just another discovery
it’s not that i don’t feel that romantic feeling or butterflies in the stomach feeling. it’s just that i’ve been single since birth and i don’t feel the need of being in a romantic relationship. sure, i have my own crush, may it be a celebrity or an ordinary person, but it’s just that and usually, i detach from the romantic stuff and focus on what i like about the person (intelligence or talent/skill). i feel like if i delve into that i’m just forcing myself to actually participate in the idea. this generation has just been so open that i feel like i can feel whatever i want to feel and i can do whatever i want.
there are also things that i’ve been realizing at this point in time. well, actually, my mind’s been pondering on it for a long time but it’s just now that i stop and actually deal with it. i think i can imagine myself having a relationship with the same sex more than the opposite. i just feel like i can bond with them without the malicious thoughts from people which is why i think i can develop a deeper connection with them. idk, maybe it’s just me being me. also, most guys have been bros to me since i’m an engineering student so i’m so used to them being my that idk how to feel something different about them anymore. again, i still don’t know if it’s because no one has ever approached me or what.
so yeah, another long post exposing myself.
