Hello! Could you possibly write a Phan x reader (polyamorous relationship cause I rarely see it) and the reader is depressed and kinda suicidal so Dan and Phil just take care of them all day. Like tell them why they're amazing (cute sticky notes idk whatever is fine) and take them out and just make em happy and feel worthy. Very fluffy! You don't have to write this if it's too triggering and/or if you're against polyamory. I'm just sad and this stuff always makes me happy. Chao!❤
Requested by anon:
Could you pleeaasee write an imagine where Dan and Y/n have a cute date night at home with dinner, movies and cuddling, etc and then they put music on and 'Perfect' by Ed Sheeran comes on and they slow dance in the living room and with their foreheads pressed together and just really fluffy stuff then Dan says everything he loves about Y/n and he proposes at the end of the song?? Sorry that it's so specific! thank you! <3
I let out a big sigh as I continued to apathetically browse Tumblr on my laptop, not really even enjoying what I was doing. I was just trying to distract myself not to dwell on my negative thoughts.
I stirred in my bed, lying in a different position, and feebly kept on scrolling through my dashboard. I couldn’t wait to go to sleep.
Then a knock came on the door, surprising me. Even though, honestly, I should have expected them to check on me. Truth was, I had almost forgotten I lived with Dan and Phil.
“Come in” I replied tiredly, sitting up slightly to look at the door.
“Hey, Y/N” Phil stuck his head and stared at me.
I noticed how he frowned when he saw me, his eyes filling with concern.
“Hi, Phil”
“You alright?” He asked me, trying to keep an upbeat tone in his voice.
With a sigh, I put the laptop away and properly sat up. Phil cautiously walked into the room when he noticed this.
Since I wasn’t really saying anything else, he sat down in the bed with me.
“We haven’t really seen you for like two days other than bumping into you on your way to the bathroom or something” His beautiful blue eyes pierced me worriedly.
“I have been feeling… well, pretty depressed” I was so tired that I didn’t really care telling him the truth. I just wanted to feel better.
I could read the genuine sadness in Phil’s eyes in response to my words, but he still kept a cheerful attitude when he replied.
“Why hadn’t you said something? You know we’re here for you” His hand tenderly rubbed my upper arm in a fond gesture.
I just shrugged, not really knowing the answer. When I was like that, I was pretty lost and didn’t really know how I felt. I was just so dull and passive.
“Well, we’re gonna get you to smile, you’ll see” Risking it a bit, he leaned forward and kissed me in the cheek. “Dan!!”
As he called out to the house, hoping to receive an answer, he stood up from the bed and offered me a hand. I felt too lazy and couldn’t be bothered to get out of bed.
“Yeah?” Finally, it came Dan’s voice from somewhere in the house.
“Y/N is sad!” Phil replied loudly, so he could hear him. “Come here and help me put a smile on this cute little face!”
I rolled my eyes at his attempts, still finding them endearing. Phil was also so bright and so nice, it warmed my heart.
“Wot?!” Dan exclaimed in outrage, and we could hear him racing toward us.
Phil chuckled at his endearing gesture while I waited for the inevitable.
When Dan arrived to our room he was gasping for air as he had run so fast, the goofball. I would have smiled if it weren’t for that mood I was rendered in because of my stupid depression.
“You’re sad?! I thought you were being lazy and wanting to be alone with your movies and stuff” He sighed, not too happy about such discovery. “Is your depression acting up again?”
“Yeah…”
“Why didn’t you say something?”
“I don’t know…”
The two of them were there, watching me worriedly, and they were so determined to help me. It was so sweet, but I couldn’t expect less dating them both.
“Wanna go play videogame or something?” Phil offered with a kind smile.
“I guess…” I shrugged again, not truly feeling like it but knowing it would do me some good.
Besides, Dan and Phil always managed to cheer me up. I never understood how they did it, but after spending a few hours with them I felt so much better. They made me so happy.
I guessed I was too focused in my own negativity to remember. Or to even think about going for them for help.
“Let’s go!” Dan took me by the arm and somehow pushed me onto his shoulder.
“Dan!” I complained as he carried me outside the room.
“Be careful!” Phil yelped in a high-pitched voice, stretching his arms out just in case I fell, prepared to catch me.
*
They tried distracting me with videogames, movies and anime, but it didn’t quite work. I couldn’t really focus enough to enjoy any of those activities.
Using it as a last resort, we were watching Friends, knowing how great that show was. It always filled you with great vibes and made you laugh. Good enough, I guess.
The three of us were cuddling in the couch, me being in the middle so I was in the receiving end of both their cuddles. Phil comfortably rested his head on my shoulder and cupped my hand with his, a gesture that surely meant to reassure me by giving me some affection. Dan copied him as well, taking my other hand and intertwining our fingers together.
We laughed a little when, in the TV, Joey pushed Ross into the refrigerator and blamed him of breaking it. That show was so light-hearted and funny that it somehow managed to raise my spirits a little.
Feeling comfortable and slightly better, I leaned into Dan and rested my head on his chest. Phil didn’t lose time to wrap his arms around me and fondly nuzzle my neck as Dan placed an arm around me.
We didn’t speak as we watched TV, we didn’t need to. We were comfortable, and for the first time in days it was finally starting to feel like I could allow myself to smile a little. Because I was content right there and then with them.
All of a sudden, Dan suddenly gasped. I could hear his heart speeding up a little since my ear still rested over his chest.
“Have you eaten anything today?” When I looked up at him, I noticed how he stared at me gravely, eyebrows knitted in concern.
“Y/N, please tell me you have” Phil separated himself from me, but his hand refused to leave mine.
“N-Not really…” I admitted in a whisper, ashamed to confess it.
It was just that when I felt like that it was so hard to accomplish simple tasks as such. Eating, drinking water, showering… all those things felt like a world to me when all I had the energy for was lying down in bed.
Not to mention that my upset stomach wouldn’t really accept food.
Gently sitting up so I wouldn’t fall without his support, Dan then stood up. He dedicated me a determined glance as he pointed his finger at me.
“Phil, you spoil the fuck out of Y/N” He told us in his jokingly important voice. “And I’m gonna make dinner!”
“Dan, you don’t have to” They were definitely spoiling me, actually cooking for me.
“I’m gonna!” He was already on his way to the kitchen.
