YES it's like you don't quite know WHO you are, you're just a person, and you just don't know what is you and what isn't, like a favorite color is IMPOSSIBLE
I actually have a favorite color, it’s green, I love green. I really only feel detached from the qualities of me that are prescribed. I feel detached from my appearance, my gender, my age, my name, my nationality, my familial attachments, because all of those qualities of me are prescribed. I did not chose them. Therefore they do not feel like they are truly a part of me.The qualities of myself that I *do* get to chose I do not feel detached from. It’s always so strange to me when people are trying to get to know you they ask those basic questions like “How old are you? Where were you born? What’s your name? What’s your family like?”Because like none of that is really me. None of that is what a person really is. Why are you focusing on that? That’s not real human essence. I feel so detached from those prescribed qualities that I feel uncomfortable when I’m confronted with them.I feel uncomfortable when I look in the mirror or even just when I look at my hands. I feel uncomfortable when someone calls me by my name. I feel uncomfortable when someone uses “she” to refer to me.Because that’s not me. If I didn’t chose it, then it’s not a real quality of me.
