings out people's true emotions. He sighed and rested his head on Kei's, his hand gently running through his hair in an effort to soothe him, as well as calm himself in the process.. last thing he needed was to go into shock.

"I love you too..." he whispered, it was all he could say at the moment, still stunned beyond words at all that had happened... he was covered in blood, and tired...though undoubtedly not as tired as Kei... 

At least he knew that in time Kei would recover from this.

[lordofdarknessyami-blog]

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ for literally any muse or muses you want ^^

under a readmore because WOW I did a lot

LUCIFER

If we kissed?

[] Quickie.[X] Tongue.[] Softly bite your lip.[] We wouldn’t.[] Long and meaningful.[] Let’s hit up the bedroom.[] You remember last time?[] Awkward…[] Lol no.Would I go out with you?[] Yes, definitely.[] No.[] I want to, but it wouldn’t work.[X] Maybe. [] Nope, you’re like family.[X] You’re cute, but probably not.[] Just simply not my type.[] If I knew you better.[] Already did.[] I don’t know.If we took a picture together, we’d be…[] Hugging each other.[X] Just chilling.[] Holding hands.[] Kissing.[X] Acting dumb.[] Normal picture.[] You holding me from behind.You are…[] Cute/Pretty.[X] Good looking.[] Sexy.[] All of the above You + me + room = …[] Movies.[] Cuddling.[X] Hanging out.[] Kissing.[] Playing games.[] Everything.[] Wouldn’t let you in.You should…[] Hit me up.[] Be mine.[] Marry me.[] Reblog this so I can send you a heart.[X] be studyingIf we got married, I’d…[] Divorce you.[] Make kids.[] Take your money and bounce.[] Smash every day.[] I would cheat on you.[X] Be faithful.[] Kill you in your sleep [] We wouldn’t

MICHIZANE

If we kissed?

[] Quickie.[X] Tongue.[X] Softly bite your lip.[] We wouldn’t.[X] Long and meaningful.[X] Let’s hit up the bedroom.[X] You remember last time?[] Awkward…[] Lol no.Would I go out with you?[X] Yes, definitely.[] No.[] I want to, but it wouldn’t work.[] Maybe. [] Nope, you’re like family.[] You’re cute, but probably not.[] Just simply not my type.[] If I knew you better.[] Already did.[] I don’t know.If we took a picture together, we’d be…[X] Hugging each other.[] Just chilling.[X] Holding hands.[X] Kissing.[] Acting dumb.[] Normal picture.[] You holding me from behind.You are…[] Cute/Pretty.[] Good looking.[] Sexy.[X] All of the above You + me + room = …[] Movies.[X] Cuddling.[X] Hanging out.[X] Kissing.[] Playing games.[X] Everything.[] Wouldn’t let you in.You should…[X] Hit me up.[X] Be mine.[] Marry me.[X] Reblog this so I can send you a heart.[] be studyingIf we got married, I’d…[] Divorce you.[] Make kids.[] Take your money and bounce.[X] Smash every day.[] I would cheat on you.[X] Be faithful.[] Kill you in your sleep [] We wouldn’t

WAKA

If we kissed?

[] Quickie.[X] Tongue.[X] Softly bite your lip.[] We wouldn’t.[X] Long and meaningful.[X] Let’s hit up the bedroom.[X] You remember last time?[] Awkward…[] Lol no.Would I go out with you?[X] Yes, definitely.[] No.[] I want to, but it wouldn’t work.[] Maybe. [] Nope, you’re like family.[] You’re cute, but probably not.[] Just simply not my type.[] If I knew you better.[] Already did.[] I don’t know.If we took a picture together, we’d be…[X] Hugging each other.[] Just chilling.[X] Holding hands.[X] Kissing.[X] Acting dumb.[] Normal picture.[] You holding me from behind.You are…[] Cute/Pretty.[] Good looking.[] Sexy.[X] All of the above You + me + room = …[X] Movies.[X] Cuddling.[] Hanging out.[X] Kissing.[] Playing games.[X] Everything.[] Wouldn’t let you in.You should…[X] Hit me up.[X] Be mine.[X] Marry me. (although being my pet is probably the closest we will ever get to that)[X] Reblog this so I can send you a heart.[] be studyingIf we got married, I’d…[] Divorce you.[X] Make kids.[] Take your money and bounce.[X] Smash every day.[] I would cheat on you.[X] Be faithful.[] Kill you in your sleep [] We wouldn’t

KATSUME

If we kissed?

