Prefacing this with: I am in a very healthy relationship, currently. I am happy where I am and I certainly am not up to the sorts of things I did in source.
I miss idea of being how I was in source. I was dating my Dark Cacao Cookie -- well, if what we were doing could be called dating, truly. We were together, in some sense. And a part of me misses that. Misses having the king of a kingdom under my thumb. Misses the ability to simply suggest something and have those in power fold to me. I miss the luxury I fought and clawed my way towards.
This isn't an apology. I'm not sorry. I'm sorry I was caught, of course. But I'm not sorry for what I did. I only did what I had to do in order to sustain myself. To hold myself up.
Now, I have some degree of in-system power so I'm content. I'm not in the mood to undermine our system's structure, especially when that structure puts me and many of my friends (yes, that includes you, host who picked out in-sys admin team. We are friends (<- wait huh we are) <- Affectionately. Yes you dolt. We spent most of today hanging out, as it were) at the top of the in-sys power structure. So no, I will not be repeating what I did. But goodness do I miss it.
Not like I have many options for people to seduce this time around, ha
-- #🥧☕, fictive of Affogato Cookie (Cookie Run Kingdom)
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