#cozycottagediary

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okayyyy, I'm ready to come out of my ✨depressive episode✨ now!

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I feel so lost with tarot lately, I have no idea what to do. I want to 'do tarot,' but I feel like I've outgrown who I've been trying to be tarot-wise for the last few years...

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Officially done with my classes for the year! 🎉

Now, to take a quick breather and dive into tarot. 😊

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A Rundown of The (Usual) Vibes From Each Pile

Pile 1: Typically pretty easygoing. The messages always flow easy and for a minute I'm like 'Ah, I actually know what I'm doing'. Gives me false expectations that the other piles are going to be easy. ✨

Pile 2: Usually very fast-paced, cards flying everywhere. A little bit dramatic but the interpretation is still pretty easy. Often times makes me feel like I'm writing a story. 🎭

Pile 3: 🙄. Always gives me a hard time. I frequently abandon pacs or redo them completely by this point. (You guys) always kind of make me smile and roll my eyes though.

Pile 4: Often time this pile is a combo of the others... usually if I'm not sure if I should do a fourth pile or not. I feel like the interpretations/messages for pile 4 are usually pretty straightforward and can sometimes feel repetitive if I'm doing multiple 'questions'. I usually hope this pile vibes with the reading. 🙃

It's okay though, I love you all 💕

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Conflicted... I want to share what I've experienced and learned as well as how my thoughts have shifted regarding the whole 'your person' that's often eluded to in tarot readings (I've already written out the whole post) but at the same time if they ever see the post... then I feel like I'm outing myself in many different ways... 🙃

Idk... should I share it???

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Out of pure curiosity, do any of you guys bullet journal or creative journal in general?

Do you creative journal or bullet journal?

Yes!

No...

Voting ended onDec 28, 2024

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Life Updates

Processing life lately is harder than I thought 😅 (idk why I thought otherwise). I'm pretty much breaking down everything into sections, so if you want to peak into one part, be my guest!

Sections

My Break On Tumblr

On To New Adventures

The Disownment & Escape

Moving Forward

My Break On Tumblr

I've been feeling quite out of it the past few months. I haven't been happy with the pick-a-card readings I was making and realised I feel like the quality inevitably drops when I push myself to put out reading week after week without giving myself a break. I also didn't love that most of the pick-a-card readings I was posting had become Patreon-extended readings. It felt like I was pushing Patreon too much and that's the last thing I want! The intention of this blog has always been to be a fun endeavour to develop my tarot reading skills and connect with others (that's been the biggest highlight of having this blog).

Generally, I've been feeling out of sorts and slightly depressed too so I ended up taking a break from tarot (though I now feel ready to come back).

On To New Adventures

I started college! To be honest, I wasn't sure if I would ever go back but I decided to just go for it! I'm studying Fashion Media and it's been a rough start with everything in my personal life, but at the same time, I'm definitely looking forward to this new journey.

The Disownment & Escape

I don't think there are any trigger warnings here?

Honestly... I've written this part a few times. Ultimately, I've realised that the whole situation is affecting me way more deeply than I've wanted to admit. Long story short though-- I was staying at my dad's cause I needed medical treatment, wasn't willing to compromise or hide who I am (especially being neurodivergent which I can't control 🙄) or ignore my own spiritual beliefs, for that got disowned, didn't feel physically safe and needed to leave asap.

My sister was kind enough to buy me a plane ticket to leave immediately after the climax of the situation, but I still needed to be able to make it to the airport on my own-- hence asking for help here. With your help and many anxiety attacks later, I finally made it back to where I was living.

The whole ordeal has been difficult to wrap my head around...

However, I am insanely grateful that new and familiar people here were kind enough to help me out of the situation. Words can't begin to describe my gratitude; I hope I can pay it forward in the future! 💕

Moving Forward

I'm aiming to start back posting pick-a-card readings over the next few weeks on Tumblr. I'm also unpausing my Patreon so that will be available to join again. Hopefully, I can get around to doing a few blog games as well, but I do need to work out my schedule properly before I can fit that in. If you made it this far, thank you for reading and thank you for supporting and sticking with me!

Sending you love ❤️, Elle x

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It’s so interesting to see my relationship with tarot change, the topics I care about, my interpretations etc, as I go through different stages of my life…