Knowing him, he would also make my favorite meal even if it took him forever.
While Dan was gone, I looked at Phil. His kind blue eyes were piercing me lovingly, it made me think of how much they both adored me. Perhaps if I was worth their love, I couldn’t be that much of a mess as I thought to be.
I managed to smile a little, warmed by the idea that they were trying so hard to cheer me up, to take care of me and remind me how much they loved me.
To do anything in their power to make sure to look after me when I didn’t look after myself, to distract me and be there for me. That alone meant the world to me.
“You already know this, but…” Phil mumbled, eyeing me carefully as though what he was about to say was delicate. “You can always talk to us, if you need to vent or cheering up or anything”
“I know, Philly” Endeared by his further efforts, I held his face and pecked his cheek amorously. “Thanks”
He then displayed a cute smile, even if his pale cheeks had turned a light rose tone. It was adorable when he blushed.
“Want a marshmallow?” Phil suddenly said to avoid embarrassment and to divert my attention from his blushing.
To my surprise, that precious boy pulled out a small bag of marshmallows from his pocket as though he carried it with him at all times. I always knew he had a sweet tooth, but that was ridiculous!
“Phil…” I laughed, shaking my head at the silly scene.
He then let out a strange noise, a mixture between a shocked gasp and a happy high-pitched squeak.
“Dan!” He was overreacting, but it was great seeing how he celebrated my improvements. “Y/N smiled! She’s laughing!”
“Wot?!” A yell came from the kitchen, and we soon heard feet stomping as his enormous stature ran across the house to get back to us again.
Seconds later, he stood at the door of the room, watching us with a twinkle of joy shining in his brown eyes.
“Mission accomplished!” Phil jumped to his feet and high-fived him.
Even if they missed and made a fool out of themselves. I couldn’t tell if that was deliberate or not.
“Does that mean you’re gonna stop being nerds?” I affectionately asked them, trying to convey my gratitude.
“No!” Phil replied in his outraged high-pitched voice.
“It is still our duty to spill you to the maximum!” Dan took my hand and gently pulled at it until I was standing up from the couch. “Come here!”
“I’ll keep cooking, be right back!” Before he left, Phil kissed me in the cheek.
Gallantly, Dan placed an arm around me and took my hand and began to slow dance with me.
“Thanks, Danny” I gladly snuggled closer to him, hiding my face on his shoulder and enjoying the warm closeness.
“Don’t mention it, Y/N” He left a tender kiss on my forehead that made me giddy.
*
Having eaten, hydrated myself and being spoiled, it felt livelier. Dan and Phil’s cares had greatly improved my mood and seemingly belittled my worries and insecurities. They were still there, but with those two boys around they didn’t seem as important anymore.
Somehow I ended up lying in the couch, with my head resting on Dan’s lap as he tenderly caressed my hair and with my legs up on Phil’s as he absently tapped his fingers against them.
Thanks to them, I was experiencing a comforting calm and peacefulness that I hadn’t in days. My anxiety used to drive me crazy with distressing thoughts and this feeling of being unable to breathe. But right then I sighed happily.
“You know what you could use now?” Phil mumbled, his eyes directed to yet another episode of Friends in the TV. “Some fresh air”
“Very fresh air, actually” I replied jokingly. “We live in London”
Dan and Phil exchanged a hopeful glance because of my little joke. Those two nerds, being so happy that I felt in the mood to make a joke.
“You’re right” I mumbled as I lazily stood up. “But just a little walk, I’m kinda tired”
“Yeah, just enough to get you some fresh air!”
“Or some direct sunlight” Dan teased us, knowing it would be cloudy.
I briefly gave them a kiss before I went to get ready.
As I walked to my room, I noticed there was something in my door that wasn’t usually there. A small green sticky note with Phil’s messy handwriting.
Curious, I picked it up and read it.
‘Hi, Y/N! Get ready to read the things we love about you…’ I turned around the small note to read what was in the back. ‘I wanted to tell you in person, but Dan knew you would be all flustered so…’
That comment earned a chuckle from me, because I realized they were right. I would feel overwhelmed and stupid if they rambled about those things in person. But it was an adorable idea, and one that definitely made me feel better.
I opened the door and let out a small laugh when I noticed there were sticky notes all over my bedroom. Dan and Phil must have sneaked in when they were ‘making dinner’.
The closest one to me was on my bedside table, a blue sticky note with the number 1 scribbled on it with Dan’s handwriting. I picked it up and turned it around to read the first compliment.
‘Your amazing smile! Are you kidding me? That bright, genuine wonderful smile that can bring world peace! *heart eyes*’
I was very glad that they decided this method instead, because I would never see the end of it if they were telling me all those things to my face. I would blush so hard that their teasing would end me.
In the headboard of my bed there was a yellow one that read ‘Number 2. Your eyes are so warm and friendly and beautiful!’ with Phil’s handwriting.
The number 3 was written by Dan, stuck on my desk, and it said ‘I swear, Y/N, the sound of your laughter is so pure and precious that it purifies the darkness of my soul’ in an orange sticky note that made me laugh.
As I got changed, I kept on reading these cute little notes. And feeling happy and blessed with each one.
*
They were waiting for me out of my room, already dressed and ready to go out. They were so lovely, it was so heartwarming all they were doing for me that day. And always.
“Ready?” Dan asked me with a warm smile plastered in his lips.
There were hidden mischievous smile on both their faces as they tried to pretend like they didn’t fill my room with adorable little notes.
I nodded and hugged them both tightly. I lingered on the embrace for quite a while before we left the apartment, feeling lucky that I had those two wonderful boys that I could call boyfriends and that would always be there to cheer me up. To make me smile.
Surprise! - Dan Howell
Looking down at your day planner you were hit with what felt a large wave of emotion. For the first time in the two years, you were with Dan, you would be separated from each other. He was going on tour in America, and to not “let you lose any more clients” he had decided to leave you in the UK. It felt weird, you had been at every show, book signing, and had either been at or conducted the photo shoots. So many times he claimed that you were his good luck charm, but sometimes the charm needs to stay behind. You looked up at the clock, 11:45 pm. You knew if you didn’t head to bed soon that you wouldn’t sleep at all. Having to get up at 2:00 am so you could see the boys off, was going to be hard if you hadn’t slept. Getting up from the table you cleaned up what remained from dinner, just a few plates that you loaded into the dishwasher. Starting it you walked out of the kitchen, entering Dan’s room. Removing your hoodie, you had on a tour tank-top and a pair of leggings. Sliding into the bed you were meet with the warm embrace of Dan’s arm.
