#crazzzedope

[iantojack]

yo anon rbrn stan, just because something has gone on for a long time doesn't mean it's good. quantity doesn't guarantee quality. for example: supernatural, family guy, trump, pro-lifers, your existence

im just gonna post this,,

[sarcastictpotato]

LMAOOO i JUST WANT A TEXT BACKKKKKKKKKKKK

[aarondingle]

♥ ROBRON WEDDING COUNTDOWN ♥ ---> 8 days 

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Robron + a lazy afternoon in bed with their Jack Russell terrier, Roger.- @crazzzedope 

[martykirkby]

crazzzedope replied to your post: no like... i'm so excited for aaron to have...

is robert going to die soon? �� (pls pls)

ryan’s leaving!! so he might die (hopefully)but either way we’re rid of him

[dxringred]

crazzzedope replied to your post: i’m laughing at everyone in the tag praising...

these are the same ppl who think ryan deserves an oscar. clearly, this world’s logic doesn’t apply to them

To think I’d forgotten all about our Lord and Savior, 1000,000 time Oscar winner Ryan. How horrible am I?

[ooihcnoiwlerh]

crazzzedope

I'm sorry :(

Thank you, friend.  I talked it over with a couple of people; one of whom was my mother, and the other was an acting coach and a brilliant woman who has taught the likes of Samira Wiley, Chadwick Boseman, Phylicia Rashad, Corey Hawkins and Taraji P. Henson, and has taught quite a few people who got into Juilliard and who have done well under her tutelage.  I straight up ran into a student who was helping coordinate auditions who said he was from DC as well and went to Duke Ellington, at which point I said, “Ooooh!  Do you know professor Katz?” and we fangirled over her for about fifteen minutes and, because I was still shaking like a leaf after auditions, he gave me a hug before I left the building and was like, “Don’t worry.  Don’t assume you didn’t make callbacks, and even if you didn’t, you have a good base for being an actor.”

Part of it is, Juilliard was part of my big plan as an actor: get in, get my big break as an actor before I graduate (I’m baby-faced, but I’m still older, you see) but finish anyway, and be a brilliant working actor.

And I fucked up step one.  I didn’t get into Juilliard.

I have another audition for this semester for Carnegie Mellon, and after that for NYU Tisch School of the Arts.  I stand a pretty good chance of getting into both.  I’m broke af and so are my (senior citizen) parents, but provided that I’m admitted, I will probably get some sort of grant to both.  

I’d always dreamed I’d be admitted.  I wasn’t.  It’s still tough to process.  I know it’s not the final word, but I’d always treated it as such, even knowing most of the people with whom I’d audition would be people with far more training than I have.

So thank you.  I’m gobsmacked and, truth be told, devastated.  But I have to remind myself that this isn’t the end.