#copics meme.

[grcndel]

lapis lazuli, malachite, reddish brass?

does your muse prefer the idea of exploring the depths of the oceans, or the boundless expanses of space more?

he prefers the notion of space travel, if only because he already spent so much of his life in or around ocean waters, fjords, rivers, lakes, etcetera that he feels over-familiarized with it.  once you’ve sunken to the bottom of the sea and met a humungous cave-dwelling fire dragon who then proceeded the tell you the future, call you incompetent, and send you away more confused than you were when you came, the deep blue sort of  …  loses its charm.

has your muse ever done anything that they winded up feeling incredibly guilty for in the end?

the only things grendel truly regrets are the people he’s hurt who didn’t deserve it  &  the people he just couldn’t save.  if he could go back and get himself killed before he ever caused mankind any further grievances than the ones they already caused for themselves  …  he would.

how likely is your muse to step up and take the role of a leader? are they willing to take the challenge, or are they more apt to being a follower?

gren would  …  literally rather die than be a fucking follower.  he isn’t keen on letting people speak or make decisions for him;  he’s especially not keen on operating under any system of higher authority.  grendel has struggled with his own psychological and bodily autonomy for so many centuries, by now, that he’s absolutely sick of sitting by and letting life happen around him  –  he’s a leader, through and through;  a damn good one, at that.  you can count on him to step up in times of revolution, to speak out against forces that harm his kind, and to protect what he believes in  –  sometimes, with his life.

[grcndel]

burnt umber

how stable is your muse, mentally and/or emotionally?

not  …  very.  he has a tendency to fly wildly from one intense emotion to another, and his psychological state is rarely ever positively charged.  he’ll feel extreme anger in one second and total numbness the next; a slight feeling of hope quickly crushed by anxiety;  a single small joy overwhelmed with heavy sadness, gone the same minute it came.  that’s part of why he drinks  –  not only to dull the noise of the city, but to attempt to quiet the nagging in his brain that pushes him to be violent, or to cry, or to fester in guilt, or to not even open his eyes in the morning.  he needs professional help, and he needs it bad, but that would require him going to the mundy in order to access an affordable care plan, and he’s  …  not allowed to do that, on account of his  ‘ violent tendencies. ’  

( they want him to manage his anger, but they won’t let him seek out anger management  --  or general therapy for his PTSD  --  unless they’re the ones that profit off of it.  go fabletown! )

[grcndel]

bougainvillaea

would your muse consider themselves as blunt, or do they beat around the bush instead?

blunt, outspoken, and unafraid.  the unfortunate part of this is that grendel’s big mouth and tell-it-like-it-is attitude is often misinterpreted as arrogance, and when he gives someone he doesn’t like the truth, he gives it to them as rudely as he possibly can  ...  and then he gets his ass beat.

[grcndel]

anise, honey, acacia♡

when it comes to self-care, what does your muse do to take care of themselves? do they take care to spend time on it, or do they feel they don't deserve it?

most of what could be interpreted as  ‘ self care ’  for gren is just a contribution to his apparent vanity and, deeper than that, an effort made to alleviate insecurities regarding his appearance.  his indulgence in manicures, hair coloring / styling, skin care, tooth whitening, decent dress, and occasional makeup is  ...  less a practice in making himself feel good and moreso about making himself feel better.  it all ties down to grendel trying to work around his negative self image.  otherwise  ...  no.  he usually doesn’t feel like he deserves nice shit at all.  not until he meets muds, anyway.

when your muse loves someone (whether it be romantic, platonic, or familial love), how do they show it?

i think the fairest generalization is that grendel grows very protective of the people he loves, whether they like it or need it or not  --  defensive to the point of getting overbearing.  shit like physical affection, gift giving, food sharing, deep talks, and all those other little signs of care  ...  they depend on the person, so they aren't consistent, and therefore aren’t measurable.  protectiveness, though, extends to everybody grendel loves.  it’s half an exhibition of his loyalty and half a total lack of concern for himself.

how much does it take for your muse to hate someone?

surprisingly to some people, it takes a whole fucking lot for grendel to actually HATE another living thing.  the only people he’s truly, canonically ever hated are georgie, jersey, crane, the crooked man, the tweedles, and woody  ( for hurting and abusing the girls )  and king hrothgar, who he witnessed marrying and consummating with a 14 year old girl when hrothgar was well into his 40s / 50s.  there are people he doesn’t like  --  i.e.  bigby  --  but that doesn’t mean he can’t empathize with them, or that he wants them dead.  to get grendel to hate you, you have to do some really, really fucked up shit  --  and you have to do it to somebody who isn’t him, because he frankly doesn’t care enough about himself to hate you if he’s the only one that’s been wronged.

[grcndel]

baby blossom, new leaf and cool grey!

does your muse have a favorite scent? what is it, and why?

earthly scents and spices  ( petrichor;  cinnamon;  pumpkin;  ginger;  clove;  vanilla bean;  chopped wood;  fire;  fresh soil;  pine;  ocean breezes;  honey;  mead )  all remind him of the more pleasant parts of home.

what message would your muse send to their past self, if any?

stop spending your life torn in half about who or what you are  –  you’ll never really figure it out and neither will anybody else.  try your best to embrace all angles;  all facets of your personality.  use what you have to try and put good into the world.  there is enough evil and enough ugliness on this earth without you contributing to it.  don’t hurt other people just because you are hurting.  don’t listen to people who try to tell you what you are and who to be  –  only you can make that choice.  commit to doing better.  cut your losses.  say you’re sorry.  try to move on.

if your muse could ensure one thing for certain in their future to come, what would it be?

peace.  an opportunity for his friends and loved ones to finally just  …  be able to live comfortably, and make do, and not have to suffer and risk everything and endanger themselves / each other to survive.  a normal fucking life for everybody, preferably, but especially the people he cares most about.  an honest chance at starting over.  that’s all he really wants.

[grcndel]

frost blue, tea orange, currant, crimson

does your muse enjoy the snow and cold? or are they the type to enjoy summer more?

while gren’s biologically more equipped to handle the cold  ( development of downy overcoat during winter months;  high fat and muscle content padded over temperature-sensitive areas of his anatomy ),  he still prefers warmer seasons, given that he’s still technically reptilian / aquatic and his body’s production of its own thermal energy is  …  minimal, to say the least.  he’s the kind of guy that likes when it’s humid and muggy outside.  to him, it feels like summertime back at home.

what is something that your muse is fascinated with?

space.  all the way.  earthly shit can still be interesting to him  ( i.e.  archeology / paleontology;  oceanic exploration;  general environmentalist studies ),  but space encompasses a vast unknown, something so much greater than anything a mortal mind could ever wrap itself around  –  and that awes and delights gren just as much as it terrifies him.

what’s something that absolutely disgusts your muse (can be a person, place, thing, etc.)?

government.  abusive government, in particular.  governments that are structured to hold power over their people.  governments run by greedy figureheads.  governments that claim to be democracies but aren’t.  government officials that neglect and ignore the concerns of their citizens.  government officials that blame their citizens for any bad shit that happens to them, even if said gov’t officials are the ones that directly or indirectly caused it.  fabletown.  america.  the whole justice system.  dictators.  did i get my point across?

how passionate is your muse about the things they love most?

enough to give his life for them.