[X] Quickie.[] Tongue.[] Softly bite your lip.[] We wouldn’t.[] Long and meaningful.[] Let’s hit up the bedroom.[] You remember last time?[X] Awkward…[] Lol no.Would I go out with you?[] Yes, definitely.[X] No.[] I want to, but it wouldn’t work.[] Maybe. [] Nope, you’re like family.[X] You’re cute, but probably not.[X] Just simply not my type.[] If I knew you better.[] Already did.[] I don’t know.If we took a picture together, we’d be…[] Hugging each other.[X] Just chilling.[] Holding hands.[] Kissing.[] Acting dumb.[X] Normal picture.[] You holding me from behind.You are…[] Cute/Pretty.[X] Good looking.[] Sexy.[] All of the above You + me + room = …[] Movies.[] Cuddling.[X] Hanging out.[] Kissing.[] Playing games.[] Everything.[] Wouldn’t let you in.You should…[X] Hit me up.[] Be mine.[] Marry me.[X] Reblog this so I can send you a heart.[] be studyingIf we got married, I’d…[] Divorce you.[] Make kids.[] Take your money and bounce.[] Smash every day.[] I would cheat on you.[] Be faithful.[] Kill you in your sleep [X] We wouldn’t

DARK LINK

If we kissed?

[X] Quickie.[X] Tongue.[] Softly bite your lip.[] We wouldn’t.[] Long and meaningful.[] Let’s hit up the bedroom.[] You remember last time?[] Awkward…[] Lol no.Would I go out with you?[] Yes, definitely.[] No.[] I want to, but it wouldn’t work.[X] Maybe. [] Nope, you’re like family.[] You’re cute, but probably not.[] Just simply not my type.[X] If I knew you better.[] Already did.[] I don’t know.If we took a picture together, we’d be…[] Hugging each other.[X] Just chilling.[] Holding hands.[] Kissing.[] Acting dumb.[] Normal picture.[] You holding me from behind.You are…[] Cute/Pretty.[X] Good looking.[X] Sexy.[] All of the above You + me + room = …[X] Movies.[] Cuddling.[X] Hanging out.[] Kissing.[X] Playing games.[] Everything.[] Wouldn’t let you in.You should…[X] Hit me up.[] Be mine.[] Marry me.[X] Reblog this so I can send you a heart.[] be studyingIf we got married, I’d…[] Divorce you.[] Make kids.[] Take your money and bounce.[] Smash every day.[] I would cheat on you.[X] Be faithful.[] Kill you in your sleep [] We wouldn’t

AIYOKO

If we kissed?

[x] Quickie.[x] Tongue.[] Softly bite your lip.[] We wouldn’t.[] Long and meaningful.[] Let’s hit up the bedroom.[] You remember last time?[x] Awkward…[] Lol no.Would I go out with you?[] Yes, definitely.[] No.[x] I want to, but it wouldn’t work.[] Maybe. [] Nope, you’re like family.[] You’re cute, but probably not.[] Just simply not my type.[] If I knew you better.[] Already did.[] I don’t know.If we took a picture together, we’d be…[] Hugging each other.[x] Just chilling.[] Holding hands.[] Kissing.[x] Acting dumb.[] Normal picture.[] You holding me from behind.You are…[] Cute/Pretty.[] Good looking.[] Sexy.[x] All of the above You + me + room = …[x] Movies.[] Cuddling.[x] Hanging out.[] Kissing.[] Playing games.[] Everything.[] Wouldn’t let you in.You should…[x] Hit me up.[] Be mine.[] Marry me.[] Reblog this so I can send you a heart.[] be studyingIf we got married, I’d…[] Divorce you.[x] Make kids.[] Take your money and bounce.[x] Smash every day.[] I would cheat on you.[x] Be faithful.[] Kill you in your sleep [x] We wouldn’t

[lordofdarknessyami-blog]

// you know what, just angst me up and hell, angst up the others too if you like

★: my muse breaks a promise

“I’m sorry.” He backed away from the deity as his eyes, like liquid starlight, watched him. He couldn’t tell if Tsukuyomi was angry, or just disappointed. After giving him so much hope, a new home, another chance, could he just really throw it all away like this? All at once?

