❝ i don't hate myself
❝ i remember when i felt anxious when i was young the night that i spend awaken, feeling frightened wish i could tell myself at that time that i was already doing well @daewonfmd
minhee is generally very calm backstage, especially end of year award shows. they have become a bit obvious in his opinion, with polaris managing to reach newer and higher achievements with every year, its almost boring when you know what to expect. he was happy about it, how couldn't he be? it was what any idol would want, something leaning towards eternal glory at this point. however, not every was always happy for some people's success and it really didn't suit them if you asked minhee.
"you know, glaring at me won't change a single thing. if anything, it also looks bad on you." minhee says eventually, looking away from the ceiling and straight at daewon, brow raised. it's annoying, bothersome as well, that someone much older and more experienced than him was holding such a.. a childish grunge against him. about things he didn't have any control off. it was sad, to an extend, at least in the polaris's members eyes, maybe the look he was giving the other was more than enough to tell.
they have barely spoken, daewon usually didn't spare more than a simple hello, a greeting of a few words at most and minhee never batted an eye at it. sure, he could tell there was something.. some personal grudge, because duri liked him just fine. he never pushed, never asked, but he thinks if he has to handle these types of looks for the next month, because titan and polaris overlap on end of year shows, he might not keep his thoughts to himself.
not that he is right now, but he couldn't care less. it feels like its been years since he has been getting the cold shoulder without a reason. there was nothing minhee had to apologize for, he wasn't acting like a high schooler.