When the Lomenelda-Faeth kid is born, Hallariel is overjoyed. She runs around the house, nervous, excited, but without ever letting go of her kid, why would she wanna be apart from them?
Fabian start sleeping in Mordred Manor, says that having to hear her get up for the feedings a couple of times per night is annoying. He doesn't say its hurtful, he doesn't say he knows she was never excited about him, he doesnt say he's jelaous of a baby. He doesn't say any of that because its ridiculous, embarrasing and nobody would understand.
When the Lomenelda-Faeth kid is born, Gilear is proud. It's hard to hold a conversation with him without him remarking the last new thing his baby did. Rolling over, crawilng around, babbling something that barely sounds like 'dad'. He buys a crystal with a better camera and memory to store all the new pictures he has to take to remember every moment of this wonderful new life.
Fig starts acting up. She smokes more, does harder drugs (not drinking, she's straight edge), she disguises herself and ruins the life of a few people. It's not like Gilear is gonna be disappointed, its not like he was ever proud. She can't admit to herself that she's jelous of a baby. It's ridiculous, embarrasing and nobody would understand.
And maybe there's just one night, when they're stuck with babysitting, where they sit on the floor and watch the little thing sleeping in their cradle. They lay on eachother and the tears come ever so quietly, ever so bitter. Bitter because they weren't enough, were they?