*******************
The alarm went off waking you up, hitting the off button you looked at the time, 1:30 am. Pushing the covers off of you and waking Dan up a bit. “Mmrph” was all you could get for a response.
“Good morning to you too darling.” You sarcastically say standing up and walking into the kitchen making sure to put your arms out so the glass door wouldn’t attack you, or as everyone likes to say “Morning Glass”. Reaching up into the cupboard, you take down a cup, filling it with your best friend, coffee. Hearing movement around the apartment, you weren’t too sure if it was Dan, Phil or Syler, Phil’s girlfriend who you had become good friends with thanks to the tight spacing of the apartment. You could hear the sound of someone turn on the TV in the living room, so you knew Phil was up and moving. Picking up the coffee mug you had just filled, you walk out to the living room to sit on the end of the couch putting your feet up along with Phil. As if on cue, right as you were sitting down on the couch, a familiar smack and groan of someone hitting the glass door. Looking over at Phil you both giggled wondering who was the victim this morning, you could still hear the groaning and cursing coming from the kitchen as Syler bounced into the room, strangely wide awake. Which left only one other person in the apartment to be getting hit in the head.
“Good Morning Syler,” You smile your voice still sounding tired.
“Morning,” She smiles back sitting on the footrest across from Phil.
“Motherfuckin’ glass door!” Dan screaming as the sound of the door echoed in the whole apartment. You look through the door, seeing as you didn’t shut it behind you to see if Dan was actually okay. Taking a drink of your coffee you figure he’s okay.
“Dan, that’s a quarter in the (Y/N)’s swear jar,” Syler jokingly stated as he walked in. Dressed in black pants and his signature black tee with a white ring in the middle, he smirked at you, getting closer. He leaned down kissing you, pulling back he flipped off Phil and Syler.
“Never!” He smiled and ran out of the room, “But, why me? I didn’t do anything, Dan?” Phil’s voice echoed in the apartment as he yelled to Dan.
“You happened to be next to her, wasn’t directed towards you.” Dan;s voice came back, as you set your coffee down on the end table you can see him as he runs back in the door. This time looking like it could have actually done some damage you get up and walk to him. Smirking, he turns around to tickle you, causing you to run away from him. Finally, he catches up to you, falling onto the couch as you both giggle.
“Now it’s double, you maybe your bed now pay up,” you giggle smiling at him
“(Y/N), you do realize we don’t even have a jar for it. You have all the jars full of coins, water, paint, paper, and all sorts of things. But, not a swear jar.” He giggles pushing your (H/C) behind your head and kissing you.
“Okay you two love birds, we actually have to get going so Dan you need to go pack,” Phil said standing up shaking his head. Dan nodded in response, picking you up and carrying you to his room. Once in his room, he sets you down on the bed and proceeds to set up his cameras.
“Dan, are you sure you have the time for this?” You look at your alarm clock, he turns and looks into you (E/C) eyes smiling.
“If someone hadn’t wasted time this morning I would have had time for something else,” He winks, “But, a video will have to do so.”
“Fine, you go film and I’ll pack your bags deal?” He nods and leaves the room heading up to the office. Phil walks in shortly after, to talk to Dan.
“Hey, Da- where’s Dan?”
“He went upstairs to make a video before he leaves, so I’m packing his bags. Did you need something packed with or just want to talk to him?”
“Just wanted to make sure that someone was packing his stuff if he wasn’t.” Phil smiled, walking back out and shutting the door. After what felt like hours Dan returned with a USB in hand, wanting to question it but knowing there was no time you just smiled at him. Finishing up packing you walked over to him as he sat on the bed editing with headphones. Almost as if he was hiding something he slammed his computer shut when he saw you coming over.
“Dan, it’s time to head out.” You smile at him and lean down kissing him.
“Phil, just texted me that the cab is here so…” Dan stood up and hugged you holding your hand he pulled back. “I’m the luckiest man alive and I hope you know that when I say I love you I mean it.” He kisses your hand. Turning around and pulling away you pick up his bags taking them out to the landing.
“I do Howell, I do” You turn to look at him before exiting the room. Walking out you can hear Syler and Phil saying goodbye. As you hit the landing you see Phil heading for the door, Dan walks past you taking the bags. He then sets them down quickly.
“Almost forgot, wait until I text but when I do, watch this okay?” He smiles and hands you a flash drive, kissing my lips he turns and heads out the door. About an hour later your phone goes off ‘go watch the USB’
Turning on your computer, you plugged in the USB. Opening the folder the only file says ‘(Y/N), Watch this please.’ Clicking on the file, a video pops up and starts to play.
“(Y/N), No matter how many miles away we are, I will always love you. And as I speak you are currently downstairs in my room packing my stuff for my tour. How you deal with me and my procrastination. I will never understand, you probably think that I’m recording a video for the fans, but this is for you. You can post it on your channel if you please or you can keep it private. But, over the course of the past two years, you have to be blessed with an extremely cute accent from living here and we have shared so many pictures and have so many videos provided by our friends or one of us filming the other being silly that I have decided to put them all together and with our further ado I present to you the last two years of (Your Ship name). I love you baby, and I’ll call you as soon as I land in America, I love you. See you in a few months. “ After his voice fades you begin to get tears in your eyes as photos and videos from when you first met him to two weeks ago when he proposed and then some, began to show in front of you face. Inside you know this was the best surprise he could have given you.
WARNING: Pretty damn fluffy and cuteness overload, you’ve been warned! ;)
The silence was killing me. But what was even worse than the torture of the emptiness that filled the room was the fact that Y/N’s eyes wouldn’t leave me.
For fuck’s safe, I was probably blushing like a teenage girl!
“Can you stop staring at me?” After a long pause, I finally gathered up the courage to speak up.
I cautiously glanced at her and saw something that warmed my heart and deeply embarrassed me at the same time. The way Y/N was looking at me.
