I decided to give y'all another piece of Cupid!Buck - just after Shannon's death. This one is scary to release for reasons I won't dive into on a public space, but this is a step forward for me with this universe. So...here we go:
“I am sorry, Chris.” Buck whispers into the quiet room. “I’m so sorry.”
He reaches out into the anguish that surrounds the young boy, tries to claw through it and reach the child-sized heart in the middle.
Buck’s stomach rolls with nausea as he fights through it. Tries to find a crack or fissure that’ll allow him through. But he can’t. He’s met with wall after wall, forced back onto his metaphorical knees.
Tears slide down his cheeks as he tries a different route. He tries to absorb the pain in Christopher’s heart. It’s riskier and can have a horrible impact on him, but Buck is willing to shoulder it if it means helping one of his Diaz boys.
He can feel the weight of the grief, the love Chris held and will always hold for his mother, but it slides off of Buck’s shoulders. It bounces off of his skin. His heart is heavy, but not because of anyone’s anguish except his own.
Pulling away, Buck stumbles to his feet and back from the bed, arms wrapping around his middle as he gasps for air. The world spins for one terrifying moment, and he fears that Chris will wake up to find Buck passed out in the middle of his bedroom.
He pushed himself too hard.
The world settles, and after making sure that Chris is still fast asleep, Buck slips out of the room. A brief check on Eddie confirms he’s out like his son, and then Buck heads for the kitchen. Closing the door behind him offers a little bit of privacy before he digs out his phone with shaking hands.
He crosses the room to the backdoor as he dials, resting his head on the cool glass while the call rings in his ear.
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