Hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have {Kim Namjoon}
So, hello! Me again. Trying something that would be good if I write. In my life things get changed and this is why I do write something like this. And yeah while I was writing this I was listening Lana Del Rey. Hope you guys like it. Love ya~♡
While lying on your bed you were thinking about your life, your chaotic life.
You did bad things to your boyfriend Namjoon who is you feel nothing for him anymore. You were lying him and you still are lying but not doing it on purpose.
Maybe they hate you for doing that to Namjoon but you have reasons for it. You love him but not for being your boyfriend, for being your friend or maybe you're not anymore. Actually at first you guys should have never talked. Because when you hadn't started to talk with him you weren't broken up with your, now, ex boyfriend.
You have no doubt about it though and you are scared of yourself because of it. You are so cold blooded and it's not a good thing at all, you guess.
You have no feelings for anyone and anything that you can't understand it or maybe you get bored fastly. Your feelings are like death and you are heartbreaker.
You don't want to broke anyone's heart though because of your feelings but you have nothing but doing it.
"Baby, I'm sorry for being that bad and lier but I have nothing for you and it kills me everytime when we talk. I don't want to trick you or upset you. I want you to be happy and I know that you can't be happy with me. I'm bad and I will hurt you everytime I lie to you while you don't know what is going on in your life."
You said to yourself.
You did bad things that you weren't knowing that you could going to regret it. But it happened and we can't turn back time everytime we did mistakes. You wish you would though.
"Sorry for being rude to you. you don't deserve this. You deserve better than this. you deserve better people not me."
You will going to say this to Namjoon when you guys meet for the last time...