My friend was looking at me like I was the sky during the night, filled with the beautiful stars that light it all up. Like I was the most wonderful thing in the world. I could read her mind at that moment, and I knew how adorable she thought I was.
“Why are you so shy all of a sudden, Dan?” That bloody smug smirk plastered on her soft lips was so attractive that it soothed my anger.
And I was determined to keep on seething until the embarrassment eventually disappeared, but she was making it hard for me.
“I just kissed you in front of the whole world and expressed how adorable I think you are!”
“Could be worse” My friend wiggled her eyebrows, making a dramatic pause. “You could have kissed me in the lips”
“That’s enough” My whole face exploded in an obvious flush, so I immediately stood up.
I was already halfway to the door when she held my hand. Not my arm, not my wrist, not my shirt. My hand.
It took all the self-control within me not to intertwine my fingers with hers. Even though I never had the conscious thought that it was what I wanted to do until her hand held mine.
“Sorry, didn’t mean to actually harass you” Her playful and smug tone finally faded away to be substituted with an apologetic and gentle one. “I just found it so endearing that I couldn’t help but to tease you a bit”
There it was again, the silence and the stare. Even if knew any hints of playfulness left the environment, and there was only room for fondness.
It made me uncomfortable to admit my feelings, even to myself, so I rushed to pipe up and break the silence.
“It’s your fault anyway” I didn’t even know what I was saying anymore, all I could think about was the feeling of her hand against mine, and it was too distracting.
“For being adorable?” When Y/N friendly raised her eyebrows, I finally relaxed.
We had been friends long enough to understand non-verbal language, and I knew her demeanor was her way of telling me it was all okay. I didn’t need to feel ashamed for what I had done, because she had enjoyed it.
Another pause. But at least this one was comfortable, it didn’t suffocate me.
We looked at our joined hands, and it was her who intertwined her fingers with mine.
“Let’s talk about it then” Her lips beautifully curled up in a grin that I couldn’t resist.
I nodded quietly and followed her as she gently tugged at my arm, swinging our hands as we went to sit down in my bed together.
I looked at her, knowing I was giving her the same look she gave me before. One full of love and adoration, with fondness and tenderness. Just then did I find myself wondering in which way.
“Do you… do you have a crush on me?”
“I don’t know...”
“Just answer the question, Dan: yes or no. I won’t get mad or anything”
“I honestly don’t know!”
“Then we’re screwed” She sighed, leaning her head on my shoulder and hiding her face in my collarbone. Her hand never left mine. “Because I don’t either”
“Well shit” Even though my heart was racing and thumping against my chest, I preferred to pretend like her response didn’t affect me that much.
Just play it cool. She might like you back... but you don’t even know if you like her in the first place, you twat!
“Phil was right…” Y/N uttered absently, heaving a content sigh.
“I’m not gonna be the one to tell him, though” I chuckled, making her let out a hearted guffaw that was music to my ears.
Every time Y/N laughed that adorable and contagious laughter of hers, a precious puppy was born.
But yes, our friend Phil was definitely right. He was always saying how close we two were, even for best friends, that it was weird. We didn’t even know why people kept mistaking us for a couple, but now that I thought about it I could understand the missunderstandings.
Phil would walk in on us cuddling and watching a movie like we were lovers. Me holding Y/N close to me, absently playing with her hair while commenting on the movie. Her nuzzling her nose against my neck –which, for the first time in my life, wasn’t weird. Y/N was the only person in the world that could touch my neck and it didn’t feel like it was being invasive. Other than, maybe Phil –and sleepily answering me.
It wasn’t the first time that she fell asleep on my arms either. Or that I carried her to bed. All those things came so naturally to us…
I made her laugh because it was literally the most beautiful sound in the world. She insisted on spending more time with me because she missed me whenever we were away, despite of the fact that we lived in the same house.
Oh god, we were totally dating and we didn’t even know! We just thought of those things as innocent signs of platonic affection, but… what if they weren’t?
We were probably too close for too long. We probably spent way too much time together. We probably knew each other too well. We probably were developing a huge crush that we passed as a special friendship.
Why was that, there and then, the first time I actually felt butterflies in my stomach when I held her hand? We had done so many times before, playfully or absently, but we had.
Maybe it was the first time we consciously did it.
Before I could either eat my head or convince myself that my feelings for her weren’t just purely fraternal, I felt her lips caressing my cheek ever so gently.
“What…?” I slowly looked over to her, wondering how long was I quiet for. “What was that for?”
Y/N shrugged and looked down, apparently calm. But she was blushing, and she then giggled in an adorable way.
“Just testing something out” Was her timid response.
“You missed” I perked up before I could think twice. “My lips are down here”
Oh, how the tables had turned. Now I was the one to be all smug staring at her while she violently blushed, cute and embarrassed.
Stupid of me, I fell in my own trap. I found myself craving the touch of her lips, so I leaned in as fast as she did. Needless to say, it resulted in a giant flop.
Eager to kiss each other, we had flung ourselves to the other’s face. Too eagerly.
Instead of our mouths meeting, it was our noses which bumped into each other.
That was it, that was the definite cringe fest. I was already shutting my eyes tight, knowing that it was hard to fuck up worse. I could already see that event going deep into my memories, staying there etched in my brain until I eventually blocked that shit.
But I opened my eyes, pleasantly surprised, when Y/N laughed at our awkward and silly encounter. She found it cute and funny.
I smiled in relief, seeing as she didn’t think I was a total loser. And I actually chuckled along with her.
“Real smooth, Y/N” I teased her, trying to keep up that amazing mood.
“Me?!” She exclaimed, outraged even though she was laughing out loud. “It wasn’t my fault!”
“I’m gonna try it again” I announced, reluctantly letting go of her hand to gently hold her face instead. “And this time I’m gonna kiss you on the lips!”
My serious tone made her laugh even more, despite the fact that it wasn’t my intention. Truth was, Y/N had always been giggly anyway. All the more reason to give her a little push and keep her happy.
I gingerly pulled her face closer to mine, just as I tried to close the distance by leaning in myself. But just when I brushed her lips with mine, she smiled on my mouth and pulled away.
“Y/N!” It actually made me quite mad, because I had been so close to kiss her just to be snatched from the opportunity.
