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finally put my artfight into my pinned post. wahoo 🎉

#daitex.t #artfight #I think this will be the year I finally get attacks out. I'm in a confident and comfortable spot with my art #and my life has gotten a lot better in the last couple years #I'd like to try and get a minimum of 3 attacks out. it's not a lot BUT it's something. the effort is what counts :]

posts about disability always have a decent chance of pissing me off to the point I want to go into a blind rage. it usually comes down to the phrasing

I like the post I just reblogged because yeah, those are all things that disabled people can and do struggle with. but it also fills me with immeasurable anger because it's phrased as 'what if'. what if this. what if that. what if these things could happen, what if someone couldn't experience these parts of being alive. and I sit there holding back the iciest 'yeah, what if' in the world

because it's not a fucking 'what if', it's MY LIFE. I'm home all the time and I can't do things like others can and I miss out on stuff constantly and being lonely and frustrated and stressed is my norm. I have POTS and long covid and the list of shit I deal with daily is miserable. I hate it being phrased as 'what if' because it sounds like someone considers all that to be scary. I hate 'what if' because it sounds like someone just doesn't know that that stuff happens, that it's real and people all around the world deal with struggles like that all

and then someone in the tags equates it to autism and I just 💥

#daitex.t #the mystery illness #that's all the tags this one gets fuck you

I've been trying to figure out how to put this for literal hours and I've decided, actually, that I'm gonna wordvomit it

TLDR, realizing the aplatonicism goes deeper than I thought it did. not by too much in the grand scheme of things, I think, but still. level 3 is different than level 1

it's like. alright so my aplatonic (and loveless) experience is already different in comparison to things I've seen other apl and loveless people say. I grew up using 'friend' and 'love' to describe so many things that I don't have a problem with using those terms

with 'love'. if I say I love someone, I'm referring to a set list of criteria:

trust; I trust and feel safe around the other person

care; the other person is important to me in some capacity

respect; I respect the other person because they respect me

routine; the other person is someone I consistently talk to

anybody I'm close with knows I define love like this when saying it to a person. I also don't have a problem with people I'm close with saying they love me in turn

things get all sorts of weird with people that I don't consider close to me though. it generally boils down to 'this person is someone I'm familiar with'. with those people, it feels weird to call them a friend or be called a friend by them unless I've thought at some point 'I think being friends with this person wouldn't be so bad'. but like- I'm not opposed to their company. they're just someone that's more than an acquaintance but not a friend.

I've noticed calling someone a friend is exceptionally difficult if I was friends with the person prior, then something happened where we stopped being friends, and now the person is back in my life. if I even TRY to think of those people as friends I feel like I'm gonna throw up

and basically, fucking. this post is about this: the other day one of those familiar-people was doing something a little stupid, and I just! I outright said 'hey I don't consider you a friend due to aplatonic stuff, but I do care about you. don't be an idiot'. this went over very well (which kinda surprised me)

but now I'm like. kinda miffed? that I don't have a term to call familiar-people. friend isn't right at all, acquaintance sounds too fancy and takes a bit to type correctly, familiar-people is something I made up on the spot right now. and I have absolutely no idea where I would even BEGIN when it comes to trying to make a term for that. I think about mechanics regarding things!!!! I'm not a terms guy!!!!!!! at most I think the term having connections to 'radar' (like. being on one's radar?) would be nice

AND BASICALLY THIS SUCKS. CAN I JUST FIND A TERM THAT WORKS FOR ME

#daitex.t #aplatonicism #actually aplatonic

THEY TURNED UZI INTO A SYSTEM AT THE END???? WE STAY WINNING

(rambling about this more in the tags; blatant spoilers)

