#cynicalspore

[kagomesenpai]

Hi

[kagomesenpai]

Just something from my journal.

[kagomesenpai]

Sometimes I feel like Tumblr is my only escape. I'm not too addicted anymore but whenever I need to vent, this is the place. I don't think I have many people I actually know on here but at least when I post to vent, no one really tries to get in touch with me so I guess that's good. There's something that's always been in me. The fact that I like women. I've always known that, even looking back on my childhood. I can recall things I did differently. I don't know why I beat myself up about this sometimes. It's not like anyone has really been negative to me about it, not that I would care to begin with but still. It's been bothering me more than lately now and I have no idea why. My life isn't bad at all, except not being able to find a job. Everything is going well. I guess sometimes I also don't feel comfortable in my own skin. I feel like I'm not who I am...but I also am who I am. I'm so confused within myself that it's getting to me when I'm alone with my thoughts. I'm not sure what to do or if there's anything that needs to be done.

[kagomesenpai]

Why?

Why do I have so much love for someone who won't ever love me even half as much back? I don't get it. I try to talk to you as much as I can....and sometimes, you never respond...but when you have a problem I'm right there for you....like I've always been. Every picture you've posted about us or ever status...it's always deleted...and for what? If it was someone else, it would be different? What did I do? All I've ever fucking done is love you. Maybe...just fucking maybe I love you too much. I should back off. I need to just let you go...maybe then you'll realize what you've done to me... but probably not.

[kagomesenpai]

Diablo PC friendship!

If you play Diablo for PC...hmu! I need more people to play with!