“Sorry, I’m sorry” She covered her face in an attempt to drown her laughter. “It just was hilarious, we were so sexy and serious and…”
“How do you expect us to find the truth if we don’t even kiss to test it?” I fondly chuckled as I observed her.
But I knew it would only get worse, develop into an actual laugh attack, unless I did something about it. And I was craving her lips too much to let that happen.
“Stop laughing, you nerd” I firmly settled my hands on her waist, taking a huge risk –yolo, right? –and attracting her towards me with as much passion as I could possibly gather.
She squeaked in surprise as our fronts touched.
When our lips finally met, I felt how I relaxed from a tense posture I didn’t even realize I was having. So did Y/N, who melted in our embrace.
If we had doubts before, any traces of those were soon gone. It was undeniable, unmistakable.
The heat that came over me, the butterflies intensifying inside my stomach, the desire to have her even closer despite our mouths being connected, the immense wave of affection that rushed through me as I thought of her.
I didn’t know how long we had been kissing for, I lost track of time because it felt so good to pull away. All I knew was that I needed to stop for oxygen, and she was breathing heavily as well when we broke away.
Almost as in a silent understanding, our foreheads rested against each other as we smiled. I dedicated her the sweetest and most loving grin I could do.
“Well, it’s definite” Y/N gently backed away to look into my eyes, shoving a tuft of her hair behind her ear. I had never seen her so… flirty. “I’ve got a crush on the meme lord”
This time it was me who laughed, not really expecting such sentence to come out of her mouth.
“Meme lord, huh?” I squeezed her sides mercilessly as I held on to her hips. “Is that way to call your boyfriend?”
I could see the shock in her eyes, which was what made me realize of the word I had just used.
Wow, Dan, you realize you like a girl and kiss her once and she’s suddenly your girlfriend? How more painfully awkward can this get?!
“I shall call my boyfriend whatever loving pet names I want” Came her witty remark, to my surprise. As though she was consenting, she was agreeing that she wanted us to be a couple now. Which was fine by me. “You dork”
Instead of it sounding like a loving insult, it sounded like an actual compliment from her lips. How could just one person hold so much adorableness?
Still taking her by the hips, I tried to swing her around to sit her in my lap because I just wanted to have her even closer. It was all in good fun, we were being playful and cute. Until I freaked the fuck out.
Y/N was not ready for me to sway her around, because she squeaked very loudly and held on to my neck for dear life.
“Oh my god!” I screamt at the top of my lungs, thanking whatever superior forces above that Phil wasn’t home to hear it. “Y/N!”
I was quick enough to move her onto the bed instead, because she would have heavily fallen to the floor otherwise. But I just basically threw her to the mattress in pure terror, in a frantic and completely unconscious movement.
“Are you okay?! Y/N, I’m sorry!! I didn’t mean to… oh God, I’m so sorry!!!”
I should have expected it, knowing this girl, but she curled over herself and started having a laughing fit. Much to my relief.
“You utter nerd” I softly slapped her in the leg as I recovered from a heart attack.
“Oh, Dan…” Y/N mumbled as her laughter slowly died down after a while. “Nice reflexes”
Realizing why I did that stupid thing in the first place, she took the initiative to sit in my lap herself. Once there, she hugged me and hid her face in my shoulder.
Hers were shaking with the remnants of the laughter that still made her giggle a little. But her arms around me were warm and comforting, reminding me that even with yet another fuck up, Y/N was all on board.
If my awkwardness didn’t make her uncomfortable and instead it made her laugh, I considered that a win.
“I feel so bad, though” I mumbled, still a little traumatized from almost accidentally killing my new girlfriend. “Are you okay? Did you hit your head or something?”
“No, I fell in the bed perfectly fine” She said against my shirt, sending shivers down my spine since her breath filtered through the fabric and tickled my skin. “I’m fine, don’t worry”
“Are you sure?” I laughed a little, hurriedly wrapping my arms around her once I realized I should be reciprocating the embrace. “I feel like I need to buy you a drink to make up for it all”
“Nice callback, Danny” Y/N finally showed me her face, with a bright smile to light it up.
“I feel like I ruined the moment” I frowned, genuinely worried, making a face to correct myself. “Moments”
“No, you just made it more special” I could tell by her tone that she meant it, that she wasn’t just saying it to make me feel better.
“Aw” I amorously squeezed her against me, treasuring her touch and how she snuggled closer into me when I did.
I just held her, I hugged her tight.
I was hugging my actual girlfriend, who moments before was my closest friend who happened to be a girl.
What even had just happened?!
Wooo! This took forever to write, but I finally had the motivation and inspiration to finish it! Sorry to keep you all waiting, but thank you so much for the feedback because it’s what mainly pushed me to write a part 2 for you guys! Here was the demanded sequel to ‘Liveshow’, I hope you all loved it as much as the first one <3
A/N: I got this idea from this post, from the @imaginedanandphil blog, which is really good! :D Also, written in Dan’s POV!!
Summary: Dan is in the middle of a liveshow when Y/N randomly decides to be loud on the other room and distracts him. Until she ends up joining him, with unexpected results.
For fuck’s sake. Y/N was being so loud in the other room, she was probably playing a game and having a rage fest because of it. Or fangirling about something. One thing or the other. Maybe even both, something to do with feels.
But since I was in the middle of a liveshow and couldn’t exactly do much at that moment, I resolved to just roll my eyes and grin at the camera with a resigned chuckle.
“Y/N is being so noisy” It was kind of distracting to hear her, even if I tried to focus on the people on the chat. “Rude…”
I grinned and held a finger up while I quietly listened to her. At that very moment, she was squeaking and then shouting some gibberish.
“Oh, yeah” I laughed in amusement. “Typical Y/N”
I briefly glanced over to the screen and read some comments, trying to read something out loud and maybe reply to something. But just then Y/N loudly hit something repeatedly and made me lose my focus again.
“I’m just gonna text her” I shook my head as I grabbed my phone. “At least she didn’t ally with Phil this time”
They knew Phil and Y/N would sometimes purposely ruin my liveshows by being rambunctious little shits. It was a thing we had going on, sometimes I would mess with them while they’re in the middle of a liveshow as well.
“Sup, Y/N?” I said out loud as I typed the words to text her. “Can you not? Trying to do some bants with the lads”
Then I hit send and looked up to the screen again. Everyone was going crazy about my friend, so many comments about her. I chuckled at the sight.
