#crows ramblings

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Applying for jobs feels so nerve wracking I can barely do it but Not applying for jobs feels also bad and Also doing anything other than laying down in front of the fan feels like I’m gonna turn into sweat

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Check out this cunty snoopy from a vintage cookbook I picked up

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I’m gonna be okay I just need some working antidepressants and a job and a little grey tabby cat and a karambit and a haircut and like upwards of $50k found on the ground with no strings attached and a therapist who understands me and a 25th hour of the day and a devoted team to work on the parts of my ideas that I am not skilled enough to do myself. And a large ice water for the lady

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Really bad intrusive thoughts keeping me up and a google search on how to deal with them comes up with like. Be mindful and label them :) don’t worry about their contents :) which is Easy To Say When You’re Some Quora Bastard And Not Me (The Suffering Guy)

But I log into tumblr and see that I gotta live long enough to see the cybertrucks start rusting… thank you tumblr for knowing that when loving is not enough, haterism will keep me alive

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Id love to hear the whole rant

(Asked in regards to my tags on this post)

This lil tirade is mostly inspired by my (White™) high school Japanese teacher, who I have a lot to say about, especially as a mixed race individual (part Japanese, part Minnesota White™). During one lesson about the history of Kyoto (iirc) he mentioned a red light district, because he was that sort of teacher, and mentioned that there were child sex workers, and that We Shouldn’t Judge Them For It Because It’s A Different Culture.

First off, this made me want to jump out of my seat and bite out his jugular, which I didn’t do, because I was a coward and a teenager and also because that’s not allowed usually. On further introspection, I realized that this impulse was likely because of the way that this statement treated the class— the assumption here was that the students in this classroom were cultural outsiders, and ignored the fact that many of the students there were mixed-race kids trying to reconnect with their heritage. Posts like this ring the same alarm bells because of the initial assumption that East Asian people are Others, and obviously Aren’t Gonna See This Post on our Normal Western Social Media.

Secondly, the whole concept of “cultural judgement” is a tricky subject, and I know for a fact that I don’t have a 100% correct vocabulary to work around it, and by the time anyone is reading this, I have reworked this post One Billion times to try and make it concise, so I hope it still makes sense.

The concept of what a "cultural outsider" is and is not allowed to judge is a strange line, and one I rarely see acknowledged by said outsiders (often white) unless there is Something Morally Icky involved. Another example from my old JP classes was that this same teacher would sometimes use natto as punishment for the losing team of a vocab game. Natto is often considered gross by anyone who didn't grow up eating it, and yeah, a lot of kids gagged and ran to the bathroom, and the lesson implied here is that Japanese people are kinda weird and eat strange and gross and exotic food. A judgement was passed. How come the issue of child sex labor was afforded the "no judgement allowed" sticker, while natto, a food that as far as I understand, is about as gross as some cheeses might be to the unfamiliar, is allowed to be the butt of a joke?

As far as I can tell, this is because being a cultural outsider gives one a snug little viewpoint from which they can perceive something new. This isn't necessarily a bad thing! How else can we learn about other people? But there is a difference between observation and fetishization. Fetishization occurs when the outsider observer allows themselves to put the "not my culture, I can't judge" sticker on the Morally Icky parts of something, which allows them to consider themselves distanced from the thing they are witnessing. And yet, for the most part, these people are allowing themselves to enjoy the positive parts of these same things.

I don't want to make this post longer, since it's already too much for my shitass swiss cheese memory to check for coherency, but there's so much here that I am mad about, and my rant here barely scratches the surface. It's not about the assumption that East Asians don't understand "moral purity" or "general ethics" (depending on who you talk to), or the implicit assumption that many of these artists are going to be unleashing hordes of Problematic Media on tumblr, or even the purity discourse itself. I just kind of wish that people treated other cultures (especially East Asian ones, because of the goddamn anime/k-pop-ification of an entire chunk of the globe) with respect, and that means applying concepts of morality and judgement the was that we do to our own cultures. If you don't like the food I like, that's fine, no matter which culture you're from and no matter what food it is. If you condone pedophilia? I'm allowed to apply judgement regardless of culture, and show you the goddamn door.

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All this catboy girlfriend puppygirl bullshit. Less common pet play varieties:

Betta gf (she just kinda hangs out and you feed her and tidy her space every so often and sometimes show her a mirror or a picture of another girl so she can beat it up)

Tarantula gf (you take her in public and many people start flipping their shit)

Pet rock gf (fleshlight)

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It says I can translate Japanese on my résumé so technically this is working on professional skills. Quick n dirty translation of some Sonic comics found in a Playstation+ magazine by someone on twitter, then posted to tumblr by @transparentlandcheesecake  (and put on my dash by @extreme-danger-bug). The other two comics are gonna happen after I do some actual real work things.

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They say men think with their penis, but women? Women think with their cock