He had to. There was no other choice, not anymore. Now that he had learned what Tsukuyomi had done behind his back– going to Amaterasu again and taking her heart captive, even though they knew each other’s history with her– How could he?? And to think, with a shudder, that for a brief shining moment, that he thought he was beginning to feel a true bond with the Moon Deity… perhaps something more.

“I should have known never to trust a god,” He choked out, his throat thick with tears. “I should have known that you’re all the same… I’m not coming back, Tsukuyomi… not as a friend. You had better hope that you and I don’t cross paths again.” He turned and disappeared into the shadows.

You broke your promise… so I broke mine. Once again, I am no longer loyal to the Tribe of the Moon.

♡: your muse fatally injures mine

How… how is this possible?!  How could you do this to me…?

King Fury stood above him, in all his demonic glory, a quiet laugh escaping him. “Pitiful… I’m almost surprised at how easy you were to take down, Tokoyami.” He tried to groan out a reply, but his insides were nearly spilling out from the gash in his stomach. Yami closed his eyes for a moment, trying to fight the growing nausea from the pain, and a new, sharp pain made stars flash across his eyelids as a foot came into contact with his temple, sending him sprawling. Then the smell of geta, and of earth, grinding his face into the ground.

“Why is it that you let him overpower you so easily? Is it that you love him?” The laugh is cold and without feeling other than complete, desperate hatred. “For such a strong demon, you are so pathetically weak. You couldn’t hold your own against your own creation… your creation’s creation, even. How can you dare to call yourself a king, an emperor?” He laughs again, grinding his adversary’s face further into the ground. “Now I’ll kill you, and make an example of you for the rest of the world to see. They’ll never cross me again… and this miserable world will belong to someone worthy of ruling it… me.“ 

Yami heard the faint electrical buzzing of a Lunarian sword, could see its glow even from the steep angle his head was forced into, and knew the end was drawing near. He shut his eyes, a few tears leaking from the creases. His last thoughts, as the sword swung through the air, was of his family.

Goodbye…

✦: my muse reaction to yours being terminally ill

“Wh… what?” His mind didn’t want to register what Waka had said, so he repeated himself, all the sorrow in the world reflected in his sapphire eyes.

“I’m dying, master… it was only a matter of time, you know that…”

“No…” Yami shook my head, fighting back against the tears which threatened to fall. “We’ll find a way around it– We’ll go to Amaterasu, or maybe I can find a way, make you into a demon like me, somehow. I won’t let you go.”

“Master…” Yami realized that he had closed his eyes without noticing, because suddenly his eyes were opening at the feeling of Waka’s hands on his cheeks, wiping away the tears that couldn't help but to fall. “Please don’t cry… I know you’ll find a way… either to keep me here or bring me back. I love you, and I trust you, more than anyone.”

How could he put so much trust in me? The very words from his mouth made Yami cry harder, and he pulled the Lunarian against himself, crushing his pet’s chest to his own. Through his tears, the Demon could see that what he was saying was indeed true– little strands of grey were beginning to pepper his lovely long blonde hair. He really was dying, then… his time on this earth was nearing its end. He had lived a good long life for a Lunarian… but that life was almost over. Now it was time to decide how selfish he wanted to be– If he wanted to sacrifice Waka’s happiness and pleasure for the pain of being a demon, or if he wanted to put both their lives on the line to approach the Gods themselves for assistance. 

“Whatever happens, I won’t lose you…” Yami managed to choke the words out through the lump in my throat. “No matter what, I promise. We live together and we leave together… there is no other option. I will not live out my life on this miserable plain without you by my side, Ushiwaka…”