“’Please bring Y/N’” I read out loud. “’Tell her to come’, ‘ask her to join in!’”
I was about to reply to all that and tell the viewers that she wouldn’t feel like it and I didn’t want to bother her really. But then my door swung open and when I turned around, I saw her standing there.
“I didn’t even mean to be loud, I’m sorry!” My friend seemed so worried that she had pissed me off by accident. “I just got so angry playing!”
I didn’t get why, since she would purposely piss me off on a daily basis. So I laughed out loud, deeply enjoying her face expression.
“What were you playing anyway?” I asked her in a high-pitched voice as she came in.
“Witcher 2!” Y/N exclaimed angrily. “The controls get on my nerves sometimes and it’s infuriating”
I just chuckled and motioned to the screen and webcam as I still looked at her.
“Well, join me if you’d like” Then I turned around as soon as she walked closer and sat at the edge of the bed next to my chair.
“Okay…” She quietly said, standing there with her hands restlessly laying on her lap.
“In case any of you guys don’t know, this is my friend Y/N!” I happily announced. “She’s appeared in some of mine and Phil’s video, you surely remember her”
When I took my eyes away from the webcam to look at her, I noticed how she was fidgeting, bouncing her leg or fiddling with her own fingers.
“Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god…” She kept mumbling to herself, so low that I could barely even hear.
“Are you actually nervous?” I asked her, grinning in amusement.
To cheer her up, I messed up her hair fondly seeing as it was taking her a bit to answer.
“I’m so afraid I’m going to embarrass myself on the internet” She told me in a whisper, to which I rolled my eyes.
“Fuck’s sake, Y/N” I placed a playful hand on her shoulder, softly shaking her around. “You’re talking to me about getting embarrassed on the internet?”
Relaxing a bit, she finally chuckled.
“Right, sorry” Y/N kept nibbling on her bottom lip. “It’s just we’re live and can’t really edit it out”
“I’m sure it’ll be fine” I had fallen off chairs on liveshows and so many other crap, it was embarrassing but not the end of the world. “Let’s answer some q’s, shall we?”
Y/N sent a determined head nod my way, to which I friendly winked an eye to her.
“How did you meet?” I read a question that was being asked in the chat and started laughing.
I had forgotten how contagious my laughter was for her until the moment she chuckled and it developed into a more natural and relaxed guffaw as well.
“Okay… tell them, Dan” She encouraged me.
“Right, so…” I grinned widely and looked at the webcam. “You all know I’m literally the most awkward person in the world, right?”
Y/N then chuckled again and hid her face on her hands as she began having a mild laugh attack. She was definitely thinking back to that moment, and I didn’t blame her. It was so stupidly awkward and cringe worthy.
“It was awful” She whined in between chuckles.
“I swear it was like in a bloody cheap romance movie or something” I started to say, licking my lips absently. “Since I’m so big and wasn’t looking where I was going, I bumped into her”
“Which is strange, seeing as he never leaves the house” Y/N was definitely feeling more comfortable, because she was straight up roasting me.
“Rude” I quickly muttered before I kept narrating. “And of course, I knocked Y/N onto the floor”
The both of us just started laughing.
“You major nerd”
“And so” I continued, merely acknowledging her loving insult by glancing at her for a second before I set my eyes back on the webcam. “I of course freaked the fuck out”
“You should have seen his face!” By that point, Y/N was almost crying from laughter. Her voice was high-pitched as she wiped a tear from the corner of her eye. “And I wasn’t even angry or anything”
“Oh, but I felt terrible” I assured, nodding vehemently. “So I apologized non- stop and pulled her up, asking if she was okay, and still saying ‘sorry’ like a bloody parrot”
“Dan… he-he” Y/N wanted to add something, but was laughing too hard to form any coherent words.
“But yeah, we introduced ourselves and that’s how we meet”
“The nerd offered to buy me a drink or something to make it up for me since he was feeling so bad about it!”
“Moving on” I chuckled, reading the chat.
Everyone was commenting about our story. Saying it was hilarious, adorable or very silly. The three of those options were correct.
“What music have you been listening to recently?” I read a comment out loud, but couldn’t get the username since it got lost in the ocean of comments in the chat.
“A lot of videogames soundtracks, actually” Y/N replied, comfortably leaning on the bed as she recovered from her laugh attack. “Mainly Final Fantasy VII, Kingdom Hearts and Undertale”
“Same” I sweetly grinned at her.
“What about you, Dan?” She smiled back at me. “Anything else?”
“Muse, actually” I told her, turning back to them and looking into the webcam as if it were obvious. “The last album is brilliant”
Someone had made the mistake of bringing Muse up in the chat, and so I was rambling and fangirl about it for a while.
However, something made me stop. I felt something touching my hair very lightly, almost in an unnoticeable way. I then heard a muffled chuckle and before I even turned around I knew it was Y/N.
“What…?” I began saying, when I saw her giggling.
“I’m sorry!” Y/N whined between fits of laughter. “I started to mess up your hair, but I didn’t really want to upset you and…”
“What’s even happening?” I laughed a little, observing her in amusement.
“I just…” She was just having another laugh attack, which I found adorable since she provoked it herself. “I just stroked your hair carefully with one single finger and it was hilarious”
I couldn’t help but to laugh a little as she completely lost it and burst out in loud guffaws of laughter. She got so silly and giggly sometimes.
“Please don’t tickle me” She begged me as she wiped her eyes from more laugh tears. “I didn’t even do anything”
She knew me really well. Whenever she jokingly annoyed me I would retaliate by tickling her. And it was hilarious because Y/N was extremely ticklish.
“You can’t tell me what to do” I replied coolly with a shrug, starting to tickle her immediately.
“No!” She hid her face on my shoulder and squirmed around as I laughed evilly and kept poking her sides. “Stop it!”
It was even funnier because she started talking in a high-pitched voice and acting like an adorable puppy or something.
“Danny!” Y/N held on to my hands to try and stop me, but failed miserably.
“Do not touch my hair!” I tried to appear serious for comical purposes even if I couldn’t keep a straight face and began laughing so much I had to stop.
Just on time, though, because when she started squeaking I knew she was on the verge of breaking down. It wouldn’t be the first time that Y/N would throw herself to the floor and softly laugh as she recovered from the tickles.