#daitex.t #murder drones #murder drones spoilers #murder drones episode 8 #is that the takeaway from the post credits scene? no. is it what I'm getting from it? yes :]#especially because like. all the stuff that happened in every episode? incredibly traumatic #it honest to god would make sense #I've seen people commenting on the illusion stuff and I'll be real I think it's just the solver's way of getting uzi's attention #uzi checks the hallway and sees nobody in it. the solver flickers in the mirror right after she looks back #and yes she looks extremely tired but after all that? the solver should cause her to react in some way (yelping or something)#instead she's silent. with the way her expression changes it gives the impression this isn't the first time this has happened #(with ''this'' being ''the solver talking to her when they're alone'')#her only reaction is AFTER the solver tilts its head/tail at her in search of an answer to its question. and all she does is slam the door #given the conversations we sometimes have in this brain. yeah that's how it goes sometimes #it also just seems tiring to keep something as big as THE SOLVER STILL BEING ABLE TO TALK a secret/on the down low #v already nearly blew a hole in her chest just seeing uzi's eyes. better to not talk about it #anyways yeah

why is

there's a picture of magolor showing up when I tap in and out of a notification on my phone? like a super brief overlay

huh? what

#daitex.t #I'm so confused

immediately following the release of end-world normopathy, I went to go look at the description for qualia automata on the team 6x111 carrd and

""It's not a nightmare, just some nonsense." Tamari, a prototype android powered by AI, longs to prove their humanity to their creator, Dr. ███████ ██████, and a ██████ █████████, ███████. When Tamari goes missing without explanation, ███████ is faced with the nature of ██████, humanity, and reality itself as they search to understand their ███████'s antics." at least half of these blanks can be filled now, which I managed to piece together with a couple lines from the song as well as the description

""It's not a nightmare, just some nonsense." Tamari, a prototype android powered by AI, longs to prove their humanity to their creator, Dr. Fayrouz ██████, and a second automaton, Mariyam. When Tamari goes missing without explanation, Mariyam is faced with the nature of ██████, humanity, and reality itself as they search to understand their brother's antics."

or at least this is what I'm 90% sure it says, which I think is very neat. as for what remains, they're both six letters long; my guess is that either both are Fayrouz's last name, or the first one is Fayrouz's last name and the second is something we still don't know yet and will get revealed later

EDIT: the carrd has been updated with the blanks filled in!

I was off my mark with "automaton" and "brother" (it was "sibling", which as someone mentioned to me in the replies, also has 7 letters and Tamari is typically referred to with they/them), though the words I used do roughly mean the same thing as the actual thing

we now have fayrouz's last name, khalid, and the last word I had no idea about was "family". awesome!

#ghostandpals #ghost and pals #qualia automata #reckless battery burns #tamari #end-world normopathy #team 6x111 #I could be entirely of my goddamn mark here tbh #I think it's fun to theorize about lore things though and I really like the... build-up? close enough word. that we have going #it's very interesting and learning more is fun :P #daitex.t #post-learning edit: god this was fun to think about honestly. I do really like word puzzles

got an idea for art stuff and for the first time in a while I'm EXTREMELY excited to spend days working on it

#daitex.t #thank you funny god game

having an about me that we actually keep up with would be a good idea. SO!

mirage ※ they/them or he/him ※ adult (21+) ※ nonbinary and agender ※ loveless and semi-aplatonic

disabled ※ p-did system ※ ADHD, suspected ASPD and PPD

sometimes we draw; you can find it under #daitex's daipictions or #bgang art I'm also on artfight. only attack me if you're okay with me likely not doing a revenge

don't really have a DNI anymore, we block liberally. generally don't be a dick and you'll probably be fine? people who use AI for stuff can fuck off though, and if you like h*rry p*tter then our blog is absolutely not for you

as for BYF we like bugs and body horror/gore/similar (it's tagged) and while we reblog the occasional lightly NSFW post or joke, that's about as NSFW as it gets

and uhhh. some of my interests under the cut (if we're mutuals feel free to tag me in posts relating to these things)

#daitex.t #bgang #kept not updating the carrd and the information's incredibly outdated #so I decided 'fuck it just redo the damn intro'#the carrd's still up since I love WF but. yeah 👍