Instead, she just kept leaning on my shoulder, breathing heavily and still giggling softly.
“Daaaaan” Y/N said with a high-pitched voice, trying to tell me off.
But it just caused a genuine guffaw of laughter from me. When she looked up at me with a cute pout I couldn’t help myself.
“You’re so adorable” I couldn’t hold back the urge to hug her tight and kiss her in the cheek.
It was like when you see a kitty or a puppy, get cuteness overload, and actually implode. Just that with a person who happened to be one of my best friends.
But then I actually realized what I had just done. The fact that I had been so affectionate to wrap her in my arms, bring her closer to me and actually kiss her. I had just kissed Y/N, oh my God!
“Um…” I mumbled in awe, not knowing how to act anymore.
“Did you just kiss me, Dan?”
My stomach squirmed even more and my eyes opened wide when I remembered something. We were still live, and everyone on the internet had just witnessed that horrible embarrassing and intimate moment.
I immediately let go of Y/N and threw myself to the computer like my life depended on it.
“Thanks for hanging out with me guys, see you soon!” I panicked as I ended the liveshow and recovered from the ten heart attacks I was going through.
Could you make a Dan imagine where he gets jealous and him and Y/N have been friends for a while and like accidentally reveals his love for Y/N ? Also your writing is AMAZING!
I was halfway through my milkshake when I asked Dan to sit down in a bench that was close by.
Phil was out for the weekend, so I had asked Dan to go out for a walk around London. It surprised me when he left his browsing position and agreed to go out with me.
But we had been so distracted talking and laughing together that we didn’t really realize for how long we were walking. Which was a lot.
Since Dan and I had been friends for a really long time, time flew by when we were together. We got along perfectly well, we were really close to each other and the conversation flowed easily.
Still, I heavily sat on the bench. Dan did too, but he didn’t look tired at all.
“I’m exhausted” I sighed as I rested my head on Dan’s shoulder.
“Well, we have been walking literally the whole bloody evening” He chuckled.
I adored the sound of his laugh. And when he said ‘bloody’, for whatever the reason.
A frozen gust of wind passed by, making me shiver. I had been slightly cold all evening, and the cold milkshake I had just finished didn’t help much.
“You’re shaking” Dan mumbled, shrugging my head off his shoulder. “If you’re cold, you could have asked for my jacket, Y/N”
Without a word, he took off his black jacket and put it over my shoulders.
With a tiny smile, I put my head back on his shoulder and put my arms through the sleeves of his jacket. It smelled like his deodorant.
“Are you going to fall asleep on my shoulder?” He joked, as I was really quiet.
“Mm… no” Still, I was so sleepy. I wished he could just carry me back home.
Dan chuckled and began tickling me.
“Stop” I groggily said, but I didn’t move. I wouldn’t tell him, but I loved it when he got playful with me and started to tickle me or something along those lines.
“You were more fun when you chatted with me and laughed at my puns” He complained even though I still could sense the smile on his voice.
“Just leave me here to die” I joked, lazily pushing myself off his shoulder and finishing my milkshake, only a tiny little sip more. I thought the cold beverage would wake me up a little.
I heard him chuckle again and when I looked at him I noticed his lips were pursed together and his shoulders were shaking with silent laughter.
“What are you laughing at?” I asked him when I finished the freezing milkshake.
“You look so tiny in my jacket, it’s adorable” He showed me a wide grin that made me laugh as well.
“It’s not my fault that you’re taller than I am” I shrugged and shoved the empty milkshake cup against his chest.
He smiled at me one last time before he stood up and went to throw it into a trashcan.
As I saw him walk away, I chuckled and sighed. That nerd...
“Y/N?” A voice said next to me, so I looked up.
“Colin!” I quickly jumped to my feet and gave him a hug.
Colin was one of my high school classmates. I hadn’t seen him in forever, and we were really good friends, so it was great to see him again.
“Hi, it’s been so long!”
He gave me a bear hug and smiled at me when we pulled away.
“Yeah! How are you?” I asked him, shoving my hands in Dan’s jacket’s pockets.
“Great, I did a lot of traveling and-“
“Who is this?” Dan’s voice startled me as I almost forgot I was hanging out with him.
“Dan, this is Colin” I introduced them, watching how they shook hands.
I had told Dan about him a couple of times. I spoke about our shenanigans or how often Colin made me laugh because he was hilarious. I always got in trouble during classes because he would say something that would have me in a laughing attack in the middle of the lesson.
Whenever I told Dan about him and asked him if he remembered Colin, he’d say: ‘yeah, that guy’.
“Hi” Dan dryly told him, and immediately after that he put a hand on my shoulder urgently.
“So how are you, Y/N, how’s-?” Colin was about to talk, but Dan interrupted him.
“We have to go, Y/N” Taking me by the arm, Dan pushed me away. “Sorry, Colin, nice to meet you”
“Bye!” I waved goodbye at my old friend.
“Why the hurry?” I lowly asked Dan, absently looking at my arm as he was still holding it as we walked.
“You’re tired. And it’s cold” Was all he said, but he didn’t even look at me as he did.
What was wrong with him?
*
We were halfway home and I had asked him to sit down again a few times.
Dan was absent and thoughtful. He kept frowning, fiddling with his hands and staring at the floor.
What happened with his usual cheerful and playful mood? He was so quiet!
One didn’t have to be a genius to know what was bothering him so much. We had been friends long enough for me to realize he was jealous.
I smiled a little to myself as I knew what worried him was that I found another friend and replaced him.
So as we were walking down the streets in silence, I gave him a hug.
“What are you doing?” Dan hugged me back, but it took him by surprise.
Even if I was a cuddly kind of person and loved physical contact and would randomly hug him -especially him because reasons -, I admit that the situation didn’t quite fit the hug.
We hadn’t talked in like fifteen minutes and I was suddenly hugging him. But he didn’t seem to mind that much when he fondly hugged me tighter.
“You’re all pouty and jealous and I just want to make you happy again” I said, slowly pulling away and looking up at him.
“I… wasn’t jealous” Dan cleared his throat and diverted his gaze from me.
“Come on, Dan” I playfully shoved him. “I know you too well. You were, but it’s okay”
Finally, he looked down to me and smiled sweetly. There he was again!
“You’re my friend… you know I would never replace you. You’re my best friend” For so long we had been friends that I had started to wonder if I didn’t see something else in him.
Lately I admired everything he did. Every gesture and every look. But it couldn’t be.
Sure, he was lovely. He was kind, funny, sassy, smart and really sweet. And he was really attractive and those dimples were adorable. And his brown eyes were really beautiful. So I loved him, yeah. But it had to be just as a friend. One doesn’t fall in love with her best friend.
Right?
Dan’s smile, however, disappeared as soon as it had appeared.
“You would never replace me because I’m your friend…” He repeated my words, so I nodded.
It was a second after I had nodded that I realized his voice had sounded strange. Fed up.
“I’m your best friend…”
“Dan?”
“Why can’t you fucking see that I’m in love with you?! Is it that hard to realize, Y/N?!”
After that outburst, we both stood there wide eyed, not saying anything.
He was in love with me?! How long had he been in love with me for?
Did that mean that those strange feelings I had been experiencing… starting to see him in a different way… admiring him and smiling just at the thought of him… that tingling in my stomach when we were together... He felt them too?
Did that mean I was in love too?
He simply shook his head and started to walk away.
“Dan, wait!” I held him back by taking his hand. He seemed to embrace the warmth of my grip, because he stopped and sighed.
Dan turned around to look at me, the sadness and misery visible in his eyes.
I frowned and placed my hand on his shoulders with determination. I pushed him down so he would bend down a little while I also stood on my tiptoes.
“What are you doing?” Dan asked me, staring at me. He was still blushing after what he had so bluntly confessed to me.
“I’m trying to kiss you, you twat!” I exclaimed, pouting. “But I’m short and you’re so bloody tall that –“
Before I could finish my sentence, Dan had wrapped his arms around the small of my back and held me against his torso as he lifted me up, my feet losing contact with the floor.
And finally I could kiss him. So I didn’t think twice, I kissed him.
I thought it would feel weirder, having been friends for so long. But it felt… right.
His lips were soft, and his touch was sweet and passionate.
We smiled at each other for a while when we pulled away until I chuckled.
“You can put me down now”
“What if I don’t want to?” He smirked at me, and I found myself admiring that smirk. As I had done many other times.
“I’ll pick on you” I simply defended myself, cocking my head to the side.
“You got nothing on me” Was that a challenge?
“Remember that time you were jealous of Colin?”
Dan groaned in response, but he didn’t put me down.
“Too soon” Was all he said.
“Dan!” I insisted, wriggling in his grip. He didn’t even seem to be getting tired of supporting my weight.
“Nope” He shook his head in a cute way that made me smile.
“I’ll let you hold my hand all the way home”
“Deal” He finally put me down carefully and got hold of my hand quickly.
(y/n) yelled and slammed the door to her room shut. She couldn’t stand being in this house a second longer. She was drained by all of the rude demands and the judgmental looks she’d receive after trying to explain her emotions. It had all got too exasperating, she was ready for a change. A change away from the screaming and the fighting. She needed a change more than anything.
She picked up her phone with shaky hands and dialed the oh too familiar number waiting for the familiar deep voice to pick up. Sure enough he answered and quicker than (y/n) expected him to, considering it was three in the morning.
"Hello?" he said in a raspy voice.
"D-Dan I need to go" she cried.
"(y/n) go where? Whats the matter? Are you okay?" he asked sounding now wide-awake and panicked.
"I need to get away from here, anywhere. Please Dan” (y/n) desperately begged.
"Are you a hundred percent sure?”.
"Yes a hundred percent, just please get me out of this shit hole!" she wailed.
"Meet me at our place in twenty minutes, only bring the essentials and make sure to go out your window, we don’t want to raise suspicions" he then hung up the phone.
(y/n) grabbed the big duffle bag from under her bed and began to throw in clothes and a few possessions of sentimental value.She picked up her purse and shoved her phone inside of it, then slung it around her body. She laced up her converses and opened up her window slowly. She stuck a leg out and looked around her room for the last time, she sighed and jumped out before she could change her mind. She began to run down to the park down the street, she was going to run and never look back.
She showed up at the playground just as Dan did in his Chevy pick-up. The red vehicle halted to a stop in front of (y/n). She smiled as she threw the bulky bag into the tail bed and opened the passenger door. She climbed in and sat down, feeling relived for the first time in months. She turned her head to look at the love of her life,her perfect boyfriend Dan.
He grinned widely at the distressed girl and brought her into a giant hug. As soon as (y/n) head hit Dan’s shoulder she began to cry. She cried tears of sadness, stress but mostly relief.They pulled apart from the embrace and looked at each other. Dan noticed that her once gleaming (y/c/e) eye was now dull and surrounded by dark purple.
"What the fuck did she do?!” he asked in a hushed tone.
"I mad her mad, I needed to be taught a lesson" she quaked.
"No you didn’t, you didn’t do anything wrong. Do you hear me (y/n)? You’re perfect and you didn’t do anything wrong” he assured his crying girlfriend.
"Thank you so much Dan, I honestly don’t know what I’d do without you".
"No problem baby, now where are we headed?".
(y/n) pulled out the map and looked around at all the different options. The couple had been planning this 'trip' for months now, they had just been waiting for the perfect time for departure and it looked like it was now, at three forty-four in the morning. She glanced at the giant colored paper for a few more seconds before folding it up and declaring the state they’d travel to would be Delaware. Dan nodded knowing exactly why she had chosen that state. He pulled out of the parking lot onto the road and began the quest.
"This is really it, Iv’e dreamed about this day for years and it’s finally here” (y/n) said in awe.
"It is here, the day we get away from this tainted town. It's the day we run until our feet bleed, the day the slate goes clean. Today is the day we start our own life, together".
(y/n) had tears brimming in her eyes by the time Dan had finished talking. She leaned over and grabbed his hand and wrapped hers around it. She brought it up to her lips and placed a big kiss to his knuckles.
"I love you more than anything in this planet" she sniffled.
“My bounty is as boundless as the sea, my love is as deep; the more love I give to thee the more I have, for both are infinite my dear Juliet.”
"To you as well my sweet sweet Romeo".
a/n: sorry its so short i just have a lot to do and i wanted to finish it today oops
